This is my first pregnancy, an incredible surprise after seeing my terribly pitted ovaries on the ultrasound and being told that it would be a struggle for sure to conceive. The knowledge that I have PCOS does feed into my concern about an elevated risk of miscarriage.
I've had two beta tests, my last one on Thursday, February 1, but joy has given way to a desperate fear. It certainly does not help that I've lost most of my worst, earliest symptoms, which for me were a drippy nose and an achy varicose vein. (I only had very faint stomach issues - a surprise rising of food in my throat a few times - but no nausea. My breasts were never sensitive, either). I'm still having that faint feeling in my uterus that corresponds with the uterus stretching, but it's not nearly as pronounced as before. On one hand, plenty of women who have a sudden loss of pregnancy symptoms go on to be fine. On the other hand, a sudden loss of symptoms can be associated with an impending miscarriage.
I feel helpless. My doctor isn't going to take this call on a late Saturday or Sunday, and besides, what could he do? Nothing. My ultrasound isn't until the 16th. Do you think it would be neurotic for me to get more beta testing in the next few weeks?
More generally, is anyone else really experiencing much more fear than joy? I did not anticipate this set of fearful emotions being so strong at all when I daydreamed about getting pregnant!