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Taking the Scenic Route...to a BFP - Page 51post #1001 of 22199/16/12 at 8:07ampost #1002 of 22199/16/12 at 8:08ampost #1003 of 22199/16/12 at 8:48ampost #1004 of 22199/16/12 at 9:23ampost #1005 of 22199/16/12 at 11:49ampost #1006 of 22199/16/12 at 12:30pm
chrissy found the dancing ladies!! gtree this is just so exciting! so now we wait to find out if they are boy/boy, girl/girl, or boy/girl!! so nice to see an ultrasound picture on here!
chrissy/shell/sherry/skj - thanks so much for your replies. it is very helpful to just get that stuff off of my chest and know that you guys "get it".
chrissy - i look to you as inspiration. you kept going and it paid off and you've had to deal with a lot to get to where you are. and your sanity seems to still be intact ;-) i'm so glad you stood up in your marriage and got your husband to walk along side you. that must have felt very empowering to do that and i'm sure he is quite thankful now that you have your ds :)
sherry - yes, exactly, it feels like i'm choosing career over baby but i know that's not the case. i think it's just the superstitious part of me that always feels like i'm going to be punished for making a wrong decision. enjoy your O time shenanigans!
shell - i'm so excited for your follies!! this could be THE month!!!
skj- i love mind/body stuff as well. i think the hard part for me is balancing living for today while at the same time "working" towards a baby. you know? i think if i were to go on bc pills and not have a reason to think about getting/being pregnant it would be easier, but that constant "what if" is hard to keep in check. since you are into meditation/mindfulness stuff... have you read eckhart tolle's power of now? that was a total life changer for me. i read it at least once a year. i'm not the best at practicing mindfulness on a daily basis but i am way better than i was years ago and it has definitely made a difference in my life. also, i bought a sound and light machine and am trying that out as a meditation/visualization/self-hypnosis aid. kinda kooky but i'm pretty fascinated by kooky stuff :)
toothfairy - wtf with the O spotting? i hope you get more info from your doc.
afm - cd 9. just hanging out. saw a wee bit of ewcm last night. hoping it shows up in a big way in the next couple of days. gonna go use my kooky sound and light machine now and try to access my happy, fertile placepost #1007 of 22199/16/12 at 1:36pm
GTREE: YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY SOOO EXCITING CONGRATS I can't wait for more updates
Indie: enjoy your sound and light show... when I was a teenager we used to go to a pink floyd laser light show lol
Sherry: enjoy that DH yaaay for him being home during the big O
Chrissy: I am so glad your DH is on bored :-)
SKJ , Greentree , Lidmama, toothfairy ...
OHHH some updates I need to tell you ALL about ... I read that melatonin is bad when TTC cause it messes with our hormones and shortens our cycle... Geez that explains A LOT fo rme... I threw mine right out!!! I have been taking 1 a night UGH no more ... I just wanted to warn ya'll on that !!
AFM: SOOO I had my IUI today and everything looked good... we came home and BD also lol ... I am making sure to get this done!! I am so happy with my RE ... I have all the faith that this is going to work... I go back in 2 weeks Oct. 1 for my blood test ... I am feeling super positive about this one!! .... maybe I will be next in line for twins ((giggles)) I will be happy with onepost #1008 of 22199/16/12 at 5:10pm
GTREE!!! Twins!!! I love that sonogram image! Wow . . . what a fantastic result!
Indie, I'm with you . . . if I were a year or two younger, I wouldn't be so impatient and I would definitely be completely on board for going completely natural. My mental state today (read: on the brink of having a total meltdown) is making me want to do IVF tomorrow! I'm getting less nervous about it. It's such a tough balance to decide at our age . . . still young enough that it could totally happen on our own, but young enough that it could take more time than we have sanity. I totally feel you being pulled in different directions over the job situation, and boy do I understand. I try so hard to live my life in a non-pregnant way if that makes sense, but of course it's next to impossible! I have to think about my cycle day constantly before I do freaking anything, and then of course those big life decisions are so hard because we don't have a crystal ball and we don't want to put out life on hold forever, but then again it's so hard to not assume that, well, of course I'm going to get pregnant any time now (we must!!) and that influences everything. I do think you should go for it with the job though . . . you can always make a change later to something else if need be once pregnant, and then you won't regret not taking the job in the meantime. It does feel f..king mean that we are constantly forced to look at our non-kid lives. I hate it. I feel your pain so much and I'm sorry. What are you thinking now? Any more thoughts on this topic? Also, I really need to read The Power of Now. Seriously. Like I need to ready it NOW. Yay for EWCM! I hope you O soon!!
