Hello, this is the first time I have ever posted anywhere in my life. I really don't have anywhere to turn or ask for advice. Currently My husband and I live about 13 hours away from all our family and friends. We have 5 girls who are 7, 6, 5, 16 months, and 3 months. We had to move away about 5 years ago for a job for my husband. We have been married for 10 years. Ever since we came here I have worked occationally part time. Right now I am not working at all. My husband doesn't really want me to work even though we need the money. Ever since we moved here we have only had one vehicle. Our families never come to visit and we can't make the 13 hour trip often due to money and time off work. I have no friends here. I don't know anyone. I have to stay in the house all day and never leave except for on the weekends. Right now we are homeschooling our three oldest, but they could go to school if I insisted. Some days I think I am going to lose control. I really want to work. My husband says it would be ok if I can make a certian amount but he makes me feel extrememly guilty for wanting to work. I told him we could work different shifts or midnights so someone is always here with the kids. Maybie just need a nanny a few hours a week. My husband and I havent went out alone for 5 years. He is complelely ok with this. I cant stand the fact that we have no relationship besides the children. I think we can have both. He doesnt understand why I am not completely happy never leaving my house. I guess I am just reaching out for some much needed advice. Please if anyone can tell me their thoughts I would be so greatful!!