bebe- My mom was just telling me (probably for the thousandth time) a story about her pregnancy with me that may put you a little at ease. She found out she was pregnant New Years eve, the day after New Years she fell down our outside front steps. She started bleeding and her doctor told her he was so sorry but she had lost me. In April she started to feel me move (she had irregular periods well before I was conceived so didn't think anything of not having one). I think if sticky babies can survive all that, a little jumping for a box and a little fight with your boss can't shake your little clinger out. Enjoy the nausea free day, it will be back tomorrow :) Also, you may have just eaten something that settled your stomach yesterday- they say B6 (i think) can fight nausea... who knows?
SKJ- Your DD is beautiful! Someday we will have more gratitude for this journey. Sometimes IF makes me feel sad for people who have it so easy because they never get to understand the pure joy of becoming pregnant. IF is a strange thing. I can't believe the reaction of your co-worker. It amazes me really that someone could be so insincere. It reminds me to be grateful for my co-workers who really are so supportive. It is one place I can be open and honest and they still treat me like me instead of walking on eggshells to talk about it. Your business partner does sound like he gets it but man, I think having that reaction when you try and open up about your journey and expecting a different response really sucks.
indie- I like that quote. Thats why it is important to have this kind of group, to lift each other up with we feel down and to be reassured that feeling down is just part of the process. It is nice to be reminded that we are normal.
With that said, I'd like to acknowledge to removed post from whoever that was. We of course understand that being on a public website means that anyone can be reading along and following our journeys and I'm sure that there are people who may find us at times whiney or ungrateful or whatnot. However, please respect that if you choose not to participate in our journeys or have nothing nice to say please just leave us alone. It is completely unnecessary to say hurtful, mocking, or rude things to people who are just trying to live their lives. Of course, anyone who may be reading along and wants to chime in and join us we are more than welcoming to helping you through the long process of infertility (whether seeking medical treatments or just taking longer than you thought). It is a shame that on top of everything we bear as women who struggle to conceive that we should also worry about who might be reading along and laughing at us.
Now onto my AFM- I think part of my 'feeling down' comes from just being bored with this whole process. The energy I used to have to try this or do that ... ie. exercise more, eat healthier, add this food or subtract that food, take this supplement, go to acupuncture, choke down herbs, have sex this day or that day. All of the things I used to do to optimize my chances that didn't work I just don't want to deal with it. I know that it could happen this month and I should be eating fruits and vegetables instead of milkshakes and oreos and I should be going to yoga or taking a walk instead of watching all my DVR shows from vacation, I should be meditating and staying centered and calling my acupuncturist or getting a massage but I just don't have it in me. I feel like I've paid my dues, I gave up gluten and dairy and stopped eating sugar... I had surgery... I took all the pills and the injections and had the ultrasounds... I prayed and I meditated and I got myself into a good mental state... I spent thousands on acupuncture and herbs and massage and none of it has worked. I'm young, I'm healthy, I'm happy (even though right now clearly I am bitchy), I have a good attitude (really, I do!), I work hard, I'm smart, I love God, I have a wonderful family and husband and dog. I mean, if none of those additions and subtractions worked then why bother? So I guess my point is I'm just not trying this month, IVF will come when it comes and until then I'm not feeling guilty about only having 1 serving of veggies a day (I had sweet potato fries at lunch--- and actually I made beef stew with carrots and green beans for dinner, so THERE), and drinking cold drinks (yes, cherry coke, I'm talking to you), and watching whatever TV I want. I will do a cleanse after Thanksgiving and will start eating the avocados that I despise (yes, I hate avocados and eat them anyway) and get ready for IVF (and yes I know it takes 3 months to make an egg and all I'm doing or not doing now is detrimental to my IVF cycle but I just don't have the energy or interest in TTC anymore to give a caca). Whew. I hope this funk lifts. Entertained by my banter yet?
How far along were you with your m/c? I was thankful to not have to go through the trauma of "birthing" the last m/c since the baby measured 2 weeks smaller than it should have and I just wanted it out of me. This time I feel very differently. If I had to have a D&C this time, I would be disappointed. It just feels like a normal period, which makes me feel like I'm moving on.
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