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Spring IVF Thread: Bring on the BFPs! - Page 16post #302 of 5474/19/12 at 11:10am
I have to go and get my book. I have to see through someone else's eyes the full journey.
This will pass. I know, I have my good days and weeks. This happened to be a bad week, that is dragging on. I was thinking last night that since I am an introvert at heart. That I have some extra time to do things right now. What I really wanted to come out of this is for other women to be helped through me in some way. It is so common and I think that women are trying later on now more than ever, because of our careers. So, I was thinking even if no one gets to read this but me. I would like to start putting together a book about my journey, with all that I know now and from where I started.
I don't think it could hurt and if anything it would at least let me know everyday, whether I have to adopt or finally have my healthy baby. That I could appreciate everything that goes along with that.
It is also important to me to let my child know that I planned to have them. That it defiantly was not an accident. That I even picked out names for them before they were conceived. And bought them their first soothers!
If no one has read this book yet. I will update everyone if it is worth reading. I am sure it is. 'Waiting for Daisy'
Anyways, the sun is out. Looking forward to summer, it is cold were I live in Canada. DH said he is going to buy us bikes, I want a kayak,can't wait to go camping! Can't wait to have some sunlight in my life!
PS I am late the this thread, so I have tried to backtrack and follow everyone and their trials and stories. I hope there are a lot of new pregnancies to come.post #303 of 5474/19/12 at 3:32pm
RCR: Wow, three appointments in one day! You are a brave women. Sorry about the tedious paperwork, but it will all be worth it in the end. Hopefully all 3 come to the same conclusion, whatever it may be, so that you can make your decision easily without having to wonder.
Blue: Yes!!! I was always hungry when I was on the lupron. It was very annoying! So excited that you have a date for your FET and you infusion date is all set up. Praying for you!post #304 of 5474/19/12 at 3:39pmThread Starter
rcr- these forms are so annoying! and i'm only filling out one set for SIRM, so I can only imagine what you're going through. hand cramps? i've spent the afternoon reading my charts, but there are no notes on our conversations, which i was surprised by. only my initial consultations, etc. is that weird? i think talking to three in one day will be amazing! all the info will be fresh in your mind, and you'll have such a clear idea of what is going on by the end of the day. hooray for being proactive!
blue- lupron gives you the munchies! that's a side effect i never even thought of. are you feeling okay other than that? what's new?
afm, i am reading my charts and going a little crazy. first of all, their spelling is atrocious. i used to edit books for a large publishing company and i can't help but judge them for writing things so sloppily. i mean, it's your job to document the work you do, correct? and you have to figure that other people are reading these charts? "patient endcourage to continue loosing weight". the entire sentence makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up. but anyways...
there are a few things that are making me feel slightly annoyed. first of all, for my first ivf it lists baby aspirin as a medicine i took. no one ever told me to take baby aspirin. now i can't help but wonder if a simple thing like baby aspirin would have made a difference in my failed cycles. for my iuis, it listed supplemental progesterone as something i was on, but i was never told to use any progesterone! i was always told that they would call me if i needed to take it, and i never got a call. did they just forget? or do they put it on there as a suggestion if needed? seems weird. i also had a very bad reaction to the PIO i had taken my first ivf, and there is no mention of it. nor do they document that i stopped the pio after about 8 or 9 days and switched to endometrin. sloppy. just sloppy.
the final thing that is irking me is that after the two ivf cycles that failed, they told me they believed i had PCOS and that my lh levels were way higher than my fsh levels. but now that i am seeing my numbers, most of the time my lh is lower than my fsh. or about equal to. maybe one or two months it was slightly elevated. so what does that all mean? what were they looking at? my fsh levels started out around 6, but around december and january elevated to 8 and 9... but at my last test they were down to 5.6. i wonder if this is the metformin working? or my no carbs and weight loss? or a little bit of everything?
i suppose this is why they don't let patients see their charts. when i went to pick them up this morning, my main RE was sitting at the computer facing away from me, but i know she could see my reflection in the window. and seriously, my name is very unique, so i am sure she heard the receptionist greet me. this wasn't the dr that called me, but the main dr that runs the practice. she didn't even turn around to say hi, which i thought was rude, but the receptionist gave me my records and whispered that she wasn't going to charge me, which was really sweet. and i guess that closes that chapter of my life. moving forward, SIRM NYC will be my new home away from home!post #305 of 5474/19/12 at 6:15pm
Deborah - I was over on the Infertility One thread and it looked like people over there were having troubles too. This last one looks like it didn't have the period so it worked like rcr said. Looks like it is coming along!!!!
