Linnie this is beautiful... and you've made me cry :)
I am having very similar and intense thoughts right now about DH and DS. Most of my emotional energy and weepiness (is this even a word?) is focused on DS, who at 3 1/2 seems to really get that something big is coming our way - and he is very emotional himself. Excited for the baby. Excited to be a big brother (he says "I already am a big brother!")... but also hugging me constantly, and telling me he loves me - he says "mommy I love you to the moon and back and moon and back and moon and back." (from the book, yes)
He is being very intense! And almost always makes me cry. I feel like I miss him. Like I'm clinging to him as a baby. But also I admire him right now so much, and see how big he's grown and how much he suddenly understands and knows. It's amazing.
But it's so hard to imagine what our little family of three will be like when we are four... I literally cannot imagine it.
And then, on the earth mama thing - thought you'd all like this one - Sunday DS looked at me and said "Mommy, it's like you have the big earth in your belly" this blew my mind. :)
I am starting to get a little weepy about loving my DH (I'm not usually like that with him) and really weepy about loving my kids. I am also getting SUPER paranoid about something happening to DH or the kids. I become a totaly worry wart at this point and it's crazy. DH and I keep laughing when I start to cry because we say that the "yellies" follow the "weepies". I should be yelling and angry in about another week or two- hahahahaha. Life is great right now and I feel beautiful and giant and like a earth mama. At Mass on Sunday, I had my arms around my kids who were leaning on my belly on either side of me and I felt so deeply grounded by my blessed motherhood with my older babies laying on my in utero baby. If someone had glanced at me, I was probably beaming with pride and joy. It was such a cool moment. I am just trying to take it all in. We have worked very hard- financially, emotionally and spiritually for the last 8 years (out of our 12 years together) and everything is coming together now and we are repeating the rewards and nothing can match the feeling of peace that I have.