So I guess right now I'm dealing with a lot of anxiety about birth and parenting a newborn, plus a lot of guilt and anxiety about maternity leave, when to go back, money etc.
But I also am getting worried about my very real high risk of PPD based on a long history of depression. I just cried with DH tonight, "what if I fall apart, what if I am not okay.." Scared that in addition to not wanting to go back to work, I wouldn't even be ABLE to. My GP is the one who treats me for depression. I was going to go on Zoloft during the last part of the school year, but when I started it, it made my stomach hurt so bad I just couldn't continue after a few (non-theraputic, "build up" doses) So I have not been taking SSRIs during this whole pregnancy (went off as soon as I found out) So now I'm wondering if I shouldn't go back to him and discuss what I should do if PPD hits, how much medicine I have in that RX right now, etc. Really Celexa is the only drug that has ever worked for me, (I've tried about 5 different ones) and I'd like to have that option, too, despite it showing higher serum levels in breast milk than Zoloft.
I'm NOT glad that everyone else is feel anxious, too, but it helps to come read this thread and know that like Rebecca said, anxiety can kind of be par for the course during this part of pregnancy. I guess I need to keep amping up self-care measures.
How is everyone else? What are you doing to help your anxiety?