thanks desert :) . i really appreciate the support. i went ahead and shot myself up this evening.
carmen-- you asked how many times we've tried so far... well, DP did a tally the other day, and apparently, it's a total of seven "real" times. when we first started, we were on the same cycle, so we were splitting the sperm in half. stupid beginners' mistake... we decided that those tries don't count. we also both had several cycles where we inseminated way too early or late just because of our KD's availability. since talking to the belgian doctors, i've found out that i probably need to do IUIs instead of ICIs. i had cervical surgery a few years ago that has made my CM mostly vanish, so all those at-home insems were probably for nothing. i've only had 2 IUIs thusfar, so i'm still holding out hope.... if you decide to try the clomid, be prepared for your ovulation to change. mine was between 2 and 4 days later than normal. i also had issues with my lining, and some women have CM problems, so you definitely want to watch those two things. clomid also causes nasty emotional side effects for some women. it made me almost suicidal, and it made my DP weep for several days in a row. i personally hate the drug, but i know a lot of women have had success with it. whatever you decide to do, i hope it leads to your sticky bean.
pokey -- DP and i were actually on the same cycle for a long time, but since i started taking the fertility drugs, we've gotten further and further apart. where are you right now in the ttc game? have you restarted yet?
amt (miss sassypants) -- i meant to write earlier and say how sorry i was about the BFN. we've been trying for about the same amount of time, and each time AF shows up, it just feels like a punch in the gut. like you said, though, we have to stay positive. before you know it, you'll be holding your next LO (in the stall of the ladies room at walmart 
). how are you doing, btw, and what day are you at?
angela -- are you still getting BFNs on those pee-sticks? have you decided what you're going to do next cycle? if you do chose to take the clomid, i'd recommend getting a follicle scan (also to check your lining) and possibly using a trigger. keep us updated!
hopeful -- i saw on your FF that AF showed up this weekend (evil bitch 
got me the same day...) i'm sorry that it didn't work out for you this month, but i am happy to hear that you've got an appointment with an RE tomorrow. i've got my fingers crossed for you that it goes well and that you get good news and a plan of action. let us know how it goes and what the doc says. *hugs*
rs11 -- how are the hormones treating you now? still grumping out on them? DP is on day five of hers and she's not very fun to be around. she's also exhausted and has sore boobs. are you having any other symptoms? what dpo are you now and when are you planning on testing? here's hoping that all those juicy follicles and super swimmers lead to a BFP at the end of this torture.
allison -- the suspense is killing me...what's going on with your DP now? she should be around 13dpo right now, no? i hope that backsliding quicksilver planet isn't frakking things up for you too much. maybe you'll get that BFP soon so that you don't have to worry about zipcars or late night insems anymore. hang in there...i just know it going to work out for you two soon.
mrs² -- have you had your follicle scan already? are you going to trigger? inquiring minds want to know!
outdoorsy -- hey woman, thanks for stopping in and leaving those kind words. yeah, things are rough here at times, but we're both still hanging in there. what about you? are you doing to be joining us again soon? i sure hope so...
invitn -- how are you holding up? i imagine the next two weeks aren't going to be very fun for you, and i hope it isn't too painful to come here and read everyone else talking about moving forward after you've had such a shitty time of it. thanks for sticking around and keeping the thread despite it all. have you come to any decisions about what to do for a donor? also, can you move me to waiting to O? thinking of you and sending lots of 
for finding the perfect donor.
gelly -- all digits tightly crossed for you on thursday! how many are you planning to transfer?
june -- it's way too early to start getting defeatist about this cycle. when did you get your BFPs with your past transfers? are you having any symptoms? courage! (as they say here) it's not over till it's over.
and, oh yeah, lisedea where are you hiding out these days? i FF stalked you a bit ago and am 
for you this month.
afm ... well, AF was hard to take this time around. i allowed myself a short, tear-filled pity party on friday, and then i decided to celebrate my freedom from injected/injested/inserted hormones of all kinds by popping open one of the bottles of red wine that we brought back from tuscany last summer. it's the first time in ages that i've been able to drink alcohol, and damn if it didn't make me feel better. those italians sure know how to ferment a grape. i'm at cd3 now, and i started my next round of injections just a couple of hours ago. if i can find a place that's open, i'll have an u/s on saturday, and hopefully, i'll be able to trigger and head back to belgium next monday. DP is at 5dpo and is not enjoying her latest round of spooge pills. i really hope something works out for us soon.... we started this whole ttc journey almost two years ago with a search for a gyn who would take on two lesbian patients. after that, we spent over 8 months trying to find a donor, and it wasn't until december last year that we finally got accepted by the hospital in belgium. i know that we've really only been in the game for about 7 or 8 inseminations, but i'm starting to worry that it will never happen for us. i guess if we're still in the same place when summer rolls around, we'll start looking at IVF...which would mean even more trips to belgium. *sigh* on a happier note, i am going to try out a yoga class this week, and i am also going to start up acupuncture again, i think. *and* i got my first ever kick scooter today and used it to get to and from my u/s appointment. my legs and bum are going to be soooore tomorrow... and, oh yeah, my parents (father and stepmom) are coming to visit me for the first time since i moved to paris. i haven't seen them in over two and a half years.....
here's wishing everyone a great week and lots of positive vibes 
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