I feel so silly admitting this, it's my 3rd time around. I'm starting to feel a little fearful of the coming labor.
This will be my 3rd home birth. I know I can do it. I've had a big ol' 10 pounder and a nice sized 8 1/2 pounder. I'm not worried about tearing, or complications (well, other than apposition slowing things down and making it hurt!)
I'm just scared of those active labor contractions!
With my first, I survived 3 days of back labor, ending with a huge high and a feeling of wanting to have another right away. I went into my second with a very gung ho attitude and it was a very straight forward labor. I do remember having a feeling of, "ugh, I don't want to do that again anytime soon" right after.
This time around I just don't feel up to it. I'm exhausted. I've been uncomfortable the whole pregnancy. The thought of being strong enough to handle those contractions just makes me want to crumple up and cry.
Anybody else want to share and explore our feelings and help each other gear up for the big day?