Taking the Scenic Route...to a BFP - Page 9

[bebelove]

Thoughts and prayers to you Toothfairy! Looking forward to your update, where I hear that you are doing great and feeling good to have it behind you!!

[sherryvhkb]

Cbaa the toothfairy....in my thoughts and prayers for sure- will post later just been super busy physically and mentally.

[indie1976]

cbaa - thinking of you today! hope you have a wonderfully uneventful surgery and a great rush of hope after getting all "cleaned out"! it has been a ridiculously busy week... i've tried to post twice (both times from work) and something timed out and i lost my post... twice! so i gave up. but i know i will have time to post tomorrow and will be looking forward to seeing updates from everyone. hope you all are doing well. much love to everyone!!!

[CharleyInVT]

Hello ladies!

Things have been so crazy lately, I haven’t really had any free Internet time.

Bebelove: Sorry you’re feeling blue. It is so hard to feel bad and feel helpless at the same time. Since you’re normally a happy/positive person, I’ll tell you that sometimes when I’m feeling love, I imagine myself in the future, past whatever is hurting me now. It works a lot of the time. Interesting that you thought about becoming a midwife. When I started visiting my local midwifery practice with my pregnant friend, I really felt at home there. We have community acupuncture where I live too. Since it is far, far cheaper than having a private session, I may try it after my surgery. I’m mostly interested in reducing inflammation, and I’m going to investigate other methods for that as well. Maybe I can get the results I want without the weekly cost of the acupuncture.

Gtree: I haven’t seen or read Hunger Games yet, but my husband LOVED the books. We recently bought a box set of them and I plan on reading them in the few days of recovery I have planned after my surgery. Then we’ll see the movie. He’s very excited about it.

Indie: Thanks for the words about me standing up for my care. It is so hard sometimes! I pretend I’m acting and I’m a friend. What would I advise my friend to do? And then I do it. It’s actually served me really well. When I had my pre-op this week, the doctor was ready for me and had everything planned out. I loved it.

Sherry: I hope you’re having a  good week. When do you leave on your trip? I know you had an appointment this past Tuesday, right? Take all the time you need to process everything. Giving yourself space and time to sort through things is a true gift to yourself. This group will be here when you’re ready.

Toothfairy: I woke up thinking about you today! I hope you’re feeling great and have a renewed since of hope for yourself after today. I’ll be in your spot in a little over two weeks! Yee haw! I can’t wait to read every detail of your story later on. Also, thanks for the rec for pycnogenol. I’m going to check it out. Where do you order your supplements from online?

AFM: I had my pre-op apt this week and it went really well. I think I lucked out with my RE. I had so many questions that weren’t related to my surgery and she answered them all. She agrees to do things for me that I was afraid to ask her for and she just seems so hopeful. She said we could begin TTC as soon as we wanted, which I found to be a bit confusing though. My OBGYN said I needed to sit a cycle out so my uterus could heal from the polyp removal, and this Dr. said to go for it as soon as we could. She cited my age, which I don’t like, but oh well, after all – I am my age and that’s one factor that can’t be changed. No supplements will take 8 years off. Ha ha.

I’ve decided to spend the next month or so preparing for our move and preparing my body even more. I’m just going to clean and declutter and focus on yoga and green juice and positive affirmations and positive thinking. If I can wrap up my next big writing project soon, that’ll be a huge stress relief. Speaking of which, better getting typing for dollars. I call writing on these threads typing for sanity.

Xo, Charley

[sherryvhkb]

HI EVERYONE!!!!   ME  ME  ME... i am taking an hour for me.  Home ALONE- eating my favorite salad from wendy's with fries on top (its a western NY thing...like saying Wicked..we do that to) AND A FULLY CAFFINATED DIET PEPSI!!!! i have my laptop and a comfy chair by the windows and my favorite plant!!!  My hour is here!! I have read and caught up....not too much posting people! jeeze i take a few days off and this is what happens!

Chrissy...Hi...after I post I'm gonna a stalk you.  

Toothfairy...I have been visualizing a fresh pink endo free polyp free nice juich friendly happy pelvic anatomy all morning....with friendly happy plump cloudlike ovaries waving atop there free and flowing long lovely tubes...amid the amber waves of grain...oops wrong picture...but anyway you get the drift.  When you've spent a lot of time looking in people its easy to imagine.

