good morning, friends!
charley - sounds like you got some very good advice from sherry and what toothfairy says is encouraging about her friend getting it done on cd1... i really don't think you will have a problem BUT i would keep the bleeding/spotting to myself until they are wheeling you into surgery :) everything will work out and you will get this done before you move and here's hoping you will get preggo naturally and won't need any further costly fertility interventions!
bebelove: i am so on pins and needles... you really are hitting all the symptoms, woman! i would be surprised if this is a short lp thing when you are also on clomid... clomid usually helps your lp to regulate... so i would say this could be an encouraging sign! i'm so excited for you!!! please post and let us know what's going on!
gtree: put down words with friends and draw something... and post something! ;-)
sherry: so where are your temps at now?
afm: bfn this morning. fertility friend is split on whether or not i O'd on cd 13 or cd 14 (though i really think it was cd 13). so it *could* mean that i am just 9dpo today. bbs still sore. temps still high. but i really don't think i am pregnant this month. kinda silly to call it right now, but i just don't feel like i am. which is perfectly fine. i can now focus my brain on getting work done today and then turn my attention to next cycle. but bebelove... i am so thinking this is it for you!
I am checking in more today since I don't have to work.
Indie- so bummed about your BFN... why why why. I hope it is just too early, 9dpo is still super early, fo reals, most embryos don't implant until 8-12 dpo so you wouldn't have nearly enough hcg at this point. I will hold out hope and pray real hard things change.
gtree- I know you haven't been WWFing or drawing this morning since my games with you are all waiting... but I hope your doctors office calls soon with some good news. If not, they better have upped their game and have a better plan for you next cycle. Thinking of you my friend!
bebelove- sorry I missed you last night!! Your symptoms sound promising, I hope you have a BFP coming for us in the next few days. We need a BFP- we have been waiting for like 6 months... ahh!
Sherry- now everytime I see your name I sing Sherry sherry baby because of Indie. I loved Jersey Boys though so it makes me smiley. What is new with you today? Ohhh as far as ditching milk goes, I know it was a while ago you posted something about having trouble ditching milk. I drink Almond Breeze Unsweetened Vanilla. Honestly, I tried drinking some of DH 1 % milk last week and I was gagging. I have been cooking with it a little but I try to stick with almond milk as much as possible. It just tastes better. It does take a while to get used to as a former 2% gallon a week drinker, but now I really don't miss it. The chocolate almond milk isn't as good (it is OK, just not great) unless you get the sweetened kind, but I usually do not.
AFM- Ever wish AF would just appear super early. I am really only like 4dpo but c'monnn AF I just want to start over! To make you all feel good, I bought coconut coffee at bruggers bagels today and came home and put it over ice with almond milk. I haven't had coffee since last summer and this tastes amazing!
Indie: I swear it's too early for you! Hang in there . . . seriously! You've had some very promising symptoms and we all have that tendency to throw in the towel at CD10, but we shouldn't! I'm so glad to hear that you have a good outlook and attitude though no matter what the outcome - my frame of mind is not as solid!
Toothfairy: Good for you doing nice things for yourself! I totally hear you -- the wait is the worst part of this process. It's all wait, wait, wait through every phase of the cycle. It's maddening. Keep doing nice things for yourself :)
gtree: update, update!
AFM: So I don't have worsening spotting this morning, so that's good, but I literally woke up at 4:30 in the morning so nervous that it was going to increase and worsen and I was going to start AF, so now I am positively exhausted! I'm dragging in the truest sense of the word. On a more hopeful note, I noticed that my veins were a lot bluer this morning, particularly on my right arm. I first noticed it a little on my left breast, and then checked my arms and hands in the bathroom mirror and couldn't believe it. Of course maybe it looks that way every morning in the bathroom light and my obsessive symptom checking is simply out of hand. In work light, my hands don't look that unusual but my right arm still is quite blue. Who knows. I've lost my mind. LOST IT! I just want a fighting chance this cycle . . . just the opportunity to test without spotting first. Please! At any rate, I decided the earliest that I'm testing is tomorrow, so we'll see what happens today. Oy!
toothfairy: thanks for your prayers! really, thanks. i think what makes it hard to hold out hope is having had a bfp on the evening 8dpo. sometimes i wish i never had the experience of being pregnant before because i just can't help comparing everything to that experience. i feel like i just "know", you know? but i am TOTALLY open to the universe proving me wrong! i like to be wrong about things like this! :) so is there any chance you can go to where dh will be working so you don't miss next cycle? a quick trip to dtd? and yay for coffee!
bebelove: you are KILLING me. i can't stand the suspense! pee on something already! lol i am so ready for someone to break the seal for this group. i just know if we can get ONE BFP then the rest of us will follow in quick succession! i just know it! the blue veins are yet another great sign! i'm totally transferring my obsessive behavior from me to you. i am as invested in your symptoms as you are!! test!!
i'm home again today. gloriously alone- to rehang the back door and recaulk the bathtub....oh what leisure.
