Taking the Scenic Route...to a BFP - Page 95

[bebelove]

Shell, I was thinking of you after I went to bed last night and thought, Shelly was right! I guess I'll know for sure in a couple more weeks, but it's exciting to think it might be a girl. Truly though, we are so happy with either, that it's the true definition of a win-win! Can't wait for your next follie check!! Come on follies, grow! :)

Shell, how nice to take a break from temping, and yay for DH tomorrow!! I know it's so hard to be apart this much. Jump him! :)

SKJ, so happy the blood test is now behind you -- hurry results! Do you know when you'll hear something?

Indie, it is such a sense of relief. Like I can actually fully exhale for the first time in months. I am just letting go of all those nagging fears and embracing my little plum! I'm sorry you are feeling left behind right now . . . you really are not, but I understand. I know your timing is going to be perfect, and you'll be right in the thick of it at the same time as everyone else. I just know it. I don't know how, so you'll have to trust me on this. By the way, a "CD 12, not sure about ovulation, haven't been good at BDing" kind of comment sounds just about the perfect time to get a free baby. Just saying. I'm putting all my good vibes out there for your appt with your new RE - remind me of the date? Hong Kong will be good timing I think! I love HK. Are you going for work or fun? No matter what, I do think the timing will be good. Ha! Stuff each other's stockings -- I may use that one with DH! ;)

AFM, so I forgot to mention last night that triangle baby now looks like predator baby. DH thinks that's awesome. I'll upload when I get a chance but if you have nightmares, sorry! Baby was moving around so much on the ultrasound, it was kinda of nuts! The OB said to get our running shoes ready. It was amazing to see the spine, and the arms and everything. Truly a miracle. I also have a belly pic to upload -- it's not much yet, but at least you can watch it progress with me. OK, doing my make-up and then off to work. Hugs, everyone!

ETA: Indie - 18th, got it!! Good vibes, baby!

Edited by bebelove - 12/5/12 at 8:19am

[jpack]

"stuff eachother's stocking" hhhhaaahhhaaa! (Boy am I sleep deprived)! Indie- wishing you a noticeably potent upcoming ovulation, and a great IVF consult on the 18th. I'm so, so sorry about all your terrible doctor experiences and lack of responses from them. In other news, that is so freakin' cool about Hong Kong and Manilla!
Sherry- so much going on! Good luck getting through it all!

AFM so much for the perfect cycle (knew that was coming, right?) sick DD = very little sleep the last 3 nights= no temp spike ...and I CAN'T BD ANY MORE! I just can't do it... I'm gonna enter some nice great temp and stick my head in the sand

Oh and I have faith your beta's gonna be great, SKJ!

[indie1976]

jpack - glad i could get a sleep-deprived laugh out of you! ;-) thanks for the good vibes for ovulation and the 18th! i will gladly take them! sorry about your sick dd and missing temp spike... best laid plans, right? i like the idea of sticking your head in the sand... that's usually my go-to strategy!

bebe - thanks for your good vibes and for believing i will be joining everyone soon enough. predator baby! can't wait to see that! that's so cool that you got to see her moving all around, too! this is real! hong kong will be for work. it will be my 4th time going so i think i've already experienced most of what it has to offer but i do like just getting completely out of my environment every once in a while.

thanks again for your good wishes... it makes such a difference having all you wonderful peeps to keep hope alive for me when i start dragging... i really do think it makes a difference and i'm so thankful for each and every one of you *tear*

[toothfairy2be]

bebe- SO happy for you that everything is healthy with baby GIRL! It would be funny in a few weeks if they are wrong about the sex but when you would be happy either way (which I think at this point, we would all take what we can get!) it will be joyous when you know for sure. I'll be bugging you for info on the Harmony testing when the day comes, just an FYI.

indie- I am visualizing all sorts of good things for your appointment on the 18th. We really do have an incredibly special group here. My girlfriend just had a terrible experience with forums over at TheBump and it turned her off of forums forever. I feel so lucky that this was my first and only experience with forums... MDC that is. I've never had a bad experience here, everyone, though at times opinionated are always polite about it, voicing their opinions but appreciating that everyone has their own beliefs. All that on top of the support and friendships I have found here... It is hard to imagine this journey without you all and the threads where I started out. I second your *tear* and know that you will not be left behind. You will be only 4 weeks behind me & we are all on this journey together. Nobody is going anywhere until we are all graduated, deal? Also, whatever meds I don't use are all yours!

