I feel so stuck in life. I desperately just want to be a SAHM, but since I have no partner, that dream is impossible.
I have a beautiful 7 month old girl, and I love her with every fiber of my being. I just don't know what to do with the rest of our lives. I have no supportive family. We're...stuck in the middle of nowhere. There are no likeminded parents (or people in general) in our community. I'm finishing a degree in something I don't want to do, and I am becoming increasingly restless.
I often dream about some sort of co-op living situation in which I could do childcare/homeschooling and be able to stay with my daughter. This is probably wishful thinking, as I'm not sure a place like that even exists. I'm taking online classes and living off my student loans right now so at least I can stay home until the fall.
I always have plans for everything, so feeling like I'm traveling with no destination is really wearing on me. I don't have a group of supportive people in my life to brainstorm with. The advice I get is to bite the bullet, start a career I hate, and become a working mom like every other single mom. Of course, this is the track I'm on. I just want to know if there are any alternatives. Ideally, I want to homeschool my daughter, which won't be possible if I have to work full time. I also feel like these tender formative years are so important, and I need to be there for them.
So, mamas, is there anything I can do? I'm at a loss and having trouble being optimistic about the future. :(