Indie- hang in there- and - yeah what toothfairy said.
Toothfairy- my life is a song what can i say. steve perry song- my first kiss boyfriend sand to me. Sherry Baby- the super oldie- the anesthesiologist used to sing to me in the OR, there is even a hip-life song from Ghana- what the heck.
I am not having much luck with the dairy yet. I am conscienciously avoiding. perhaps that will turn into a full quit at some point. I am having a bad bagel crave today. I really wish my gym wasn't next door to a Dunkin Donuts. I almost caved this morning. I bought 2 different kinds of Choc Chip GF cookies...and thet are blah..this means i have to get back to trader Joes- because those make it all ok. i would eat them anyway- just yum. I SOOOOOOO feel you on the AF. I am maybe 2-3dpo- or more like 2-3 dp ZERO. i feel premenstral- x20. SOOOO bloated i barely squeeked out 2 eliptical miles- i felt like i was heavy and slogging- and i am sooo crampy. come on AF. RE says i had a thick lining- well yeah...i didn't really shed much from last month- ick. I never got a taste for coffee- amazing after working in a hospital where people literally exist on the stuff- but no diet pepsi is my poison of choice- however- your cocnut coffee almond sounds really yummy. i wonder if you could freeze that into coffeecicles.
GTREE!!!! you did this before- aaarrrrgggggg call them- we cant take it. bt if you did and you just need some privacy then sorry-
BEBELOVE- yay for no spotting!!! and ugh- hurry up morning!!
Charley- 2 more days. I have surgery envy. i want to go in drift off to sleep and have someone fix me. I even have just the guy who could do that. He sleeps next to me. I wish he would just take a peek!
afm: as i said. bloated, crampy, wishing i would af. I even poas this am. just because RE freaked me out. the stick didn't even bother being negative...it just laughed at me. stupid stick. I am ready to know- so hurry up af and hsg. i am ready for the straight scoop. my last blind hope month sucks so far. ummm it wicked sucks- haha . hey whats withe the wwf without me? and WHAT IS THIS DRAW SOMETHING???? i keep hearing about it.
anyone wanna vote- is my af messed up due to stress? even though that appear post o- or progesterone?
ahakiru...are you still out there- my favorite lurker.
shell- next tuesday? when was af?
well im off to use some power tools!!! my next break is before the tub caulking- so POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know, I need to test! I'm holding out for no other reason that my current inability to handle disappointment. I will definitely test in the morning though, and will report back! Still very, very mild spotting, so mild it's hardly noticeable. Please pray that it doesn't kick up!
bebelove- please go stand on your head. Or at least lay at a good upsidedownish slant. I can fax you a doctors note.
and im not slacking...my drill still isnt charged.
sherry... for what it's worth (and i know it's not much!) i'm thinking you did catch the tail end of your lh surge and did O and your temps are just wonky due to travel/stress/etc. of course, what i don't know is if O is always discernible on ultrasounds? would your RE have been able to see that? i mean, it does look like you had a temp shift... and you had a positive opk... are you going to skip the progesterone this cycle?
hmmm yeah i might have...but 3 times on the right side is a pretty slim chance. One of the things i most like about the RE is knowing. so...come on AF. I am feeling increasingly yuck throughout the day. Perhaps that dominican fish poisoning was delayed.
Progesterone? I don't know. I should start tomorrow but i DO NOT want to retain any more endometrial lining. I could explode. I feel like there is a 20 pound pineapple in my pelvis.
perhaps i'll post it to see if anyone else has had this experience. If not I'll chalk it up to stress.
Toothfairy? where are you? are you out getting something massaged or waxed? I need to quit spending my days off on home repair and start up your routine....
Toothfairy: Thank You I would love to be a part of this group
Indie : I always start making myself feel "not pregnant" around 9 dpo also, I guess to prepare my mind and heart for a bfn, I get so obessed!!
Bebelove: I had those blue veins on my breast this last cycle, I swear I think I had a chemical pregnancy!. , Good Luch I hope you get your BFP
Sherry: Yep, Next Tuesday the 17th is the big day , I started af on Monday .. but spotted all day Sunday, It has been super light until today ... then BOOM a mascre happened LOL and the cramping is horrible.
