WISSA!!!!!!!!!!! Report right back here after your beta! I hope this is it; I'm so excited!!
gozal: Hoping to hear good news from your FMU report!
Wissa - !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tears in my eyes over here! At 14dpo with a clear line, you can feel confident. Can't wait to hear about your beta!!!
Okay, no one get excited yet, I am actually not planning to test again this cycle. Don't kill me! I just can't take it. I cannot see one more BFN without losing it completely. I don't know what's wrong with me, yesterday night after I put DS to bed I came downstairs, sat down on the couch, and proceeded to cry for the next few hours. It's like I was crying out all these months and years of IF. I thought I would never feel better but finally I got through all those feelings. I really thought I was okay but then this morning, same thing. I just can't stop being emotional and weepy. I don't know what it is, or why now. I just feel crushed under the weight of this. Maybe because everything went so well this cycle, if it fails, what could that mean? So I though to myself, the worst part of every month for me is that time at the end of my cycle when I know I'm very likely not pregnant but I haven't gotten my period yet. My lp is (an otherwise nice) 14 days, so I don't usually get my period until later on 15dpo. That's a long time to wait from 11 or 12dpo. Even from 13. Since my progesterone has been fine and I probably won't need to supplement again, there really is no reason that I have to poas. I can just wait and see if I get a period or not. So that's what I'm going to do. There is a good chance I'll obsess over my temp, but that beats the heart palpitations while the test strip dries. And really, I don't even know about my tests from the last two days. Maybe the 8dpo was a shade darker than the day before, but we're talking about nano subtleties here. On the other hand, I woke up and hour and a half early today and my temp was nice and high, so that's something, right?
Sourire, wait, how did I miss that we're one mere dpo apart?! Hope your 8dpo trigger "leftover" turns into something surprising!!
gozal - I totally get not wanting to POAS anymore. I myself don't plan on taking any more pregnancy tests until I am forced to take one at 15DPO (which is 1 week from tomorrow) to see if I stop the progesterone. I'd rather keep the small bit of hope I have than know for sure it didn't work! In the past when I've tested earlier I was just so upset about those BFNs. I guess we'll both have to find ways to distract ourselves for the next week!
I hope that your crying helped you feel better... it's really important to let all our feelings out from time to time! My new passtime is finding infertility blogs where the people have finally succeeded in having a baby, and going back and reading about how they felt 1-2 months before they got their BFP. I was reading one like that yesterday... this girl was so depressed and discouraged and was pretty much about to be forced to give up on TTC forever for financial reasons, and then she got her BFP! So it could happen to any of us, even if when we're in a really difficult place!
scarlettohara - Welcome! I'm sure you will enjoy the support this group can provide. Sorry to hear you're on CD1, that's always depressing. Most people try just Clomid by itself first, and I've seen quite a few people get pregnant from just that (my SIL is one of them!). Obviously IUI has higher success rates, but its a lot more expensive than just plain Clomid, and you need to go into the fertility clinic more often (for some people it can be an issue getting time off work). The choice is yours! By the way do you or your DH have any known or suspected fertility issues?
Scarlettohara - Welcome!
Sourire and Gozal, I'm 7dpo today, I also plan on not testing, unless af does not show. I don't have the best willpower when it comes to not testing but I am going to try and save myself the crushing disappointment of the bfn. I am going to try and not obsess for the next week, although who am I kidding some cycles I obsess way more than others and this is one of them. Hoping you both get your bfp's next week! (and me too!).
Sourire +Gozal: I understand not testing too. It's why I stopped charting. My temp usually dropped at 11dpo and I wouldn't get AF until 15-16dpo so I'd have to suffer for a week feeling doomed, knowing there was no hope. I'd rather be surprised by AF being late and being forced to test. No more early testing for me, ever!
Thanks ladies!! Now isn't there a saying that good things come in groups of ten. Here's to hoping they do on this thread!!
I've been reading everyone's posts and it looks like several of you have had really good cycles this time. Fingers crossed on more news to celebrate!
WISSA: YAY!!!!! I'm super excited for you!!!
Gozal: Praying that things become more clear and that you do have a BFP!!!
THANK YOU EVERYONE!!! I am officially on 2nd shift so i'll be a little behind on the days events but at least i should be able to keep up with eveyone from now on!! I like having a set schedule finally...it's about darn time!!!
AFM: AF has FINALLY shown up so here's to a new month and a new cycle!!! I hope that we see more BFPs this month than we did last month!!! January wasn't a very giving month for all of us!!!