SKJ, thanks so much for making that comment about my eggs! I hope you are right. My AMH was 5.7 or something close to that, so I'm told I have great ovarian reserve. But it is true that egg quality is pretty poor by CD25+, right? Also, I'm completely late on this comment, but I love your potential conception story. Ha! DH and I have totally been there. :) That's really great about what you have left on insurance! I think every little nit picky thing has counted towards my lifetime maximum, so sadly I think I'm down to not much! Who is your insurance co, if I might ask? Please help me take the long view with you . . . I need something to help me. I really should get back to meditation -- good idea. Your continued positive energy and thoughts on this topic are helpful, so please keep 'em coming.
Shell, yay for IUI today! Come on sticky babies! I missed it before, so wanted to see you love and hugs about grandma! I had the same panic today as you mentioned -- What the hell am I waiting for? Why did we wait so freaking long?! See below for my explanations to those quasi-rhetorical questions, but I just wanted to say that I understand your feelings. I am so happy that you have an RE that gives your faith and hope!! That's gold, my friend.
Chrissy, what's happening? How'd bumping uglies go? ;) ha! Your story about struggling for those five years and then throwing in the towel, only to stand up and fight for what you wanted -- wow. Good for you and it's a real inspiration to see that it worked out! It resonates with me . . . see below. BTW, I just love 'playing cards'. Too cute!
Toothfairy, how are you? I could really use a boost of faith right now. I've really been starting to question everything. I'm also a once/twice a week kinda girl, and we pretty much have been doing it every other day for months. I am bored and exhausted! At least DH and I can laugh about it, but man, there are days where I literally can't even fake interest. It sounds like you have great insurance, too! If you decide to go some sort of IVF route, it sounds like it won't be too cost prohibitive, which is great! Can you share your B6 protocol? I might do that next cycle!
Sherry, good luck getting your BD on, girl! :)
AFM, well, I am in a pretty low place today. Actually I've been there all week, and sort of went into my little hidey hole, which I do when I just can't take it anymore. I don't know what's up with me, other than it's CD 26 and still no confirmed O. So just like last cycle, it will very likely be a no-go this round because at this point egg quality is so poor.
If you could allow me a moment to rant I would be so grateful.
My acupuncturist called me and had some new herbs for me (which were $45!!) and when I asked her when to take them she basically said that by this point even if I O it's not going to be a good O so I should just start them now. Hmm. Not really what I wanted to hear. She keeps telling me that acupuncture takes 3 months to regulate a cycle and that she is not worried, and basically she is pushing me to not doing anything with the new RE until I give acupuncture a real try. I want to do just that, but I feel tortured inside. A friend of mine texted me and ask about a book that I was reading almost a year ago about raising kids (she and her boyfriend visited us at that time and during their stay they were kind of arguing because he didn't think he wanted kids) and so I'm pretty damn sure she is pregnant. She managed to get divorced, find a new guy, convert him into wanting kids, and manage to likely get pregnant before me? I started crying right there at the restaurant when I read that text. I am just dying inside right now. I am starting to lose my faith in God, and am really mad at him, too! I know that's not a good thing to say, but I am just so upset. I can't keep doing this each and every month, and DH just keeps telling me that I need to have patience and that it will happen. But that makes me so frustrated too because he was the one who made us wait this long so I have a lot of resentment over that. He is not allowed to tell me to have patience!! I would have had plenty of patience and faith 2 years ago when I was already desperate to start trying, but now? IMPOSSIBLE! Then DH tells me basically that he believes that every time I freak out over this that I am sending the wrong message to my body and that staying positive is much more helpful. I don't know what to do you guys. How do I stay sane through this? Unless a counselor can get me pregnant I don't think that will really help. I think all of this has pushed me into more so thinking that I will give it until my RE appt on 10/19 and then I'm going for it, whatever 'it' is. It all just feels so painfully unfair.post #1009 of 22199/16/12 at 6:58pmpost #1010 of 22199/16/12 at 7:31pm
Hello my lovelies- so much going on here today.