Indie...where are you with your Femera popping rebel self...is it BD time yet?  How is your uterus?  Its like driving a new car!! with that new car smell...GOD I'm so excited!  Get It Going On Mama!  and Jeeze POST...POST!!! ok oops.  i just scrolled up and saw your post.  but it wasnt there when i was reading on my phone in the drive thru.

Gtree- whats up with you besides Hunger Games.  I am torn between...do i want to read the book first...it doesn't seem like my thing...but the movie looks good.  I think DH and DD will drag me there soon.  but I did finaly see the girl with the dragon tatoo.  I really liked that.  I thought it would be too dark, but it was just plain good...but graphic. 

Ms. D- so when do you think you O'd.  Are you temping?  Does it feel good to just free style for a month.  No opk, no clomid....ahhh.  did you find a friendly chart? it took me awhile to do those things as i was in shock that it didn't happen in month 1,,,then 2,,,then3,,you get the idea.

Bebe- i loved your comment about western vs. other medicine practices.  We americans have a rather narrow scope when it comes to our bodies...or rather treating them as independent systems and pieces versus part of a whole and complex universe of its own.  so what new in your universe?  You have an US tomorrow right?  Here's hoping for a nice 18 follie or two...or three

Charley- you have a busy spell coming up! perhaps something will suprise you when you are busiest and have the least time to pay attention.  What do you write?  publish?

stasi...are you still out there...reading...if so hi

afm...oh where to start..af started yesterday...late...and after a couple more bfn's.  i think stress..and dd#2 asking me all the time...she thinks it would be cool to do this together...but she would have preferred me to have gone ahead so she could see whats happening...I finally broke last night..and cried literally all night.  even when i fell asleep some sad would wake me up.  Smart A$$ dh says he is claiming it under our homeowners insurance as flood damage to his chest. 

so my drama: DD#1 23, married in October, graduating in May...after 6 long years...juvenille diabetes...working full time, student teaching full time, and full time credits...is worrying me baseline.  It turns out her dh who is a reserve marine has decided to go active and leaves the day after their mutual graduation.  So.. that leaves her alone.  In Ohio.  Not sure where to start planning life because who knows where he will end up....so we are trying to figure that all out.

DD#2- the one w babe.  appt cancelled tuesday...they wanted to resched her for april 17...not sure of dates...no prenatal care...mom the nurse wasn't having that! she will be seeing a nice new group THIS tuesday...when I will be in the Dominican...grrr...i hope they let her record the US.  Sooo looking at what she needs to do to finish school means that DD#5 and I may be moving next door to her for the next school year so that she can finish.  #5 is very excited...she has been waiting for that baby to come to our house...so thats a little sad too- in a selfish way, but I'm glad she is excited.

^^^^ hence the tears- it makes sense, but last night at break point all i could think was...it's my turn! damn it!  It feels almost like it did when i was 16 pregnant and watching the planned path to my future crumble away.  I made that situation work for 16 years...now..ugh.  I don't know. IT"S MY TURN>>>Still dealing with it.  I want to live in my house with my husband and BD as needed and make this TTC work and keep just continue to settle into this life...but momness doesn't stop when they move out....soo a possible shuffle off to buffalo.  Looking at apartments long distance...and still trying to wrap my head around it all.  I'm glad i can say all that stuff that makes me feel like an awful selfish person, here.  because even though i know it- and i will give selflessly in person to make this work- it just feels good to type- IT"S MY turn...

RE Monday after trip return sunday.  I will be cd 13 and ready to check out any covert follicular action.  Would it be crazy and too much to hope for to want another R side dominent ov?  SO unlikely.  after April comes the HSG.  I think both of my tubes are closed....as the RE pointed out to me...secondary IF happens - but after 5, with good labs, decent swimmers, confirmed ovulation- both partners proven...opk's preseed- clomid, etc etc etc- that mechnical might make more sense. 

-> toothfairy- we are going to be live hamaca beach in Boca Chica.  There are only 2 resorts there- and not within site of each other.  I dont so much like the resort alleys that some beaches/areas are.  i like to step off the resort beach onto a local one and eat fish being fried right out of the ocean.  i like to experience a little local.  Boca Chica is great for my snorkeling self because its almost a bit of an inlet ringed in coral reef.  it wouldn't be so great for surfing but it's a sweet spot for me.  It's a 15 minute ride from the airport and the capitol.  Me gusta mucha.  of course that means more language barrier.  I know they have a time share aspect and casino...but i didn't veture over that way...

