She just won't sleep.
She won't let me put her down, no matter how deep she's sleeping when I try, she wakes right up. Nap time, bed time... doesn't matter. I'd love to just keep her on me all the time, but I'm the only income our family has, and I need to be able to work. Luckily my employer is very accommodating and lets me work from home 2 days a week, and bring her with me into the office 3 days a week, but I think that is just adding to her lack of a schedule at this point. If I nurse her to sleep in my arms, I better not move or she'll wake up. If I nurse her to sleep in the bed, I have to stay with her the whole time or she wakes up. Nursing her in bed isn't even feasible on the days I go into the office, so I don't really want her to learn that as her nap routine. At night I end up going to bed at 8pm because she won't let me leave, so lately my life has consisted of the 2 hours I get to spend with my family after work and before I put the girls to bed. Lets just say it's really starting to get to me. I have to work with her all day, usually fussy and tired because she won't nap, and then go to bed with her early because she won't let me leave.
My first daughter would nap like a champ. 2-3 hours 2x a day. We had a schedule that we just knew when we had to be home for her to nap, but with this one I can't get any consistency. She'll call the 5 minutes she slept her nap and won't go back down, but will still be tired and cranky. She might do it a couple times in the day, but not with any consistency (other than that it's short). I'd love to leave her with DH, who's supposed to be the stay-at-home parent, but she only wants me. She wants me to hold her at all times. She doesn't want to drink from a bottle (and pumping isn't very successful for me anyways, so I don't have anything to leave with them to try with).
I don't know if I'm looking for sympathy or help, but I need something or I think I really am going to go crazy.