gtree- again, you are an inspiration to all of us. I am so thankful to have shared this journey with you and look forward to experiencing it with each woman who crosses our path. Congratulations again and again. Are you going to find out the sexes? Beautiful ultrasound photo of beautiful, well deserved, very much wanted and loved children. So many 'aunties' here cheering them (and you) on.
indie- It is a struggle every day to live in limbo. Not counting your chickens but also not stacking the cards against you to be a successful mother by changing work stability. I can't speak for everyone but I think we can all relate to these situations. For a long time, in my case I lived every day in case I was pregnant. I wen't crazy- I had such sad low days. Then for a few months (surgery month and most of the summer- in ways including now) that I have behaved in most ways that I am not pregnant. I have a drink when I want to (still infrequently but more than for a year or more prior to surgery), I make vacation plans more than 9 months in advance, I even when to the gym on Saturday POST ovulation (a first for that in over a year). My input, and you can do whatever you choose is best for you and your husband (and future baby) is to take the opportunity. You can always back out in 9 months, or 10 months or a year... Women get pregnant all the time and your work will understand. It does get to a point where you feel like you are betraying your body by acknowledging that it is taking too long and you don't trust it to work soon enough that you are putting plans on hold but at the same time by not living life an seizing opportunities you are betraying your soul- your ambition, your motivation and your happiness. You will decide with your husband what is best. But, your life will figure itself out when you get pregnant- new job or not. Love and hugs my friend. IF sucks.
bebe- Your situation is another I think we can all relate to in our own way. I'll be honest, I'm in a very good place right now. Impatience is getting the best of me but he hatred/misunderstanding toward God and my body and my life was very real for a long time. For me it was worst between 6-12 months of trying. Then after my first failed Clomid cycle I knew we were in trouble, I had 3 beautiful perfect eggs, 2 on my right 1 on my left and perfect timing. I lost faith then. It took learning about NaPro and having faith in a different way to help my confidence and my attitude. The women here help too of course. I think it is just a natural part of the process and it is how you get through those feelings that define how you will survive infertility. It ruins marriages, destroys families, and can cause severe depression but there can be a better way. It can strengthen your marriage, it can teach you about yourself and your body and it can draw you closer to God. But not everyday, some days you still feel mad at everyone and everything and that is okay. I think for me, realizing that my feeling are justified is what gets me through it. Also that as justified as my feeings are it is nobodys responsability but my own to own those feelings and get through it even when it sucks. Nobody else can make it better, if I fall down that dark hole it is me in that dark hole and although you may get sympathy from airing it out, nobody feeling bad for you will make you truely feel better. Know what I mean? Talking it out certainly helps me but I really keep my emotions just to you all because people in real life just don't get it on a daily basis, they do occasionally but I have no go-to person in real life. I'm getting long-winded here but just know we support you and you are justified in feeling impatient and resentful and mad and overwhelmed, just don't let it define you- there is so much more to you than infertility, embrace those parts when the going gets tough. As far as the B-6 , I was told to start 500mg for 4-5 days before ovulation to increase quality of cervical fluid and strenthen the corpus luteum.
Shell- YAY for a good IUI and awesome follicles!
Chrissy- Hope the deeds were successful for O :)
SKJ- Thanks for the link. My boss is actually having us do a mediation class (4 weeks) by the Boston Budda. I am looking forward to it! I am hoping it helps!
