Yup, that's me, way over-sensitive and kind of cranky about everything. When things are going smooth, I'm fine, but the moment things start to fall apart and not go the way I'd like, I get pretty cranky. I've been so moody that I'm making my whole family moody too.
Of course, it doesn't help that we don't have a working car right now, and where we live, you can't do anything without a car. We don't have our own washer and dryer, so getting laundry done is a nightmare. My boyfriend's been out of work since not long before Christmas. I just lost my nanny job because I can't get there, so our income's even more tight. We're about to lose a bunch of stuff at the pawn shop, which is making my boyfriend cranky. He doesn't want to lose his PS3, which is making me even more cranky because I'm losing a lot more than he is. Pretty much we're doing everything we can to make ends meet until he gets his first paycheck, but he thinks he should get his PS3 as a reward for getting a job, even though I think getting the job is more important. I'm not trying to complain or whine or say that our situation is so bad, but I really have to wonder if the stress of all this is making me the royal nightmare I am.
The funny thing is I don't really feel like it's all that stressful. I know we've got it covered and the end of the month isn't that far away. It's not like we're going to have to survive like this forever. My van should be getting fixed this week. It's going to be a couple months before his car is fixed. The stuff we're losing at pawn is all just stuff and can be replaced. It's really not that big of a deal, and, in truth, I'm not even bothered by it. It just seems like some days it just gets to me for no logical reason, like all of these problems are big, huge problems that will never be dealt with, when in reality, I know in most cases it'll be fine in a matter of weeks at most. It's frustrating.
I don't know, I'm chalking it up to pregnancy hormones. I feel like I've been super-sensitive right now and that's had me swinging from cranky and crabby to sobbing to feeling like everything's just fine. I know I usually have crazy mood swings with my cycle, but I'm starting to think those were nothing in comparison!