We've been having problems with an apparently flockless rooster that keeps coming onto our property and fighting with our roo. It's been going on for about a week, and I had kept my birds penned up in hopes that the other rooster would lose interest and go back to wherever he came from. No such luck. Today I had let my birds out to range, planning on keeping an eye on them while I was home, then shutting them back up when I went to work. The other rooster showed up and started a pretty bloody fight with my roo. I tried to lure my birds back into the coop, and I had gotten them all in but one, so I couldn't shut the door (that particular bird is very flighty and won't let me near her). The other birds came back out in the meantime, so I shooed off the other rooster again. Within 2 minutes, he was back and wanting to fight.
I needed to leave for work and didn't want my rooster to get killed while I was gone. So I shot the other rooster.
I don't want to get into a debate over whether I was right to shoot the rooster or not. I cleaned him, and we will eat him, so it's not a waste. I don't know who he belongs to, and the people I thought might have owned him have moved. I feel justified in defending my birds on my property. If I find out who owns the rooster, I will happily compensate them if they wish.
But this was the first thing I have ever killed, and I feel strange. I've never tended towards daintiness or being particularly feminine; I've been a "tomboy" my entire life and now work in a very male-dominated career. But I now feel decidedly UN-feminine. DH is totally okay with it and says I'm sexy in a Laura Ingalls kind of way (LOL). My mother was rather shocked and dismayed, though if I'd told her that DH had done the same thing, she'd likely just brush it off. I hate knowing that if I mention this to anyone outside of my two or three close friends, including the rest of my family, they will think I'm a freak.
I don't know where I'm going with this. I just feel very odd and needed to vent somewhere. Maybe someone here understands...