Hi! I'm Harper. Mom of 3, pregnant w/ #5 (miscarried in 2005), and in complete and utter SHOCK.
We were taking precautions. We haven't had an issue since AF started back after weaning my youngest. Clockwork cycle, I can tell about 2-3 days before AF that it's coming. This time: not one single symptom AT ALL. So I tested. First was negative, 2nd was a blotch in the positive spot, 3rd was a very faint bfp. I'm 5 weeks.
To say I'm in shock is an understatement. My youngest is 4.5 years old, I just gifted my beloved Ergo to a friend w/ a 2 month old, I passed his convertible car seat on to an acquaintance for one of his grand kids, and I only have an umbrella stroller that I still use for him on long outings.
I actually shut down on Sunday when I realized what was in store. Don't get me wrong ,we are very happy, excited, and looking forward to a new baby, however unplanned it was. The trauma, however, is because I know how sick I typically get in pregnancy and knowing I was looking down the barrel of a gun for the rest of this year did not give me any warm fuzzies in any way.
That gun is hyperemesis gravidarum and I had it BAD during my last pregnancy, but my mw didn't understand it, didn't know what she was dealing with, and so I fired her at 32 wks, going on to self-treat the HG and have an unassisted homebirth. (I don't recommend self treating HG. I spent time in the hospital more than once and threw up blood more than once.)
This time, because I don't want to get as sick as I was, I've opted to see a midwife who works with an OB and birth in a hospital again. I'm actually very ok with it even though my first birth resulted in diagnosed PTSD due to the trauma of it, which led me to homebirth my next 2 kids. I feel like a hospital is where I need to be this time.
I'm waiting for the hg to hit, but hoping it's not as bad as my last go-round. Doubtful, but one can hope, right? :)
Max - age 12 (in 2 more weeks), hospital birth
Rachel - age 10, hb w/ midwives
Miscarriage in 2005 at 12/13 wks
Thomas - age 4.5, UC