(normally I update last, but i'm being selfish.. me first today) haha SO..... WE SAW THE HEARTBEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay! I was so happy and wanted to cry. It was so beautiful. I feel silly because it's just a black and white static-y ball inside a black ball inside a static-y ball but man, that pulsing heart on the static-y ball made everything in me so happy.
My dh and my boys were with me, and i could tell it meant a lot to dh (it makes it way more real) and then ds1 just kept asking to see the picture of the baby. The doc gave us two and i think i am going to hang one up in their room so he can see it. He just kept wanting to see the baby. :) I love that boy. Both of them are the kindest little hearts ever.
And after the OB i started bleeding badly (but he roughed up my cervix a bit because i have a severely tilted uterus) and the doc said was just the cervix because it's too vascular. So it actually made me feel better. I mean i hate bleeding--but i much prefer non miscarrying bleeding to miscarrying bleeding!
In more news, we met with two different offices today to make it a decision between: homebirth, hosp with OB, or hosp with midwives and i think we have made our decision. The OB was amazing. He is the most natural friendly man around. He made us so comfortable and wasn't like "well, i think" or "maybe" he said "i will get you a VBAC" no questions. He's amazing and so well respected and reviewed. I am actually really excited and peaceful about it. He was ALL ABOUT ME. and in pregnancy, i am so happy to have someone who is all about me. In everything he just wanted me to be happy. He is super busy, but you don't feel it. He sits with you. He even did our ultrasound himself--that never happens. With anyone. So i feel at peace. yay!
AND did i mention... THE BABY HAS A HEARTBEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really, i am overjoyed. I hope this baby keeps sticking! I really could not be more happy.
jend: The anxiety about it all can be so hard. I really hope you can find peace! I totally know though, i have been feeling REALLY good almost TOO good and it's gotten me frazzled, but i am trying to stay grounded and just appreciate this pregnancy and the blessing and MIRACLE it is to have this little bean growing in me!
LibraryMo and Beans: i completely know how you feel about the spotting. I hope it goes away soon and it was nothing but a little cervical change! (LibMo) i really hope you son feels better soon! That would be terrible!
jodie: The kids are darling! I love the personal pictures. It makes you feel more like the people are real. It's fun! I love the curly blonde hair! Can i steal it? I just need a curly haired baby!
love bug: I hope the kids surgeries went well!
Well, it's time for bed for me. That was a long long long long long day. But it was great. I could talk forever... But i need to sleep! I hope all keeps going well and i can't wait to hear about your babies more!
*****PS THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for all your thoughts, prayers, and support! It has meant so much! I am so happy i get to stick around with all of you!!!******