Taking the Scenic Route...to a BFP - Page 97

[jpack]

SKJ I read that as your beta #was 830 this morning- I was about to be like, holy cow!

Sherry- I'm so sorry about af! Bleh! But thanks for your post - I hadn't thought about that early morning in a long time!

Shell- no nympho! Your body is like, "WTF?! let me at 'im, let me at 'im!" my body's like, "Again? Really?!" I think it's great that you think you were so primed you could have done it without the IVF part! That bodes well regardless! I did do it that one last day, so even though my temps aren't lining up perfectly because of the sleeplessness, I got a ton of bding in - the timing should have worked out perfectly. Thanks for your compliment, too! And I'll be thinking of you Sunday!

[jpack]

Ok, on the real computer now!

TF, sorry about the itchies, I am a very "itchy" person and feel like that's a side effect that would really bug me. No pun intended...

Sila hows that o looking? EWCM is great - hope you caught that egg! 

Indie didn't say earlier but very cool about the raise. So jealous! A salary would be a step in the right direction, let alone a raise! But that's great, glad it eases your mind about your travels, I hope you get to really enjoy yourself, pregnant or not!

everyone!

AFM as I said above, I did get that last day of BD in, so there seems to be NO WAY I missed it, timing-wise. (I'm gonna try to link my chart: http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/38671c  temps are whacked, like I said but this mornings was solid and high). BUT There's something I don't get about this IF situation, though. I am so sure this could be the month. But somehow, I have forgotten that I was this way last month, and the month before that and so on and so forth from like 15 months onwards. I don't understand how my memory can have this gap for the medium-term. I wish I could tone down my optimism, but even in months when I've managed to do that, I still get super optimistic at the end. I just feel like such a loser when it doesn't happen. I don't get why it's so hard for me to lower my expectations. That's where I'm at. Any advice? 12 step program?

[SilaMarila]

jpackSKJ - No O yet. Yes I'm temping. It's the only way I can confirm it. I usually ovulate day 4-5 of EWCM and today is 3 so I'm thinking another day or 2 if it's going to happen. I'm almost afraid to talk about it. Like my egg my hear me and change it's mind.

SKJ - That was fast! Usually the wait for new patients is months! Hoping you won't need it.

jpack - Definitely looks like you have ovulated and are very well covered :) I don't know, sometimes I think that our thinking that every month is the month is what makes us able to keep going...

[indie1976]

on my phone and getting a much needed pedicure so this will be short... will be back later for more personals...

skj - thinking of you. i think that dream sounds like a great sign!!!!

jpack - if you want to see ridiculous optimism look at my first post on this thread... i was sure i'd be giving birth by jan or feb this coming year! ha!

ok will be back later...

[toothfairy2be]

indie- It really is depressing to look at some of our first posts. All positive that the LAP would be the answer... that we would be mommies by now. This IF thing is the big suck. Congrats on the raise, that is awesome news especially now when you need it. Hopefully you will be taking Gonal-F too and you can use whatever I have left. I have 2700 units and am taking 225 a day... so... that gives me 9 days of stims on what I already have. If I need a refill and I get another 2700 units there should be an abundance of leftovers.

SKJ- The dream sounds wonderful. I've been thinking about your today and am so hopeful for a good report from your RE.

sila- Trying to be all elusive and hide your thoughts from your egg, sneaky. Do you have another birth this weekend so you can make sure egg is nice and strong?? Also, I'm not sure if it is the BCPs killing my sex drive or just a lack of sex drive all around. I think we are just enjoying not having to have sex... Didn't help that DH has been sick and working like crazy.

jpack- You definitely have your bases covered (I'm always super impressed by the double XX because we could never pull that off). The hope is what keeps us going, because it could always happen.... it could.

I need to go back a page to get caught up on everything else!

[toothfairy2be]

bebe- That is for sure a blackmail photo! Is that the best they printed for you or are there some side view ones too?? So creepy (cool and beautiful and amazing... but creepy). 

Shell- My bday is Aug 21st so I'm all for you having an end of August due date! It is coming up SO fast I can't even believe it!! So excited for you! How many days did it take for you to get bruises? Did they all bruise or just some?

Sherry- You seriously have the worst luck in the whole world with those tests showing up false positive. Really I see a line on both of them... In all these cycles I have not even had a evap, not even a squinter (though I don't test often... but I used to...) I can't believe it happens to you so much. SO unfair. Sorry about AF coming and I'm glad you are going to stay around with us. I wish they could have just guaranteed that your tube would stay open... it is just so frustrating. You are a lucky- g-ma though. He is so cute and I love the little Christmas picture!

SKJ- I'm glad they could get you an appointment so quickly at the RPL doc. You said she is an RE as well right? So now you will get treated by someone who can be specific to your needs?

I hope I didn't miss anything! 

AFM- So, the Lupron makes me sleep like a ROCK. I've had some weird dreams but overall I feel so rested. I had an itty bitty headache the first night but my days have been fine. The injection site itching wasn't really even bothersome, just something I noticed, it was a little pink and itched for... ehh... an hour? I do feel more tired throughout the day, my energy comes and goes. Anyway, DH and I are going into Boston tonight for a show and to walk around and see the lights (all thats missing is some snow!). I'm glad to have a date night and to be distracted for a few hours. I'm taking my shot with me...

[SKJ2011]

OMG. They called and left a message. I'm too scared to listen to it. I just want to ignore it and live in ignorance for a while longer. DH is going to call me soon so we can try and listen to it together.

[SilaMarila]

Who called? A nurse with this morning's beta results? 

[SKJ2011]

Yeah. Sorry. To anxious to speak clearly I wish someone else could listen to the message and tell me. I'd rather have the results from someone I like For all I know, they just left a message to say to call them back. AHHHHHHHHHHHH I hate this!