Aura - I LOL'd when i read your comment about spelling. I work in healthcare and my spelling sucks!!! Haha. Maybe it is a healthcare thing. I'm not proud of it b/c it is from my father's genes... that is my excuse. I'm glad you are looking forward and not looking back. Yep, the munchies is the only thing going on here. Doing fine otherwise!
Praying - i'm glad I'm not the only one hungry on the lupron. I have been on it like 5 other times and never been so hungry. Weird!!!!!
Depor - what is going on with your cycle and the testing??? Are you scheduled for an IVF or IUI soon?
rcr - did you get a phone consult in Vegas? I think when i tried to schedule mine months ago it took longer than I had wanted to get it scheduled but hopefully you will get in sooner. Are you sending your records over early too?
post #306 of 5474/19/12 at 6:31pm
blueyezz4-I have one more blood test, and DH has his blood testing to do in the next two days. So, I am getting close and anxious. I will have my insurance in place that may cover the drugs! As far as the rest of the expenses. Well, I guess I have been a little edgy lately because I don't know how far DH is willing to go. Money wise and the time line scares me. So, for May the first I will have had another appointment to discuss our plan with RE and costs. I know how much IUI is going to cost me. I don't know how much the drugs cost alone. I am anxious to hear about the genetics tests. I have a feeling that my hormones are way off!
So, if everything goes as planned I will be starting IUI for my cycle in May! I will have to talk to the RE more about IVF and if we have to go that route. I am afraid of the cost and strain that could put on us. Also afraid that IUI does not work.
As of May 1rst I will also look into if I will be able to do acupuncture.post #307 of 5474/19/12 at 7:01pm
Just stopping by to wish everyone well.
rcr, can't wait to hear how your 3 appointments go next week, that will be a busy day, but full of good information! I totally understand being a little jealous of a genetic tie between your husband and baby. I think I would probably feel the same way, but I also think that you will have a special bond from carrying the baby (and breastfeeding if you intend to do that as well). I am not gentically connected to one of my parents, but I know the person loves me just as much as my siblings, so I am sure once the baby arrives it will slip to the back of your mind.
blue, so excited for this next cycle. So glad you have a date! I am anxiously awaiting your transfer!!! Sending every sticky vibe I have your way!!!
aura, that is pretty sloppy. I am a horrible "speller", but I use spell check or google when I am unsure. I didn't get to see my records when I had them sent to the new clinic, but I did see the "information" on my frosties when I hand transported them. It was barely legible and they would just cross things off of a tiny post it and add the new numbers to the side. For something so important, I didn't find their system adequate. I like your positive attitude about on with your new home!
rcr, had to come back to you after I remembered what you said about your records...I would be a little peeved at those notes. How dare they make comments like that!
Deborah, your writting space looks wonderful. Thank you for sharing the pictures!
Silver, so sorry to hear you are sick again. Your work continues to amaze me! Really?! Asking people to come in sick and spread germs that's crazy, of course I am still hung up on the bathroom break oversight!
Hope, wishing you a peaceful 2ww and a BFP at the end!!!
deport, Welcome. I am sorry you are going through such a rough time.post #308 of 5474/20/12 at 5:00am
Vegan - I did one day of 'relax' and 'light' things. How's it going with you??
aura - I think it's really sweet that they called, even if it was the head and not your normal one. At least she didn't give you a hard time, but it's cool that they were interested in knowing why. I'm laughing at the spelling errors. That's pretty bad for something that's supposed to be professional. It would drive me crazy too. I also am amazed at all the important notes they left out! How did THEY even remember from one cycle to the next?!
praying - Ohhhh there is nothing worse than the throwing up. With my first I dealt with the all day morning sickness but only threw up a handful of times, and it was horrible!!! But it is funny how right after you can go back to eating, feel normal, etc!!
blue - Oh, don't you hate it when that happens?? LOL Yeah for dates! That's not too far off at all! Lupron has always made me more hungry, it's crazy how that works. I still think it's the devil though.
deport - Hang in there. Do what is right for you! Like others I have good days and bad days, so hopefully a good day will be here soon for you. Sounds like things are moving on though - IUI next month! That's exciting!
rcr - Wow, now up to (maybe) 3 new RE appts on the same day! Good for you! Like a pp said, it'll keep it all fresh, it'll help you know the best route to go, PLUS it'll help you pick the best RE fit!! Man did I hate the forms LOL.
