Things didn't go well/ The lap itself was done well and my doctor is amazing. However, my body is not. I'll go into more details later, as I still don't quite understand everything myself yet. I am having a very negative reaction to the general they put me under. I don't seem to be able to quite get back out from it. Also my throat is torn up from the breathing tube. I am shaky and vomity.
This all has nothing to do with the actual surgery itself though, in case some one finds this thread look for lap information, I want to be clear about that.
The polyp is gone. It was much larger than they thought - but I don't have an exact measurement yet, but it's outta there for sure!
The right tube, which had the severe hydrosalpinx, is gone. According to my husband, it was one of the biggest infections either of the surgeons have seen. It looked like a water balloon in my body. No wonder it hurt and made me so uncomfortable.
Endo gone. Stage 1 & 2.
Bad News: Left tube does not look good, it and my Ovaries are covered with scar tissue and actual scars. Cervix has sever scaring on its surface. RE thinks our only option is IVF. The little arms/fingers that reach out to carry and transport eggs? Mine don't look functional. Upside" The left tube is clear and clean on the inside.
There's more, but those are the highlights. I just didn't want to lave you hanging. I guess I'll know more on Tuesday - I have to go back to have a balloon in my uterus removed. They put one in, to help avoid scarring after the polyp - the polyp was so big and right on the curve and they didn't want to risk scarring or the side of the uterus growing together. Something like that. So anyhow - more on Tuesday.
I know I shouldn't be so... sad... but I am. I was really hoping this would be it for us. Or at least the biggest thing we would need to take care of. I was seriously hoping to catch a break after this. And while I am so grateful to have these serious issues taken care of and addressed by a wonderful doctor, and I am so thankful that I am recovering and these parts of my body will be better off, baby or no, I just fell so damn sad. Not even like "Why Me/Us" either, just more like, deflated. Air gone from my hopeful sails. Hope: Gone.
I guess I'll try hard to focus on the gratitude part of things though. I'm going to make a list of the things that happened today that I'm grateful for.
And I'm sure it'll help once all of these drugs wear off. It took me almost 3 hours in recovery and I'm still not 100% even though I am home. I guess I didn't quite accept DH for some time. I kept telling him that I was sure he was very nice and all, but that I was married and it was inappropiate for him to keep telling me that he loved me. I also told him that he was very handsome and while I know it wasn't proper, but it would be wonderful if he would keep holding my hand and rubbing my back. I told him my husband would understand, but one my actual husband got there, they would need to switch places. What was that about??
So anyhow - just didn't want to leave anyone wondering over the weekend. I'm sorry I'm not doing personals. I hope to catch up soon. I'll also begin a true recap soon and I'll just fill in the info from my RE as time goes on.
Have a wonderful weekend everyone - for us Upper East Coasters - it's going to be warm and lovely.