I had hoped to toss my phone out the plane window on the way but...now i will be awaiting word on the newest addition.

i also blamed my sadness and everything thats wrong on DH's refusal to IVF....i was crying so he had to be nice...  so ...sometimes he looks like he believes that.  I wonder if i might sway him after all.

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[indie1976]

sherry! it's so nice to see a post from you! i love your posts! i think your dh will cave on the ivf thing. he sounds like the type that has to be able to say "no" before he can say "yes". come to think of it... i think that is a man thing... lol. i can't believe your dd had her appt rescheduled. that must be driving you nuts especially with getting ready to go on vacation. but now that you aren't throwing your phone out the window... perhaps we will get some updates from you while in DR? ;) i know... that's ridiculously selfish of me to hope for! i will visualize right side dominance for you... but then again, maybe the left side has your lucky egg... i keep hearing stories of people ovulating from the side they don't have a tube on and ending up preggers... so maybe i'll just visualize eggs. eggs, eggs, eggs! wondering if cbaa will update today? i mean *i* updated on the day of surgery! no pressure, TOOTH FAIRY! ;) charley, bebelove, gtree, ms d... i'm looking forward to sitting down and reading through the last few days of posts so i can catch up with where you are at in your cycles. i think i need to make a calendar which everyone's cycle info so i can keep track. lol. charley... glad your preop went well! afm: cd10 here and ewcm has made an appearance. i guess i should pee on an opk soon and see what's up. i've been awful with temping and opk-ing. things just got so busy. and i'll admit, part of it is my rebellion. i'm sooo tired of monitoring myself. but ewcm always makes me happy. on non-medicated, pre-surgery cycles i ovulated between cd11 and cd 13. on clomid, pre-surgery cycles i ovulated on cd 13 or 14. not sure what a femera, post-surgery cycle will look like but i'm guessing i'm going to be in the same cd11 to cd13 window. last bd was monday night so we best get busy tonight!

[toothfairy2be]

I survived!! Sorry I didn't update yesterday, too sleepy. So here's the story... Arrived at Memorial Hospital - 715am. Did paperwork, paid copay then went for bloodwork. Waited until about 845 to go in to the pre-op/day surgery area. Informed my doc was about 15 mins behind. He finished that surgery and was called into emerg c-section. So at 1045 i was finally taken back to surgery. I don't remember anything other than getting wheeled in... I dont remember the acual surgery room at all! So I woke up in anesthesia recovery feeling pretty good. My shoulders and rib cramped a lot from the nitogen. I got dilauded twice but I'll be honest, I was never really in 'pain', just uncomfortable. I was just about to go into recovery when I felt nauseaus so she got me zofran but I burped & it went away. She gave me the zofran anyway jus to be sure. My surgery took 90 minutes instead of the planned 45. They found extensive endometriosis & a chocolate cyst on one ovary. Had to be removed & my ovary repaired... I spent more time in anesthesia recovery than surgery. I finshed at 1230, got to my mom around 245 then was in the car heading home at 400. I vomited a little in the recovery room with my mom after having toast, again because of the air in my stomach. It was mostly burps but the nausea came then passed quick. I got a weird hivey rash after which turns out was just from anxiety/stress. My stomach was numb until this morning. I'm still not really in pain but the incisions are sore. Still have some nitrogen bubbles floating around that cause a cramp in my rib or shoulder or whatnot. I'm on Vicodin ever 6 hours but they only planned on tylenol wih codeine. It was switched b/c tha makes me nauseated. So anyway I'm feeling pretty good, just takng it easy. i'm really happy it is done & I feel so blessed to have found my new doctors & to have a real answer, something fixable. God is good

[indie1976]

yay toothfairy!! isn't that a wonderful feeling to be done and (as sherry put it) for your insides to have that new car smell? lol that cracked me up. i do have to say that i am super irritated with your last RE. why didn't he see a chocolate cyst on your many ultrasounds? i thought those were easily identifiable on u/s? why he put off your concerns about endo is beyond me... ugh. just makes me mad. doesn't your sister have it too? but more than mad i am super excited for you! baby is right around the corner now!!! woohooooooo!!!!! take it easy over the next few days. even when you are feeling good, don't over do it... i remember working two days after my surgery and feeling great in the a.m but after a few hours i had really wished i didn't push myself. i am SO excited for you!!