SKJ- waiting, waiting, waiting... Got my visuals of high numbers and dark tests for you today.

jpack- ugh sorry about the sleepless nights but it does make you funny :) Lets hope at the end of this cycle you fall into the category of "Just when I thought everything was going right, everything went wrong and there was NO way I could be pregnant but I AM!!!"

sherry- Good to hear from you and glad to know you are still reading along. Ever the busy lady you are. Enjoy your time with DH and the break from charting and temping!

Shelly- Did I miss when you go in to get checked again??

[SKJ2011]

Indie - I took Sila's advice and didn't test this morning. I dont' want to obsess anymore than I already am. If the test isn't darker, I'll drive myself insane.

I'm so sorry about feeling left behind. I know that feeling well. I felt the same way with my last loss. I'm still really unsure of how things are going to pan out for me, so I can relate to feeling left behind. But know that NONE of us are leaving this thread until every last one of us has a babe in arms. And, I just know that your IVF is going to be successful. I'm sending out millions of good vibes for your appointment. I hope you have a great connection with the RE and you feel confident in her treatment plan. You so deserve that. As for giving up on doctors, I'm feeling the same way. I really don't want to be monitored anymore. There is nothing more they can do for me, so it really is just to know whether this ends up being a normal pregnancy or something out of teh ordinary like an ectopic or molar. Seems like so much obsessing for so little info, you know? Wow, hong kong, Manila! That's amazing. I've never been to Asia. I think it will be a good trip - I've barely travel for work and two times I've traveled just at the tail end of a TWW that ended in a BFP! I hope you have a wonderful holiday. DD and I made our own stockings over the weekend. It was a ton of fun.

I just want to say that your have been so selfless on this journey. You are always so supportive of all of us and know just the right thing to say. I know I wouldn't have made it through much of this journey without you. I feel really good about December 18th. I know that as soon as you find a doctor you can trust, the rest will follow.

Bebe - Yay for predator baby! I'm so excited that you are crossing the threshold to trimester number 2! Now's when the fun begins. Can't wait to you feel movement. THat is just the most amazing feeling ever.

JPack - Oh man, I HATE when the temp doesn't do what it's supposed to do. And, I'm so with you on being DONE with BDing after trying so hard. Sorry DD is sick It sucks for everyone. Thanks for the good beta thoughts. I hope that you get a surprise BFP anyways.

TF - I second everything you said about this forum. Everyone here is so compassionate and understanding. Seriously, I would have gone nuts by now if it were for you all.

AFM - Doc says my BW will be back this evening or tomorrow morning - boo! I didn't do an HPT today b/c I liked hat Sila said about them being qualitative vs quantitative. I go totally back and forth b/t thinking this is all gonna work out and being scared that it won't. But, I'm feeling ok about things in general. I went out to dinner with my college friends last night. Two of them have or are expecting three kids. Normally, I would have felt so left out, but I felt ok about our life, even if it means only having DD. I really just have this sense of peace about it all. So, if I end up having another baby, that would be great, but it doesnt' feel anymore like my life will be over if it doesn't happen. And, I've thought long and hard about what to do if this pregnancy doesn't work out. I'm definitely switching to another RE practice, since I"m pretty sure that I don't need IVF, and the stats were really the only thing keeping me at this factory. I've found a great sounding RE that I'm excited to get an appointment with.

[SKJ2011]

Whoa... I had no idea: "hCG levels are also higher in women carrying a female fetus when compared to women carrying a male fetus, so it is possible that the pregnancy test becomes positive later in women carrying a male fetus."

[indie1976]

skj - that's crazy! where did you read that? woohoo! you're gonna get your boy! your last post made me tear up! so very sweet. thank you.

toothfairy - ohmygoodness i will definitely take your unused meds!!!! thank you! that sucks about your friend's experience on thebump. i would have never known about this site if my friend hadn't told me about it... i tried to also get involved on babycenter because they have a good thread with ladies with low amh but by that point i had already bonded with you ladies so it didn't stick.