[SKJ2011]

Beta was 138!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is a doubling time of 47.5 hours. Progesterone was nearly the same - 14.1. So, I go in again on Monday for more blood work. Breathing sigh of relief. According to the one beta doubling calculator site with a graph, I'm exactly at the average in terms of absolute HCG levels for my DPO. I think I'm in the less than average category on betabase.

[indie1976]

SKJ!!!!!!!!!!! This is fantastic!!!!! I KNEW your dream was a great sign!!!  eeeek! what a great way for all of us to start the weekend!!!

i'll be back! promise!

[jpack]

Great news, SKJ!! Way to go! Yay!!! So happy for you!!

Have an awesome time tonight, TF!

[SKJ2011]

Thanks ladies. Shelly - I'm dying for an update from you! Your encouragement to think positive and visualize totally helped!!!

[bebelove]

SKJ!!!!! I'm so thrilled at this news!!!! Just have a quick minute while at work but had to say congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[indie1976]

ok, back quicker than i thought i'd be!

skj - i really think you have a stubborn little boy on your hands! shades of things to come! i'm just so thrilled! this is a great sign all around!

toothfairy - you are just the sweetest, really you are! and, yes, all that crazy hope throughout this year... oh, well. i don't think it was for naught... we might not have gotten our jan/feb due dates but surely we will get our jan/feb bfps!! right??!! 

jpack - i'm with toothfairy - an xx just doesn't happen in this house! good for you guys! i think we have a christmas bfp in the making!

sila - in my mind, i do yoga all the time lol. like, i reeeeally want to be a yoga fanatic but i have horrible discipline. i love it every time i go to class. unfortunately, going to a class is rare for me. thats it. i'm making a commitment to go at least once before the end of the year! y'all hold me accountable, k?

shell!!! you are 1 1/2 weeks pregnant! i love that! that's exactly the truth! i am so living vicariously through you right now  i am visualizing plump eggs and healthy embies for you!! i think you, tf, and me should all just agree to have twins.

chrissy - 

sherry - crappy AF! i'm still amazed that you just "get" AF. are you the only one here who doesn't have obnoxious spotting? hope you have a lovely time with dh!

bebe - you and your little family can move to europe and then we will all come visit! 

did i get everyone??  apologies if i didn't! i love have much is happening right now but i'm always afraid i'm missing someone in my personals!

afm - thanks for celebrating my raise/new career focus with me! i've been in the best mood since i got the official word (and then skj's news just made me twice as happy!). i feel like for the first time in 3 years i have my professional life figured out once again. three years ago i moved back to FL from california and while i have been (thankfully) gainfully employed this whole time, i've been in a state of limbo for several reasons that are just too boring to go into. anyway, i didn't fully realize how much not having that part of my life figured out was dragging me down in so many ways. i have just felt like a much duller version of myself. and then you throw in the IF part and it's just been... yeah. you know. anyway, suddenly i feel like life has come into much sharper focus and i am pretty humbled by it because it certainly wasn't intentional but i can see now it's just what needed to happen. so... i'm feeling good!

happy weekend, everyone!

[SKJ2011]

Thanks Bebe! I'm so, I don't know, relieved, terrified, surprised, all rolled into one.

Indie - Seriously, I think getting your career stuff sorted is 100% going to mean a BFP for you. I'm a firm believer that we IF ladies have to get to a certain head space/place in our lives for this to work. I think TF got there with her struggle figuring out what to do about IVF, and her BFP is just weeks away. I think for me, I needed to just really, truly let go of all my tendency to control. And, it sounds like you didn't even realize that you needed this work thing settled to put your mind at ease. If nothing else, the stress of not thinking about it can't hurt. I'm so happy for you and your happiness is palpable. Where are you in your cycle? Hoping you get an icing on the cake BFP!

TF - sounds like lupron could be the new ambian When do you start stims? I'm so excited for you! And, I hope you have a fantastic date night. Sounds really great!

AFM - So, it turns out my RE's office has been mischarging me!I called my insurance b/c I thought it was kinda crazy to pay a $40 copay every time I step foot in the place, regardless of if I'm seen by a doctor or not. Turns out, I shouldn't be charged anything EXCEPT when I see a doctor. I've been trying to get a hold of them, but no dice. So, I have a sh$t ton of money coming back my way. And, I found out that I can go see the new doc without having to worry about the IF benefits b/c I'm seeing her for recurrent pregnancy loss. I'm going to go to her regardless, just to see what she has to say. Maybe she can check me out to make sure there should be no problems with this pregnancy. So, all in all, Friday is shaping up to be a good day.

BTW, my dude date (ha! subliminal typo??) is 8/13/13. I'm scared to even write that down, but I guess I should take jpack's advice and rejoice now and mourn later if I have to. Will be interesting to find out if this is indeed a boy.

[jpack]

Indie- its great that you're feeling good. I've been in the job limbo too for two years-- even though Im so driven and knew so specifically what I wanted to do. It's pretty dulling- I know just what you mean!

Speaking of work, i meant to ask, so cool bebe about working with a tribe! Would love to know in what capacity.

The XX days are... Interesting... I have this theory that for me the timing has to be just right, so I try, try, try. (like the goose from Charlotte's Web). So if no BFP this month, I'm thinking of iui... See, it can't be timing good to rule it out, anyway. Thanks for the props, though ladies, and sila I agree that there is no way to get through it without the hope. Indie, you're great, yeah the optimism... It's great, it helps me anyway. Happy Friday PM everyone!!

[SilaMarila]

Yes SKJ rejoice now!!!! Because we are all rejoicing with or without you!!! 

Oh how I want each and every one of us to follow right behind you...

[Shell77]

Look at what I bought today!!!

[toothfairy2be]

SKJ-