charley - i am not terribly surprised that your RE said you can try right away after surgery... i think there is a lot of conflicting opinions in medicine about how long to wait out after these types of surgeries. i know when i had my d&c (which seems to be more manipulation to the uterus than polyp removal) i was told i could try right away. but my RE this time told me to wait out a cycle. i don't even think i ovulated after the surgery and my "cycle" was only 19 days long (guessing that was partly due to abruptly stopping the bc pills?) so it wasn't that long to wait anyway... i'm excited for you, too!

how crazy would it be if after all this time we all end up with bfps together? it looks like that could be a real possibility!

ok gtree, bebe love, ms d, and sherry... my turn to be a nag and tell you ladies to POST POST POST!!

[CharleyInVT]

Sherry: Yay for taking time for YOU! It is so darn hard to do sometimes, but it makes such a difference. I love that you have a favorite plant. So cute. What kind is it? Thanks for sharing so much about your DD’s. They have so much going on. Wow. I’m glad DD2 is able to get into a different practice. Why in the world would any practice want to put off her care for so long?!?

Sometimes the most healing thing any of us can do is have a big, good, loud cry. I don’t think your feelings are selfish at all. Just because you’re a parent doesn’t mean you’re not still an individual, with your own hopes and dreams and desires. Give yourself a bigger break, if you can. It’s okay to want EVERYTHING that you want. You are okay.

Moving on… go right side ovary, GO! Give Sherry a big, beautiful egg and then soon a BFP! I hope you’re able to relax some in the DR and let yourself go. Release your pressures, snorkel, eat, drink, have super awesome sex with your DH and come back home to good news from your DD’s and soon to have some good news for yourself. How long will you be gone, so we can know when to expect to hear from you again? I agree with Indie – I love your posts too.

Indie: Did you do an OPK yet? I too am bad at temping. In fact, I gave up on it. I’m not a very sound sleeper and I think that I sleep with my mouth open a lot of the time and my temps always seem so low. Since I don’t sleep very well, usually not for longer than 3-hours at a time, I just didn’t think I was getting accurate results. I did just order a bunch of cheap OPK pee sticks from Amazon last night so I can use them at will. I have a box of fancier OPK that I use to confirm what the cheap tests tell me. I started taking the BCP on the first cycle day of my last cycle to prevent full AF from getting in the way of April 13^th and I’ve spotted every single day since. Ugh. I’m afraid it’ll take a long time to get my cycle back on track.

Do you prefer Femera to Clomid? I don’t know what the differences are, but I guess I should learn so I can ask for the right thing.

Toothfairy! Yay for your great update. I’ll join in the creative visualization party and picture your body as brand new and ready to get to work! Make that baby! I am sure that very, very soon you’re going to be able to make a big, happy, healthy announcement. Go go endo-free Toothfairy! So lucky that you got a DVD. My doctor said they don’t do that, but that they will take pictures is possible. Relax as much as you can - I hope you have lots of good things saved on Tivo. Have you seen that show, GCB? I've watched it on Hulu and I must say, I am really enjoying it. So good - albeit a bit trashy and silly. It's fun to look at, if you know what I mean.

AFM: Not much to update since my last post, but last night I did order a goofy uterus pillow and I’m going to have the right tube removed so it looks like me. My husband and I laughed and laughed about it. It’s going to be our mascot. In 2008 when we first began to TTC with some intention (not very much though) we had a slogan: “2008 is the Year we Procreate!” In 2009 we had “2009: Getting Pregnant This Time!” in 2010 it was “2010 – Trying AGAIN!” and 2011 was “2011: Let’s Do This Already” – not very rhyme-y, but we were getting tired of being clever. So far we don’t have an official slogan for 2012. Any ideas for us? 2012: The Year the Egg and Sperm Meld? Ha ha. I have no idea, but I do like a good cheer.

Please post everyone so I have a good excuse to avoid my work.