[Shell77]

BEBE: Oh how AWESOME that she is moving around like crazy.... have you thought about girl names? can you feel her move yet? I can't wait till my 12 week appointment! then i will be able to breath a little lol

Jpack: I am so sorry about your temps... i for one just don't trus temping anymore... It's funny you don't want to BD anymore and i can't wait too!! it's been a week and i am going crazy!! lol

Indie :-(  I know that left behind feeling all too well :-( and it stinks!! December 18th VIBES sent to you!! Your going to have a valentine BFP I can feel it now :-)

Sherry: wow you sound busy as usual... don't forget us here ;-)

TF: I go to the doctor Tomorrow at 8:45 am.... I am about to go visulize nice big follicles... I am visulizing 8 of them too .. ((giggles))  How was the Lupron shot? My tummy looks HORRIBLE.. I am black, blue , purple and I have holes all on my tummy... Looks like I have a drug problem hahaha

SKJ: you have such a awesome attitude!! I know that this is going to work out for you, Good for you for not POAS today!! I still can't wait tohear your beta numbers... are you doing them again friday as well? ... and i had NO IDEA about the HCG levels ... very cool! you learn something new everyday ;-)

AFM: i am so tired today... and I have LOADS of ewcm ... like crazy , I had to put on a panty liner... i am taking Ganarelix so i won't ovulate till i take my Ovidrel, so at least I am not worried about that.... But my Breast are killing me, lots of ewcm,,, looks like my body wants to O badly.  I bout a pregnancy magazine today , "Fit and Pregnant"  I felt good buying it!! I also popped the button on my jeans today :-( UGH I am so bloated I can't even wear my jeans... I worked 1/2 a day , then came home to cook and i was so tired that while chopping my onion I chopped my thumb ... Blood everywhere... so i stiched my thumb up 2 stitches lol ... I guess I need a nap,

[SKJ2011]

Oh man, my zen feeling is starting to fade. Not sure how I'm going to wait until tonight or tomorrow morning! for the results.

Here's the article on boys vs girls and HCG http://www.scientificamerican.com/article.cfm?id=differences-between-boys

ETA - The doc's office is now closed, so I guess I can stop thinking about it until tomorrow morning. Good and bad, I suppose
Edited by SKJ2011 - 12/5/12 at 2:05pm

[SKJ2011]

Hcg was only 68. Doubling time is something like 52 hours. No p4 results. Someone in another thread had nearly the same results and their doc wanted the number to triple. I'm very confused on what to think. Initially, I started crying bc I thought the number would be higher. One site I used to put in my numbers had we right below the average. I guess I'm in limbo again. Just like before.
Edited by SKJ2011 - 12/5/12 at 4:09pm

[Shell77]

Sjk: I think that is a decent #.... I think you should not do anymore testing for a week.... Just enjoy pregnancy ( I know easier said than done) I said a prayer for you and your little bean.    

[jpack]

Oh, shell how awful about your thumb! Poor you! And a riot about wanting to bd! I know I said I couldn't, but we did - no stone unturned, right?!

Bebe we had cross posted earlier- girl, I love it! How great to share the news over dinner, And a mover - that's great!

Oh, SKJ, I'm so sorry, sweetie, that the doubling time wasn't shorter to ease your mind, but I don't think it's the end. It's so hard, I have been there, I know nothing I can say will fix anything but here's my 2 cents anyway 1) below average is not the end of it, its just less peace of mind than you'd like, and that's hard to swallow. 2) I had super reassuring quick-doubling betas and ended up with a blighted ovum (I know, you know that story already) which is only to say even that which eases your mind in the moment isn't a guarantee. I guess all I'm getting at is it is so hard and crummy to just sit in limbo, but for now you ARE pregnant and echo Shell on that. I am so bad at ever listening to my own advice, btw, but I just want to put it out there that my heart brakes for your space of not knowing and I sympathize with how long the hours take to pass in that time. I wish I had a crystal ball, since I don't I've got my fingers and toes crossed for you!


Indie, just think, it's like you get to be pregnant for a whole year, with this being the zero-th trimester, like t-1! I agree, valentines BFP! And I do have the feeling that there will be some benefits to the slight delay: hand-me-down-meds, for one!