I'll get back with an AFM tomorrow, it was a busy day and I need to get to sleep to be ready for work tomorrow!!post #1011 of 22199/17/12 at 7:59am
happy new week, everyone :)
chrissy - i forgot to mention that i also laughed out loud at your parents "playing cards"! ha! my parents never had a euphemism for "it" but i always knew what was up when i would try to open up their bedroom door and it was locked.
shell - yay for a successful IUI! i have a really good feeling that this will be your month!! like bebe said, having an RE who gives you hope is like gold. i'm so happy for you! also, i used to go to pink floyd light shows as a teenager as well!
toothfairy - i read what you wrote to bebe and i just wanted to say you said it so perfectly. i loved it. you are absolutely right, IF can destroy marriages and cause depression... but it can also strengthen marriages and strengthen our spirituality. i also loved how you acknowleged that this is not true every day and that some days will just be bad. period. so right on, my friend. and you are right, life will figure itself out when i do get pregnant. life always has a way of figuring itself out... looking forward to reading your afm.
bebe - thanks for weighing in on my job situation. ughhh to your friend who is possibly/probably pregnant. i think that is the hardest part... getting pregnant is taking so long that people have enough time to change relationships AND have a baby! again, it feels mean. i think you will really like the power of now. i even have it on my phone and pull it up every now and then to help center me. i 100% believe in mind/body connection and that positivity is very important. so in that respect, i get what your dh is saying. BUT, i think that you always have to start from where you are. you can't feel sad, angry, disappointed in your body, etc and expect that you can just turn it off and slap on a happy face immediately. in fact, i think it is a super bad idea to even try that route because we aren't actually changing our emotions - we are just hiding them from even ourselves. i think all we can do is fully acknoweldge what we are feeling in the moment and then take whatever small steps we can take to start feeling a little better, and then little bit better still, until we get ourselves back to that hopeful place. i find that using the law of attraction focus wheel process super helpful (if you don't know what that is, put those search terms into youtube and there is a nifty video example. i would link to it but i can't get youtube at the moment) and it's important to realize, like toothfairy said, the feelings are justified. we aren't "failing" by having those feelings. that's why i love this group SO much. we have an outlet where we can acknoweldge what we are feeling to others who "get it" (because, let's face it, not many people do get it IRL and i think we only hurt ourselves by trying to get them to get it) and then once we can release it we can take steps to get ourselves back to the positive place. i love us because 1) we can listen to each other's pain and frustration and validate it and 2) we help each other get back to being hopeful. i think that's the best therapy there is! as for acupuncture vs. traditional medicine... it's a hard call. my opinion? you have a fantastic reserve. you do have time to try acupuncture first, if that is what you want to do. but it really comes down to do you want to? i think gtree is such an inspiration because she knew she didn't want to wait and she went the direction she wanted to go. i also find women who feel compelled to go the natural route inspirational. i think the inspirational part is when people follow their gut. i'm always trying to decifer what my gut is telling me. i do think she is the wisest part of me... when i can hear her! :)
skj - i'm really excited to hear more about the visualizing pregnancy cd! do you like it? what's it like? can you give me more details? I haven't seen this one before. i do have circle + bloom's meditations for natural cycle and will surely get them for ivf when i go that route. i wish i could remember where i found the discount code. actually, i think i posted it in this thread but it's been so long ago it might not even be active anymore. of course, the hardest part for me with all of this is actually setting aside the time to do it! i mean, i know i have the time... but remembering to use that time wisely is another story :)
sherry - hoping you are busy in the best kind of way right now ;-)
gtree - how are you feeling? what's your latest symptoms?
afm - nothing new with me. have my application in... we'll see what comes of it. i'm feeling much better about it all, so thanks to you all for your feedback! i do love you guys!post #1012 of 22199/17/12 at 9:40amMorning, everyone! It's a new week! I'm actually at jury duty right now waiting to be called as a potential juror. Nice to not be at work today. I'm a little embarrassed by my melodramatic rant last night. I do feel a little better. Perhaps it just helped to get all those angry and scary feelings off my chest. I think a large part of my anger is fear. Fear that we waited too long, fear that it will never happen and it will ruin our marriage, fear that I will go into some deep depression and never recover. Feeling depressed is the weirdest feeling for me because I am known to be so positive and grounded. Friends come to me for that very reason to discuss their problems and get perspective. So it's rather unchartered territory for me to feel so out of control and in a dark place. I have such a good life and I hate not being able to always appreciate it because of IF. I definitely need to work through these feelings or I am not going to make it through this process with everything I love intact. My DH is so wonderful and I love him so much. I don't want us to suffer. Anyway, thanks Toothfairy and Indie for your very wise insights. I appreciate you more than words can express! I think I may attend a peer-led Resolve group this week.post #1013 of 22199/17/12 at 10:22ampost #1014 of 22199/17/12 at 11:46amThread Starter
GTREE----- NO WORDS!!!!! ok some- i didn't even get all teary and gushy when i saw my DD's first us pics- but i sure did this morning. I am so moved and happy and extra thanks to GOD for giving us the ways to make those two little miracle sweet peas in there!!!! Please find out...we are going to have a baby shower and send you presents and you have to open them and post what they are!! haha! Those babies are swimming in our good wishes and prayers.