[indie1976]

charley - your uterus pillow and yearly slogans crack me up! i love the idea of a good slogan! i have not used an opk yet... ugh. i should. but i always have a problem with holding my urine and then i'm trying to drink extra water to keep the ewcm a-plenty... so i haven't yet poas. i also tend to get anxious when i see ANY kind of negative test which makes me resistant to opks... so i'm just going on bodily signs right now. i usually know that i am post-O when my cm dries up or gets sticky (ew) and that hasn't happened yet... so i know 'm still in my fertile window. i'm cd 11 today so i'm thinking i'll get as much bd'ing in this weekend as i can and then by monday i'm sure i will have O'd. if i don't get my bfp this cycle i will go back to being much more vigilant next cycle. so far i've had very little side effects with femara (i had quite a few with clomid). i like femara better simply because it doesn't carry the same risks with it that clomid does (thin lining, dried up cm, and you can only use it for so long before it starts to increase your chances of getting ovarian cancer...) femara is actually used for breast cancer and as long as you only take it for the prescribed days and not while you are pregnant... there aren't any risks associated with it. i know more and more docs are prescribing it over clomid these days.

so i figured out that if i get pregnant this cycle i will have a christmas baby. way to ensure my child has a reason to hate me from the start! i never wanted to have a christmas baby (how robbed do people with christmas birthdays feel?) but you know that hasn't stopped me from trying... a christmas baby is better than no baby!

[CharleyInVT]

Indie: I love to take OPK's - it's the only time I've ever "passed" a pee test. Seeing the two lines and a positive test gives me so much hope for future sticks I might pee on. I always think "Look! I did it! I FINALLY passed a test with my pee!"

[indie1976]

haha! there is a thrill of passing pee tests! maybe i will take one in the a.m.

[toothfairy2be]

Indie- I felt the same way about TTC a Christmas baby- I won't have the chance this year, but when were did it last  year, I remember people actually born during that time saying it never really bothered them and that everyone being cheery and the lights and 'celebration' feeling of the season always made birthday time special. I think it is what you make of it. A Christmas baby is better than no baby! I am hoping for an early February baby! Did you have to do a bowel cleanse before your Lap? I am wondering when I will actually need to go #2 and how on earth I will be able to push... seriously... I know it is TMI but I don't know what to do...

Charley- your pillow made me laugh, where do you find such a thing?! I like getting a ++ on OPKs as well. I have to say, last month I tested after trigger shot to see when it was gone, and it was heartbreaking to see a positive on HPT turn negative... from now on I will stick to OPKs. I'll PM you details about the cleanse, I saw your request on the IF thread!

Sherry- I am going to miss you while you are gone on vacation. You are much more adventurous than we are. I like cut and dry 'toes in water azz in the sand' vacations, so it is a Punta Cana vacation for me! I hope you come home to lots and lots of good news. What are you taking this month? Go Right side GO!!! I'm glad DH is being more understanding, time wears us all down. YAY for YOU time and being left alone. Maybe it is the vicodin making me feel so emotional but I wish we could all just have coffee and cry on each others shoulders....

gtree- msd- bebe- hope you all have a good weekend!!

AFM- I watched my DVD- I had a lot of adhesions... my bowel, my uterus in more than one spot, my whole left ovary/fallopian tube to the floor of my pelvis... It was amazing to watch. I really didn't see a whole ton of endo, but the scar tissue and adhesions were crazy- like a whole nasty spider web. And the chocolate cyst, my gosh... they seriously had to take out like half of my ovary to get it all, then sewed it back together like a chinese dumpling! My left side looked terrible. God, I pray this fixes things...  it was seriously amazing to see what has been going on inside and that someone finally was an advocate for my health and they were right. I am so so thankful for what led me to this new doctor, so thankful.

[CharleyInVT]

ToothFairy: I got the pillow at www.iheartguts.com they also have some cute and funny reproductive underwear that made us laugh.

[sherryvhkb]

[sherryvhkb]

Charley- see mystery plant from ikea above.  I actualy took that picture the same day i was posting. me hour.  I love the website!!! I'd like to get the shirts for us in the office to wear! haha great.  I am also thinking I'll get the sperm egg plush and place among the toss pillows on the bed- just to scandlize DH- HAHA!

Indie BD,BD,BD,BD!!!!! If you get the CBE digitals it uses morning urine- i hate opk's...Yes it would be great if you and toothfairy got to tandem fill your newly refurbished luxury uteri!!! 

