I'm so sick of DH right now. I can't stop crying and I just want him to go away. He's been so nasty to DD. He's got such an attitude and I feel SOOOOOOOOO under appreciated. He acts like I don't do shit around here everyday. He's always asking "well what did you do today?"
Well let's see, I took care of a 4 year old, I did your laundry, I cooked your dinner, I cleaned your dishes, I made your bed, I grew your baby, I cleaned your bathroom, I went and bought your groceries! What the eff did YOU do today? Oh wait you went to work, came home sat on your ass, played on your computer, at your dinner and went to bed. UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGg
He's SUPPOSED to be working on our kitchen which he began remodeling in December and it was supposed to be done before this baby gets here which it's not going to be. He was supposed to stop smoking before this baby got here and he hasn't even STARTED on that.
He went skiing without me and spent god only knows how much money $200 or so. Has bought all these toys for his camera which has totaled like $150 but when I want to go to the damn chiropractor I BECAUSE I"M IN PAIN i get a rash of shit for spending money. Or when I buy an $8 nursing gown I get the "disappointed" look. Or when I talk about buy more diapers I get "well I'm going to need a figure on how much more this is going to cost." and then he gets all pissed off and goes to bed.
I'm so freaking tired of this. No I don't work but I'm doing my damn best to save us as much as possible. I THOUGHT we decided to have this baby together but it doesn't feel like that any more. All I want to do is cry. I don't know what to do. This poor kid isn't ever going to have what he needs b/c I'm too scared to buy him anything.
I just feel like a total failure and totally unsupported by the ONE person I need to be supportive right now.
Okay vent over. Sigh I can't wait till it's bed time for DD. I just want to go to sleep and I know DH won't put her to bed.