I'm not usually so active online, but with real estate slow and dd plopped in front of tinkerbell, sick (and now in bed)... I'm so thankful for you all, too! I know I'm new and all, but I feel like I need to laugh at this stuff and share in other womens' experiences or else I feel like such an outsider. I'm really grateful for you all!

Sorry - that was all on my phone, and try as I may, I make so many mistakes! I'll try to be better and stick to my laptop, especially for and !

[toothfairy2be]

SKJ- I wish your results were more definitive. I always thought they wanted a doubling time of under 60 hours but I could be wrong. You really just don't know until you know. I'll keep praying. I'm glad you got your number today so you have something to compare Fridays result to.

Shell- Hehe on the EWCM- when are you allowed to have sex again?? We're on a dry spell because of BCPs and after so many months of 'timed intercourse' it is nice not to have the pressure. Wait, you stitched up your own finger??

indie- well I sure am glad you made it here, however the path. 

AFM- I took my first shot & I did a good job! So far my hip is sore but it might be from Yoga. DH tells me it is all in my mind. 

Pomegranate Juice with seltzer water is amazing... 

[bebelove]

jpack, sorry your cycle hasn't exactly gone wonky . . . I really understand the not being able to BD anymore thing. Oh I've been there! There were times I had so little interest that I flat out told DH that this was literally going to be for sperm collection. I'm sure he loved that. But really, working full-time and doing it every other day for 30+ days straight and that's all I've got to offer. ha! I hope your cycle straightens itself out and you get a nice temp spike soon!

Indie, do they at least fly you business/1st class? Phew that's a long flight. I've only been there once while doing a rotation in integrative medicine while in grad school, but since I was there long enough I got to really explore and get to know Hong Kong. DH met me over there for a portion of my time there, and we both agreed we could live there. We were living in NYC at the time, so it was very similar but different, which we enjoyed. Also, and this is funny, but the Starbucks lattes there are the best in the world.  So I have to agree with SKJ, you are the most supportive and warm person, and I know that someone as wonderful and special as you will get your BFP, and soon! Like I said, I. JUST. KNOW. xo

Thanks, TF! I know, I'm not exactly buying anything pink yet, because who knows what they might see in 2 weeks! Either way, I'm truly good, which is a great position to be in. I'm happy to share Harmony/MaterniT21 info with you when the time comes (which will be soon, so get ready!). Did you start the Lupron tonight?! I've also noticed some really catty and overly opinionated women, both on TheBump and on BabyCenter. I was just thinking the either night while I was doing some reading on BabyCenter forums, that MDC (and in particular our lovely little thread) is very special.

SKJ, oh I'm sorry you're still in limbo - ugh! I feel for you -- it's so hard to wait and worry and then wait and worry some more. Will you do another beta in 2 more days? I definitely think you are still in the game!!

Shell, we do have some girls names that we liked from like years ago, but until we know for sure it's a girl I think we're going to wait on the real serious baby name discussion chat ;) Exciting though! I can't wait to know for sure. Aww Shell, sorry about your finger! Poor girl - at least you can stitch yourself up. :) Maybe you should buy a Bella Band so you can keep those pants comfy and unbuttoned, and then you'll be ready with it for your BFP! 

So here's our predator baby at 12 weeks:

My friend at work made me feel a lot better today when I told her about predator baby and she told me that's exactly what she and her DH said at their 12-week U/S. I'm going to have to wait on the belly pic because when we took the pic you can't even really tell. So I'll give it a couple more weeks so I can hopefully give you a proper one. ;)

Edited by bebelove - 12/5/12 at 7:25pm

[bebelove]

TF, I think we cross-posted, but great job on the shot! Proud of you :)

[jpack]

Way to go TF! Future blackmail fodder, Bebe, that one's gotta go into her wedding slideshow!

[SilaMarila]

bebelove - OMG baby totally looks like a predator baby! Love it! Can't wait to hear if the u/s tech was right about the gender!

SKJ - Good for you. I'm proud of you for not testing. I'm sorry the number isn't what you wanted though. Hang in there friend. Nothing about this easy.

TF - 1 down! Woo! And so it begins! Did the BCP's completely destroy your sex drive? Because they did mine and we had a major dry spell as well.

