Thank GOODNESS this baby is coming in the summer time, that's all I have to say about that! My kids can't wait to run lose in the woods and I can't wait to sit on the porch and nurse my baby girl while they do it! If I were expecting this baby in the winter time, as cooped up as these kids have been this winter, man...I might just faint or run away!
My temper has been RIDICULOUS. My kids are getting away with absolute hellion behavior right now (not like, in a BAD way...just like, in an "ignoring the rules" was...making messes, unrestricted access to things I usually try to have specific places/times for like paint and playdough and getting it *everywhere*) because my temper is SO bad, that right now it's either "let them run wild and just laugh it off" or "go completely apeshit on a couple of toddlers if I try to corral them at all". I would much rather let them be wild and have fun. When I try to "mama" them with timeout, or telling them "no paint right now" and stuff like that, I can't seem to handle the smallest bit of resistance from them. So I'm just letting everything go and letting them be wild. They are having a blast! Snacking non-stop, blowing their noses on their shirts, puttin the legos in the block bins and the blocks in the wooden food bins, etc etc. I'm just not saying "no", I'm not correcting them, I'm not pushing them to change their clothes or put on "proper" outfits to go places....because I can't seem to handle the stress of "making them" do anything they don't want to.
They can tell that I'm so tired and we've been so sick, they are being REALLY sweet to me. They will come up to me every once in a while and stroke my face, ask me if I need anything...they've been snuggling me a lot, etc. They can tell I'm worn out. I can tell they are, too, from being sick and cooped up, etc....so we're just all being a little easier on each other and the rules are very lax right now.
I've been getting so upset at like, sales people, my husband, etc...that I can *feel* my blood pressure hit the roof and I get woozy and have visual disturbances, etc. I just have a super hair trigger right now. I take EVERYTHING personally, I get in these moods where it feels like the whole world is against me, etc.
So, what am I doing to try and stay relaxed, besides throwing out the rule book and just letting everyone do what they want? Well, I'm drinking lots of tea. Looooottssss of tea. My MW makes an outstanding pregnancy tea...I have my own herbal blend I like to make during pregnancy...I'm drinking lots of tea. Tea is the reason I'm okay right now. Just the ritual of it, the warmth...and the sitting down to drink it.
I cannot even tell anyone how stressful this pregnancy has been compared to my last two without getting teary. It is so different being pregnant with a 3 year old and a 2 year old than it was with no kids or even one kiddo. This is some hard business right here!
Huge hugs going out to all mamas doing it with a toddler or two on their hip...it's really different and really hard. I'm happy my kids will be so close in age, I've LOVED having my DD and DS only 17 months apart, but the pregnancy part is very wearing on the body and mind.