Bebe- we are here to hear each other when no one else can- even DH's sometimes don't understand- and I have felt the same way- it is so frustrating---- :-( i hope you O soon. and find a sane way to sort through all the options, choices, etc. Enjoy Jury duty!!
Shell- Chrissy- next up ladies- next bfp's????
Indie- hey- and further thoughts the job front- hoping? and when do you O???? Are we back on schedule together again....
TF - I want to Boston Buddah!!! cool! any buddah--- i am always rubbing buddah tummy's hoping to look like one for good reasons.
skj- i listen to "rain" on my Kindle and conjure up all the feelings of being snuggled in and feeling pregnant, but as soon as i get a minute i'm checking out your links
afm- well i took dh to the airport at 5am.... I will go "home" to him on Thursday and hope to O on time Friday- coming back here monday!!! I can't wait to get there. I miss my comfy bed and big tub!
odd thought- but i found a guy who flies his own plane from here to nyc- I am trying him out Thursday....hmmmm....little 4 seater....i hope it doesn't make me pop an egg or something!!!! gulp
and the hope is harder being apart...it feels like it would be so much better to be carrying some little secret us inside me!! ohhhhhh maaannnn it's back bad! yikes- i already looked at my next due date potential and I'm only CD 11.
The house...still not closed- grrr banks-
Well I am waiting for DD to get home on the bus (thats a new and wierd experience) so that we can drive 15 miles to the nearest walmart/wegmans and get the next few days worth of stuff....I LOVE the quiet, and the trees and the fresh air....but man do I miss the 20 stores in a 1 block radius...i feel like a pioneer woman out on the prarie alone.
hang in there everyone!!
and yay for all the activity! i am actually finding working from home to take up more time- so i jump in when i can, but the reading along sure brightens my day.
hugs to our group along the way- over 1000 posts!post #1015 of 22199/17/12 at 5:52pm
I am breaking out so BAD!! I look like a teenager going through puberty that hasn't washed there face in a week!! UGH What is up with this?? AND Dh 20 year reunion is this weekend... I am all bloated from mild ohss and skin looks horrible and oily ... How depressing :-( I am venting sorry :-( I will be back in a few for personalspost #1016 of 22199/17/12 at 6:50pm
Today is the Jewish new year and I spent the morning in temple and thought about all of you. I want to wish all of you a HAPPY AND HEALTHY new year!
Indie - I'm glad you applied for the job. I have hated my job for a while and started aggressively interviewing about 6 months ago. I had a really great final interview (before starting my ivf) and OBSESSED over what I would do when I got the job. I wasn't pregnant yet, but was pretty sure that I was going to be and how would I feel and how long would I take maternity and would I need to relocate. I spent hours thinking through all of the possible solutions. Then, I didn't get the job. So, I think we can't predict what will happen, but we need to do what is best for us now. Ps. The new CEO of yahoo took the job when she was 6 months pregnant. Good luck!
Shelly - You'll look like a teenager at your 20 year reunion. People will think you haven't changed a bit!! It sounds like your IUI went great. Hoping for a BFP for you!
Sherry - glad you are doing well! You are a pioneer!
Bebe - I am so glad we have a place like this that we can all share our thoughts and be here for each other. I think it is okay to have doubts and question faith and find that that can actually make it stronger. You will get your baby. It will happen.
TF - I think you are the youngest in our group, but an old soul. Thank you for being so supportive and insightful.