AFM: First off thank you all for welcoming me, I hope I can fit in here ... So some of you know me from other blogs .. But i will fill you in. I am 39 years young , and have a DH who is just turned 38. he has no children ( his ex wife of 15 years was selfish) and I have 2 from my previous marriage ( my husband died 4 years ago to a pancreatic disease) My oldest daughter is in the navy and my youngest is 11 and a boutique model. I am a very Lucky girl to have the best DH ... he is supportive and so sweet, and loves my girls and is a terrific father!! We have been ttc since Sept. when I got my mirena IUD removed (horrible thing) .. DH had a SA and it cam back that he has a slight motility issue But my ob/gynn told me to not be discouraged ... we have him on a vitamin cocktail lol I have been doing accupuncture, and not drinking cold , staying away from caffeine,typical tcm stuff... also I have had my thyroid checked (good) And my sonogram was excellent news... My cyst was gone !!! So now I am just waiting on my HSG ... I am still going to do my accupunture even throughout my pregnancy to ensure no mc as I have had 2 before one at 3 months and 1 and 5 months. .... but my ob/gyn thinks that if I turn out o that we need to go see a RE and get a IUI . Hopefully we wont have to go that route ... But we are commited to do anything ...Today has been a bad day so far though... My ac went out and in Texas heat that is not a good thing!! UGH I am melting.... I am also cramping and bleeding so bad today!! and this headache will not go away! I even broke down and drank a cold diet dr. pepper ... I gotta run and go pick up DD from School
I feel like when I don't check this for a couple of days there are a million posts. I just caught up on everything and laughed and the BB grabbing. I was doing the same thing yesterday at the gym. My nipples itch. Like crazy. And then, I of course jumped on google and read all about itchy nipples. I guesss that could be my only slight symptom. I am back to convinced I didn't O again.
Bebe and Indie, I am hoping so much for both of you! BFP BFP BFP!!
As you all know blood test was yesterday morning. Today I had my phone out all day in case I got a call and had decided I would call them this afternoon if I did not hear anything. And. then. I. missed the call. ARGH. So I called back and they answered! THEY WERE CALLING BECAUSE I OWED THEM $90 and had no results. Nada. Then I told the nurse to go ahead and schedule me for Friday (they are closed on Thursday) and she asked if I was coming in for my annual exam. So I got snippy. I feel like I live in their office and they should know who I am. I think she was the same one who called me and gave me the wrong results last month.
So, I did haphazardly test on Monday haha. Really too soon. I will try again tomorrow morning. I am convinced it is BFN this month and am with you tooth fairy on hoping for an early AF.
sherry- I wouldn't start the progesterone until you are sure you have O'd- if you didn't O then you want AF to come ASAP, if you are just O'ing late the progesterone will prevet O and you will go annovulatory which also sucks. Been there, done that. Unfortunately I wasn't off galavanting to spas, salons, or massage parlors today, I spent the afternoon with my cousins 2 girls (4 and 6 mos), I think I was too strenuous, my incisions are sore. I did get tickets for high tea with my girlfriends at a local tea parlor but that won't be for a few weeks.
Sherry & Shell- yummy to the dr pepper. I love the Cherry Vanilla soda at whole foods... like Dr Pepper without the caffiene and artificial stuff- Don't judge me, I love soda and eat a lot of artificial stuff- ie. the jelly beans and coconut creme eggs I've devoured in the last 2 days.
Shell- I'm sorry to hear about your losses and the passing of your husband. Sounds like you have had an amazing opportunity at a second chance. Ugh to CD1- when is your HSG scheduled? Love the acupuncutre, TCM stuff and glad your hubby is compliant with his vitamins, my DH is a pain in the tookus when it comes to taking anything. He has gotten 'good' reviews in the sperm department but seriously, better wouldn't hurt. Looking forward to getting to know you better.
bebe- I will be checking in with you tomorrow- hoping and praying for good positive news, positive positive positive thoughts.
Thank You for the welcome Gtree I look forward to getting to know all of you better
Haha I love my Diet Dr. Pepper Sorry Sherry and Toothfairy for putting that craving on you all I must go to the world market and look for some of those no caffeine all natural soda's you are talking about ... yummmm I am sick of water!
Thank You Toothfairy I feel a lot stronger for what me and my girls had to go through for sure!! I do have a amazing 2nd chance at a wonderful life... he is truly a blessing to us I hope we can have a baby together to make our happy home a little happier... he has blessed us and I would love to bless him with a baby! My HSG test is scheduled for Tuesday the 17th of this month ... so basically in 6 day's ... I find out the results on the 30th when i have my dr. appt.
Oh and I am a closet nipple squeezer LOL ... everytime I have ever been pregnany one of my first symptoms is fluid coming out of my nipples.. ok I am embarrassed
Indie: Thanks for your positive attitude towards my situation. I appreciate it. You know, I can’t even imagine what it would be like to get pregnant with no help. I’m already planning IUI’s even though I don’t even know if we’ll need them.
I don’t think you have to count yourself out just yet – 10 or 11 dpo is still very early. However, I truly believe in our feelings and intuition should be valued and listened too.
