How is nursing? Sleep? Healing? What's going on in your life? Is the family visiting? How are your other kids dealing? First time moms, what are your feelings like about the new baby ?
DS is nursing like a champ, thank goodness. We had so many problems with DD not wanting to latch and just not having much of a need to suckle that we had to use SNS and spoonfeed her for the first month, meaning I was attached to my PIS constantly. I'm just so relieved that my milk has come in and he is a hungry little bug. His latch sucks, but we are working on it. In the meantime, my nipples are raw and hurting. I'm going to pump today to try to start freezing a little. Plus, my boobies are super engorged right now.
I drank a beer last night. Sweet deliciousness. Beer just doesnt taste the same when you are pregnant as is does afterwards. Sierra Nevada Ruthless Rye. It was amazing, and with no heartburn I miss my litte guy squirming around inside me, but my body feels SO much better.
DD is in love. She is just totally infatuated with his every movement. She had some pretty bad tantrums yesterday, but I think she is really coming down hard off of some grandparent time and needs to decompress. We are going to go for a big walk today (its 60 degrees!!!) and burn off some energy and play outside.I hope her love for him lasts. She has asked to nurse, and I let her try but she just giggled insanely and spit on me. It was pretty cute. The biggest problem as of yet seems to be that she wants so badly to carry him around. That, and she never sleeps. Its my toddler keeping me up, not my newborn.
The family has been great. Around just enough, and giving us plenty of space. I actually cant wait for them to arrive today so I can nap a little. We are going to venture out to the drugstore today with both kiddos in the car at the same time. DS has an appointment at the ped tomorrow so tomorrow will be our first real outing. We are going to stop by a grocery store too. I have been homebound for weeks, so I am ready to get OUT.
I'm feeling a little baby blues, depressed that Im not pregnant anymore and trying to process the birth (it was great, but fast and hard to grasp). Im going tomorrow to pick up my encapsulated placenta. I didnt have any PPD last time, and I hope to avoid it again but I hope if I can start getting out a little that will help. I was feeling blue even before he was born. Im trying to eat super healthy, because even though I only gained about 9 lbs I still need to lose a good 20.
I have a first degree tear and a huge bruise that runs down the side of my labia. When I opened up my lips yesterday and looked I was shocked to see a huge black line there. It hurts to pee, but Im spraying benzocaine everytime to numb up because Im a wuss. My tailbone is a little bruised, but the relief my hips and back feel from not being pregnant anymore is awesome. I can bend over again!
I will write a birth story soon, I just have to get my head straight first