Knocked for a crazy loop this morning when I opened my email. I got an email from the July 2011 Baby Center Due Date club saying that my baby is 6 months 4 weeks old. I was pregnant back in November of 2010 and I remember that we were so happy because my due date fell on my husband's birthday, July 25. I lost the baby at seven weeks and this may sound strange but I bounced back really quickly and pretty much got over it. I knew that mc is relatively common. It happens. We just focused on getting pregnant again.
I was pregnant again in May and THAT was the pregnancy I put all my hopes on. I immediately went to a high-risk OB for beta blood draws and scheduled an ultrasound for six weeks. Unfortunately, My betas ended up being 100, 150, and 75 and I knew it was over. I was blind with grief for four straight weeks until I got pregnant again immediately during the next cycle. Now I'm carrying a baby girl and I'm 31 weeks pregnant!
I've been so focused on this new pregnancy and so happy with every milestone (heartbeat, movement, anatomy can, viability at 24 weeks, etc.) that I haven't given a lot of thought to my miscarriages. In fact, my niece just gave birth to a baby on what would have been my due date with the second miscarriage (yesterday) and I was thrilled. I never once thought about my miscarriages the whole day. Instead I was thinking ahead to this baby and excited about meeting her.
Then the email this morning. My baby would have been 6 months and 4 weeks old. Holy cow. I can't believe this has hit me so hard this time around. I know it was just a trigger and I'll be fine, but it was so unexpected.
ETA: The strange thing is I haven't gotten any other emails from then before. I forgot that I had even signed up for that due date club.