Toothfairy – I just got that you work in the dental industry and your new name is toothfairy! I love coffee. It’s my favorite thing ever. When people ask what my favorite food is, I always say coffee. I cannot even imagine not having it for a year! I’m so worried about not being able to drink ANYTHING after midnight tonight – especially when I don’t have to be at the hospital until 11am and the surgery isn’t until 1pm. How did that CD making go? What playlist did you end up going with? The high tea sounds lovely.
BeBe – I know I’m a day late here, but I think you had implantation spotting! No to spotting! I have such a good feeling for you. I lit a candle last night and focused on good results this summer for all of us, and you kept rising to the top. I never thought to check my veins before, but I will now. Can’t wait for June to be in the TWW myself. Anyway - PEE PEE PEE! I would love to have some wonderful news before tomorrow!
Sherry – You’re so handy! I love it. How did the door and bathtub go? I have a funny caulk story. My mother once went into a hardware store and asked a young highschool boy for some caulk. He was like “Can I help you?” and She was like “I need some caulk.” And I guess the way it sounded shocked him so he was silent, just staring at her. So she began repeating herself saying “Caulk! I need a lot of caulk! Do you have caulk? I need to do some caulking.” It was pretty funny.
Shell – Welcome! I read the TTC in our 40s thread - so I know you a little bit. I hope you like this group as much as I do. I had an HSG last month and it was super easy. I think I reported about it a few pages back if you want details.
Gtree: How frustrating! They called because you had a small balance? Jerks. How did your test go this morning? I have my fingers crossed for you.
I feel like we have so much to hope for this month. BeBe, Gtree & Indie – I have hope for all of you.
AFM – I’m spending a lot of time getting worked up about future life events. I am telling myself it’s not a good idea to get so stressed before the lap tomorrow, but it’s not working. I plan on cleaning the house today and making some food for the weekend, so my husband has less to do. I hope I can make it with the not drinking anything past midnight. I’m nervous I guess. I am sure everything will go well, but I’m worried I’ll wake up and have both tubes gone, instead of just one. Also, I hope she’s able to get the polyp this time.
My husband says I’m getting my Lady Land detailed – that makes me laugh. I tried some meditating last night and some creative visualization. I lit a candle and got comfy and just focused on success for all of us and for a shiny new reproductive area for myself. Endo – BEGONE! Polyp that is acting like nature’s IUD – BEGONE! Hydrosalpinx – BEGONE! (but left tube please stay and be in good shape!)
So anyway – go go go scenic ladies!
PS – I hear a neighbor mowing their lawn! How crazy is that?
THANK YOU TOOTHFAIRY!!! i needed someone to smack some sense into me. Yes you are right on all counts. It's hard to apply logic to my TTC desperate self! A day with some kids sounds just as good. By the time i drive, park, am treated rudely, stopped and asked for change aggresively, etc. a pedicure, massage, etc. here just isn't worth it. Ah well. I have however been meaning to do High Tea at the Plaza- like Eloise- i am so glad you put that back into my brain.....! Funny how long those little incision act up isn't it. It really is a full 6 weeks or so before your clear.
Shell- i am drinking a Diet Dr. Pepper as i type.....yum....sinfull! I don't have the tragedy that you experienced, but also feel I am on Life part 2 and want to do all those sweet things with DH....and that D@#$ clock keeps ticking! I hope your AC is back on.
Charley, good luck tomorrow!!!!! and yes hardware people disrespect us ladies quite often! ALL of my flowers are up. I will be out to buy mulch soon- how crazy is that? if we had grass I'd probably be mowing it. I am fortunate to have a little concrete square behind the house with some flower beds. Thats as good as it gets here!
Pearlina...are you out there?..we have several quiet missing in action peeps.
Indie- well i hope all stays well. Go ask a nurse for a pregnancy test...as long as you have time to kill....they have boxes of them! Sitting in the ER with Grandfather is no excuse Miss!!!
AFM: well i was so right sided crampy...ok and a bit emotional this morning that i cornered DH before he could leave. If any of you wonder why your OB/GYN's are running late and assume it's because they are delivering babies it is mostly not true- but it is a handy excuse- they are trapped in their kitchen by their psycho ttc wife!
so my temp is up like 4/100's of a degree- still pretty close to coverline, not my usual post o. Since their is no way to tell if i did O or not and since we BD'd like Easter bunnies- we will wait it out a bit- then decide if we want to wait for AF or use Provera to bring it on so i can get my HSG. He still won't have a serious IVF conversation with me. grrrrr. so here i am stuck in the land of blah- snowballs chance in Hades...wondering if the game is over....He feels that "blob" (my name for DD's soon to be surprise as appears on US) will satisfy my desires...did i say grrrrr- i guess it's all up to temping now.
I NEED SOME GOOD NEWS!!!! SOMEONE BFP!!!!! PLEASE!