I thought that since so many of us were talking about being depressed before pregnancy, during pregnancy and after pregnancy, that we might like to have a separate thread.
My journey through depression and anxiety started in childhood and continued all through my teen and early adult years. I was never medicated, however. When I got pregnant with Cecilia it really seemed to drain away and I figured that the hormones were balancing me out. When I gave birth to her, I did not get postpartum depression. In fact, I like to say that I got postpartum elation instead. I was never happier than in those first six months after Cecilia was born. I was sure I was cured!
Imagine my dismay when the signs of anxiety, followed closely by the signs of depression, started coming back around 7 or 8 months postpartum. Around 10 months, I began to see a therapist and, according to her analysis of me, I was off the charts for anxiety and pretty high up on the scale for depression. So I started on a low dose of Lexapro and continued in therapy.
I stopped seeing the therapist because we couldn't keep affording the $25 per visit copay, but continued on Lexapro until we decided to start trying to conceive. With my primary care physician's blessing, I weaned myself off of the Lexapro and quite soon after got pregnant again.
I'm not feeling depressed or even all that anxious right now. I'm just exhausted, and I'm trying to be honest with myself to figure out if that exhaustion is at all depression based. So far I don't think it is, but I really feel like I have to be vigilant and monitor myself closely. I'd like to avoid medication in this pregnancy, but I am a practical person and I won't avoid it if it means my sanity.
Anyway, if you want to share and commiserate and offer support for depression and anxiety in here, go wacky!