Toothfairy!!! hooray for your refurb!!! Not to be sick but I LOOOOOVE doing that stuff.  It's so good to get in and see a mess and fix it and give someone a fresh start.  ALSO CHOCOLATE CYSTS ARE MT ABSOLUTE SECOND favorite....I like the complex ones best.  They have hair and teeth and bones!!! amazing ovaries!! Love the chinese dunpling- yes that describes it.  It's amazing how well it heals and becomes nice and full and perfect again...did i mention how amazing ovaries are!  You are going to feel so much better.  I am also so glad that there wasn't much endo.  I am curious what they will advise Pevic adhesive disease, which obviously is what you had.  right?  I assume you havent had frequent  pelvic surgeries.  again it would be so great to have a camera to see what if anything grows.  Finding a mechnical problem makes for such a great prognosis.  Polyps and adhesions!  good answers...in a strange way.  I am out of GF cooookiiiesss- wahhhh!  I am reading too much and i want to drop dairy...but i live now on cereal with milk, yogurt, and gf chocolate chip cookies...with milk.   You Punta Cana slug!  haha....I like that too..beach bumming...but can only do it for about an hour at a time.  agree with the group get together.  That was just what i needed the other day...but coffee has caffeine, cant have drinks,  ummmm who wants to get together over gluten free cookies and wheatgrass juice? come on over!!! 

i think most of us are east coast...except Indie...she is mysterious...she says ya'll sometimes and the hotels there have keys...i think she may be in West Pennsyltukey. 

Hi Bebelove- whats new?

Gtree and Ms.D- you are missing from this WHOLE page! where ARE you...? 

AFM--- WT HECK.  my af was not an af.  i stated to spot---late ---post bd--a bit of bright red in the am- then a little spotting...i figured i was just getting a sluggish start. but nothing since thurs am. not a drop.  Is this what prometrium does? i was expecting it  to beef up my lining for a super sticky implantation surface.  I was ready for an all out red tide flood, but nada.  I even poas again just because i am confused.  anyone have a similar experience???  

RE on the 9th.  I am taking nothing now...not feeling warm and fuzzy about the progesterone...wondering if i o'd ? and thinking this is a last month before 1 year hsg shows my tubes are blocked.  I am looking forward to her thoughts and the calm she instills. 

I am working through the challenges...but setting them aside for vacation in the AM.  AF better not start now.  I have an irrational fear about being out in the surf and the blood attracting shark....unlikely, but it makes me nervous.  down in that silence world gliding along...waiting for that chomp!

No posting for me.  The data charges are too much.  I'll be back friday night. 

[bebelove]

Wow, I've missed SO MUCH! I'm so happy to see all the great postings and good news. :)

Charley: Such a great attitude! I hope your surgery goes smooth and easy, and that soon you'll be able to post all about your experience! I think all the positive affirmations and thinking will work and is a great way to stay sane! Can't wait to read your post-op post! Let me know if you start doing acu -- I'm thinking about starting again. LOVE the yearly slogans, ha! Might have to steal that idea . . .

Sherry: I bet DH will cave and let you guys do IVF soon, too. Men just must put up a fight for everything!! I'm glad you've been enjoying some time for yourself . . . I feel like sometimes with all our regimented POAS, temping, charting, cervical mucous-ing that we just need to let the hell loose once in awhile and say forget it! Having some time to ourselves is such a gift these days. I'm send you lots of right-sided O energy!! It IS your turn!!

Toothfairy: Yay, yay, yay!!! So happy that's behind you, and you are all shiny and new and ready for bebe! I think it's going to happen for you soon! You must have such a renewed sense of excitement.

Indie: I hear you about getting tired of all the monitoring. But yay for EWCM! I've had very little of that lately, so I can totally relate to the excitement! Christmas baby is a good baby! I'll take a Christmas baby in a heartbeat and I loved Toothfairy's comments about all the excitement surrounding Christmas -- the festive music, the lights . . . like she said, I think it could be a great time of the year to have a birthday!

