It's been so long since I posted. I was posting in the surviving abuse forum. But it's been so long that I forgot my username info. SOme of you who've been here like two years might remember me.
Well it appears I have a lot of work to do on myself.
My life has been one bumpy ride. But I'm trying to get back to being me again.
I have survived husband number 1 and husband number 2.
Tomorrow I'm going back to work for the first time after my husband's suicide. It's been about six weeks. I'm still pretty raw. I miss him terribly.
I don't think I'm ready to go back but I've taken about as much time as I can, gotta start somewhere right. I hope that one day I'll feel like I'm enjoying my life again and living up to my potential. Right now I feel in ANGUISH. I finally thought of the word for it last night.
Everyone keeps telling me it'll get better, and I know from previous losses that it will but it takes a LOOONG time, much more than I feel I have the patience for.