Chrissy - Thanks for the dancing ladies, you know I love them!
Thank you all for the wishes and support. It is such an exciting time and weird that I still have to keep it a secret from my friends and most of my family. I love that I can come here and share everything and you all are so sweet and make me feel so good! No symptoms really to speak of. I was so glad to have gotten a picture, because I was a little worried that my betas were increasing just from my own willpower. My boobs are sore and occasionally I will get a wave of nausea. I wish I had constant confirmation that I was still pregnant and everything was okay, if I was married to Tom Cruise, we would have already bought our own ultrasound machine and I would be doing one every 15 minutes. But, omg twins. I am the happiest I have ever been.post #1017 of 22199/18/12 at 7:52amHi everyone!
Gtree - Shana Tova! What a great start to the new year for you. So amazing. I'm sure you'll have all the classic preggers symptoms in no time. Or, maybe you'll be one of the lucky ladies to not get m/s! I know what you mean about wanting symptoms though.
Shell - Ugg for the breakout! But, maybe that's a good sign? I have cystic acne from time to time. My skin has been pretty good lately, until I big one popped up a few days ago. Maybe these are good signs for both of us??
Sherry - Sounds like a fun adventure you are having in your new place. Good luck on the flight!
Bebe - Sorry I didn't respond to your rant. I think it's important to get out all your feelings. You need to go through them to get past them. I've totally been there. Many, many times. The meditation I posted a link to may be really helpful for you. In it, you state why you want to have a baby and make your intentions known. Then, she asks you to state all your fears that may be preventing you from achieving your goal. I find it so refreshing to be able to think through those thoughts. You then are asked to show that part of you that it is loved. I really found it helpful.
Indie - Congrats on the application. As for the meditation, I said a bit about it to bebe. I like it. It focuses on the mental/emotional side of things instead of the physical. So, you are asked to state why you want to be pregnant and then to state what fears you may have about it. Then, you imagine yourself pregnant and make yourself open to the idea of being a mother. It has been really helpful for me. I think I like the part about facing my fears. It allows me to get them out in a way in which I don't worry about them having a negative impact on my mindset IYKWIM.
TF - That's so cool about the Buddha class!
AFM - you guys, I think this month could be it. I *feel* pregnant, but I'm too scared to test. I'm worried it's all in my head. My chart looks great, but I'm sure it's the crinone. I haven't had any AF symptoms and I'm having this awareness in my lower belly. I'm just so scared I'm psyching myself up and I'm going to come crashing down. I feel like my intuition says I could be, but my rational mind says no way. I'm not having any symptoms, so it's just a feeling. I'm 11 DPO, so I don't want to test too early. My beta is Thursday. I haven't even schedule it yet. I was thinking that I should wait to see if I get a BFP at home. Ahhhhhh!
ETA: My brain sucks. BFN of course.
Edited by SKJ2011 - 9/18/12 at 8:27ampost #1018 of 22199/18/12 at 10:21amBebe- I'm glad to hear this week is finding you feeling better. It is true though that sometimes just writing it out is what helps the feelings to pass. N worries, we don't judge you for an occasional bad day! Speaking your fears can be good for your mind/body connection, agetting them off your chest instead of letting it brew. The meditation SKJ posted sounds great for you (me too). Did you get called as a juror? I have't been called yet and except that I work hourly (so a day or 2 away would kill me financially), I'd like to see how it works!
Skj- theres still time! I hope that test changes its mind. I always get fooled when i' m on progesterone.... Someday it will be right though.The Boston Budda is actally a skinny white guy but he is supposed to be great. I'll let you know how it goes! I like the meditation you posted, I need to try it out!
Gtree- happy new year! I'm glad you arent feeling symptomatic but i know m/s can be reassuring. When is the next ultrasound?? I didnt even realize I'm the baby of the group. You all just feel like friends. It isnt the first time I'vebeen told that though... Guess I just grew up fast
Shelly- i hear ya- between my eyebrows i look like i just started pubty... What the heck! Hope it clears up for the reunion! Sounds like fun!
Sherry- so hard being apart from your hubby and dealing with 2 houses on top of that! Youre like the energizer bunny. I hope you have a little secret growing soon too.