Belly - how's it going?
AFM - well yesterday was the transfer. We transferred 2 beautiful embabies, 1 8 cell and 1 9 cell. The transfer was a little late, and the RE told me it's because they were having a tough time picking the best 2 for transfer because so many looked good. *gasp* that's like music to my ears. They went ahead and froze 6 yesterday, and are letting the last 8 go until tomorrow, and will freeze any that are still looking good. I tried to relax the rest of the day yesterday, and my mom came over to help take care of DD as hubs had to work last night. Today I'm back at work. My office said bed rest wasn't necessary. Man I hope this works!! Last night I had to hit up a neighbor (who happens to be a nurse) to give me my PIO shot as hubs wasn't home. Thankfully she was willing. Blood test May 3! I've never been much of a POAS'er, so I don't know if I'll test or not. If so, it will be with hubs buy in, so we'll see. Thanks for thinking of me yesterday everyone!!!post #309 of 5474/20/12 at 3:18pmThread Starterpost #310 of 5474/20/12 at 3:23pm
So, I'm doing alright right now, but yesterday was 4 weeks since we found out the boys hadn't made it, so I was having a very hard time. The good news is that it seems the majority of my bleeding from my delivery is over, so hopefully for once my body will defy the odds and act normal (as in I get a cycle relatively soon). I have my follow-up with the perinatologist on 5/3 and hopefully will have a plan of action. I did decide that something that may be healing for me and would honor the boys' memory was to help out with the local foster care as a foster family helper (i.e., I help foster families with their needs). We aren't currently and, I'm not sure if we ever will be, looking into being a foster family. However, I still thought it would be good to get to know the system. It seemed like as a mom without my babies I'd be able to work well with kids that are without their families.
P.S. Glad everyone likes my studio!post #311 of 5474/21/12 at 6:29pm
hope4light- that sounds great! it sounds like this IVF went really well for you. One 8cell and one 9. Those sound perfect. Hope this works for you.
deborah- so sorry to hear about your boys. So heartbreaking. Can't imagine.
BellyBean- thanks. I am doing fine just some challenges along the way. I am looking forward to my appointments in May. There is only so much I can control. I took a moment to stop and think the other day. What I figured out is I need to stop, breath, and let go! I am sure that is how I will have to be as a mother.
The book that I just finished reading is Excellent! So, definitely recommend reading it. Just to look through someone else's eyes dealing with infertility, loss, IVF, and to what extent a women will go through to get pregnant!
Waiting for Daisy by: Peggy Orentseinpost #312 of 5474/21/12 at 6:58pmpost #313 of 5474/21/12 at 7:15pmpost #314 of 5474/22/12 at 6:19pm
Blue - I did get a phone consult in vegas. It is not with Dr. Sher - it is with the other guy. I forgot his name. It is at 6pm Tuesday night. (the same day as all my other appointments).I was prepared for a long wait to get an appointment, but they said that most evenings next week (now this week) had a few open spots. I guess I caught them in a down time. I emailed them my records this afternoon.I want him to have full information about me when we talk, so hopefully he will look at them beforehand. There are 72 pages.
Aura - I finally filled out my last form tonight. The last one was pretty easy. That is annoying about your records.
Deport - what tests are you doing, exactly? I think all of my blood tests were done with one blood draw.
Belly- thanks. I have been reading about parenting kids through egg donation, and it seems like that is what everybody says - the lack of a genetic link is something that you rarely even think about when the baby is born and you are busy doing normal baby stuff. A lot of people say that they kinda forget about it until they take the child to the doctor and have to explain the family medical history complications.
Hope - sounds like things are going so well for you. I am envious of your embies and frosties!
Deborah - I hope that the foster program is just what you need to keep healing.
Silver - ugh, sorry you are sick again. I guess that is what happens when jerky bosses make people work when they are sick - then everybody gets sick!
AFM - 2 more days until me appointments. One at 8, one at 10, and then one at 6, and then a two hour drive home. We are going there tomorrow night so that we don't have to get up super-early. There is a time change, so it would mean that we would have to leave at like 3 or 4 am.
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