AFM, well, I had the WORST week at work, with particularly horrible days on Thursday and Friday. I was so stressed and upset that I was sure that my follie wasn't going to continue to grow at all, but I had my U/S yesterday, and it grew to 16mm on the right, and my lining was much improved! So . . . BD, BD, BD. No +OPK yet. Going to take one in a couple hours and hope for a big +! Now just hoping that work will improve . . . I'm waiting to see if I have received student loan repayment, so I can't jump ship, even though I'd really quite like to do just that at this point! Also a little worried that I have NO EWCM or anything close to it, so I think tonight we'll use some pre-seed. Does anyone else use that?  I get a little worried about the parabens, so try not to use it too often, but hey, when you gotta, you gotta! I'm going to spend some time this morning visualizing my nice big follie continuing to grow and a lovely and perfect lining for implantation! Happy weekend, everyone!

[Pearlina]

I did some research and found a supplement called FertileAide. Have you ladies ever tried it? I took my first pill today. It's supposed to regulate your cycle.

I went to the DR last week for a blog test. He wanted to check my progesterone levels to see if I've ovulated. He said it should've been at about 5, mine was 0.3. Looks like even though I made a TON of eggs none ever dropped or went anywhere. No O for me. :(

Hang in there BEBE. I know what you're going through. I just feel like sometimes these doctors are too textbook. Nobody knows our bodies like we do. 

Next month: FHS test, HSG and another cycle of clomid. Although if I like the FertilAide supplement It says not to use it with Clomid. Who knows. What do you ladies think? Isn't clomid only if you're not producing eggs on your own?

sprinkling BABY DUST on all of ya!!!!!

[gtree]

I'm here and reading just nothing to say!  

Toothfairy, So glad things went well and that you are doing okay.  Post-op anything is never very fun.

Charley, I like your slogans.  I will try to think of some good rhymes for 12.

AFM: I'm hoping for an O any day now.  Trying to stay cool about it, even though it should have been today if the clomid worked...

If I do O-tests, what is the best time of day to test?  I read that morning is not best.  What do all of you do?  I am taking my temp every morning and no spike yet.

Hope you are all having a good weekend!  Baby Dust!

[indie1976]

pearlina - i'm so sorry you didn't O :( i did take fertilityblend (pretty much the same thing as fertileaid) for a while after having several wonky cycles and t really did work in helping me to regulate. but i do know that i've read a lot about not using it while on clomid. i wouldn't take the two together but maybe ask your doctor?  clomid should help to regulate your cycles as well, it just sounds like they will have to put you on a higher does to get you to ovulate (or change to another ovulation inducing drug). fyi - i ovulate on my own but still take femara (and previously clomid). so i think you are on the right track, your doc just needs to find the right dosage/combination for you. too bad ms. sherry is on her lovely vacation in DR... i know she would chime in with her more expert advice! :) it's nice to hear from you!

bebelove - yay for follie growth! hope you got your positive opk! report! report! so sorry work sucks so much :( i hope you find a solution soon.. work stress is the worst since we spend so much time doing it! i've used preseed in the past  (especially when on clomid) and it seemed to work well. i haven't had to use it when i'm not taking clomid and i haven't had to use it this first cycle on femara so that was nice... but it worked well when i needed it and i know a lot of people contribute their bfps to pre-seed... so use it, girl! sounds like we are going to be in the 2ww at the same time... yay for cycle buddies!

gtree - apparently the best time to do opks is in the afternoon... this was confirmed by my RE. something about you can get false negatives in the a.m. because lh doesn't process in the body until later in the day... i know i'm butchering the explanation but, yes, if you are wanting to catch the very first indication of a surge, the afternoon is supposed to be best. of course you could always test twice a day - in the a.m. and in the afternoon - just to be sure. good luck holding your pee! i am terrible at it!

cbaa fairy - thanks for your insights on a christmas baby. it makes me feel better about it. i have to laugh at myself for even being concerned about it in the first place... like i have any reason to want to PLAN when my baby gets here... just get here, already!

charley - any luck with the slogan? :)

sherry - i miss you already!!!

afm - i'm pretty sure today is O day. that's without taking an opk (yeah, still have done it). my cervix was high and soft yesterday and today it's super high and soft... took my temp this a.m. (haven't been temping at all - wow, am i bad at this... you would think after all this time i would be more diligent not less!)... i compared the temp to my previous charts in fertility friend and it matches with my typical temp dip. so all signs added together and the fact that it is cd13 makes me think today is the day. got my last bd in yesterday afternoon... don't think i will be able to get one in today... so... here's hoping...

hope everyone is having a fantastic sunday!