Indie- glad you put the application in. You never know wht can happen. Dayas like today i'm like to quit my job, but thats another story!
AFM- realized i never came back the other day... Not much going on here anyway. 5dpo, realized AF will be due the Monday we are in St. croix next month, fantastic. Had 2 days of spotting afer O and now on prometrium, no cazies yet but I'm sure they are coming. We are camping (in cabins) this weekend so at least I'm busy. Doing a mind/body technique thing tomorrow, I'll tell you how it goes then medittion starts friday. My boss is grumpy today so I'm trying hard not to let it get to me. I have a busy afternoon acheduled and am working til 8 so it is only half over. Speaking of, my new patient just got here... Time to shine.post #1019 of 22199/18/12 at 10:53amThread Starter
shell- when i got my worst break outs was right when i was about to super O!! You form cycsts on your face and your ovaries!! yay! O yay! iui....
gtree- what a happy new year for real! Nice timing to make it feel extra special. (i keep looking at your u/s picture like a stalker)
skj- sorry i hope its just early...or wrong...i hate poas ....
tf- haha skinny white guy buddah- it's all about the mindset. Maybe he will let you rub his belly anyway. I would ask, but then I also got asked to leave the class a lot in grades 6-10... Speaking of all about the mindset- you are our youngest most veteran knowledgable wise goddess of all things TTC- i sure wish it wasn't so but still feel in a 'meant to be' way like it should be your calling...and i hope your personal experience with it all ends soon. I guess it's just not the kind of expertise one wants to have.
indie? Chrissy?....Ms D????
afm- well airplane guy just cancelled- ugh that means an 8 hour train ride for me leaving here at 4 AM. Putting out fires at work long distance in between painting the baby's room and making beef stew on a rainy old day. I love the work from home- but i find that my presence and energy- and threatening glower- makes things happen much better than my emails- ugh
oh well- packed my pre seed and very little clothing!!! ready to go!! haha!post #1020 of 22199/18/12 at 11:06am
skj - it ain't necessarily over yet. curious, since you have had two pregnancies... what days did you get your bfp for those? sincei got a bfp on the evening of 8dpo i'm always telling myself i'm out if i don't get one by 10 or 11dpo... but isn't 12 dpo the most common day to get them? i am totally going to the get that meditation! i found it on itunes for only $9. will download tonight! it sounds like something i really could use. and i like that it focuses on the emotional rather than the physical. that's the one downside to the circle + bloom meditations (for me, anyway) as it focuses on the physical process of getting pregnant it's hard for me to not have an internal dialogue that says stuff like "yeah... right... but this is my body... my body doesn't work like that..." blah blah blah. i'm terrible with with negative internal dialogue!
gtree - my heart grows a little bigger every time i read your posts! what a wonderful time for you to be pregnant! with twins! gah! maybe you will be one of the lucky ones who doesn't get m/s... but more likely you are not quite far enough along yet. will you remember to thank God every time you hug porcelain? hahaha. i always tell myself that i will be so thankful with every wave of nausea. yeah... we'll see...
shell - do you think the breakout is due to the meds? just think of it as more proof that your body is cooking something!
sherry - where exactly are you living now? is it still in ny? wherever it is, it sounds divine... but eek to the 4 seater plane! do post as soon as you arrive so we know you made it safely! and don't pop that egg mid-air!
toothfairy - st. croix sounds amazing! but starting AF does not. here's hoping... i'm curious about your boston buddah and your "mind/body techinique" - looking forward to hearing about it! enjoy cabin camping! i'm jealous of all the outdoorsy fun... i need to go somewhere pretty and natural...
bebe - did you get picked for jury duty?
afm - cd11. was a little nervous earlier that i am already ovulating. had some quick, sharp ovary pains. and that would NOT be good for bd timing. but i'm still getting ewcm so i'm hoping i will O in a couple of days around my normal time. dh and i are back on a restricted calorie diet. last fall i had gotten down to my perfect weight but have managed to put it all back on since. hoping to drop 10 lbs or so by thanksgiving. got my first letter from my little brother at boot camp yesterday. he says he's having "fun". go figure!
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