Shell - You gave yourself stitches?!?! That's my kind a girl! Enjoy your sleep!

jpack - You can do it! I always feel like I can't go one more day of having sex but some how telling myself I can't really makes me want to so I do :) Sorry about the unpredictable cycle. I know how that goes...

AFM - EWCM yay! I really hope this means an egg is on it's way. I know my body and I know that EWCM definitely doesn't guarantee an egg. Ugh I talked to a new friend today that had trouble conceiving today about metformin and now I feel like I really want to try it.

[sherryvhkb]

Hi all

finding a minute

Bebe--- still and again- awwww.

SKJ.  well I am glad they got the results to you quickly.  Honestly you can get a preliminary in hours.  I always call the lab and harass them!   I have seen that lower # with boys thing too.  I remember it being about the Y chrom carrying sperm being slower swimmers so conception is slightly slower as well as implantation....hmm.  Hang in there mama.

Shell:  Extra large jumbo eggs on special this week!!! grow!!  and ewwww your own finger??? not a finger i couldn't.  DH stitched mine up at the kitchen table once...i am cringing thinking of it

Sila- welcome!

Lucielle- belated welcome too...sorry i am slow..Nigeria?  i think i missed a page.  Is that where you are?

TF- O.M.G> i am sooooo excited for you and glad that you are doing this... i feel joy in my heart when i read your posts..it all feels right.  

JPack- temps with a sick kid- forget it!!  i hope for a quick recovery and that the only sick you get is in the morning

Indie- DUDE! hong kong? Manilla?  really?  WOW!!!! soak it all in- in a few years when your changing a baby and watching helplessly as your toddler dumps nail polish on the dog you will be saying----  "Oh God- someone send me to Manilla!!!!!"  haha.  thoughts and prayers for you on the 18th.  and for the new year full of next step baby making...I feel you a bit on the left out of the IVF Super Highway...but at least you are on the on ramp.  stocking stuffers huh?  

Chrissy- where are you??? haha just kidding.  Hows it all going?  

afm: well as i said renovating...sinking in it....dirty tired calloused- from 6 am- midnight- then traveling to Brooklyn.  DH working extra (renovations) so three weeks in a row for me. I am excited for him to come here tomorrow...but i wish i had more done!  Baby duty is nice- DD is hanging in there- finishing up the semester and talking about getting back to work too- i know so well how hard that is.,,and he seems to be only pooping when with me this week- she will worry and worry and as soon as she leaves he explodes!  haha! i think he senses the tension.

I am cd 31....not sure when/if i O'd.  I tested Sunday cd 27 and got a bfn...i have one bad walmart blue dye test that i will use in am if AF isn't here then..I am getting tired of this somehow...deeply....sometimes a road just ends.  I talked to DH about stopping- preventing even- but he thought we were just gonna see what happens.  I have decided against hsg because there are no further steps to take if I am blocked.  I would just feel broken.  Not to sound negative from the past year and all it's ups and downs and i just can no longer "see" "feel" that baby.  Perhaps the one I hold now is Gods answer- to take care of and be thankful for what I have.  Right now i feel like one of those old board game spinners that someone has given a good hard flick. I hope to stop spinning by January and find some peace in my heart and a way to go forward.  I am not big on new years and resolutions and all that- being so mom/student for so much of life that the new years always feels like it starts in september for me.

 But my goal for 2013 is calm steady building of happiness and stress reduction, and the great enjoyment of all of your BFP's and ultrasound pictures and birth stories and baby pictures!  I am an only child but I am loving the idea of being a virtual aunty to all of the sisters I've found here.  For some of us yes it has been more than a year that we have bared out hearts and cervical mucous to each other- squinted at pee lines- supported- enbraced- celebrated and consoled each other.  As i said once before I don't think I have ever shared such intimate pieces of myself with anyone but DH- AND HE IS SO OVER ALL THAT! haha- men! you probably saved his sanity and he doesn't even know!  

I missed Thanks giving but I want to say how thankful I am for you all.  As i sit here- far away from it all- on a mountain top- watching the snow flurry down- at midnight- I feel so NOT alone.  

Goodnight all- 

[sherryvhkb]

Stupid blue test......

[sherryvhkb]

Pink test i found while unpacking...heated. froze....prob no good!!!