I am so hesitant to post this, as I really don't want any negativity, just support please!
My 26 month old has been nursing about 2 times a day for about a month. We night weaned about 2 months ago. And really what happened is he moved into a room with his brother, but more often than not, DH ends up in bed with him.
This week, I decided we needed to stop nursing at nap time, which we co-sleep for. I have had 1 post-partum period, and that was 4 months ago. I am not ovulating. We are really ready to conceive #3. I have tried other methods to get my period back, acupuncture, herbal remedies, dropping feedings, night weaning etc. Nothing has worked. Thus, dropping another feeding.
Day 1 went ok, Day 2 DS was upset, but today was heartbreaking. He asked for booby once, then melted down. He screamed, cried, pinched me, punched me, bit me, pulled my hair, bashed me with his cup. He has never ever done any of that. Ever. He sobbed "I am sad Mama" over and over. He never tried to get out of bed, just raged next to me. I laid next to him, snuggling him, crying and singing our special song.
I know this isn't the end of the world. It won't be forever. But I am heartbroken about his reaction. I love nursing him. I don't want to wean him and really, I wish I didn't have to drop this feeding. But I need to move forward on getting my cycle back, so I can attempt to get pregnant again.
Please, no lectures on how I am damaging my boy. Trust me in that I am beating myself up about this already.
Is there anyone else who can relate?