I just got my BFP this evening and am still in shock. I have two other children, my son is 8.5 and my daughter is almost 18 months old. Both of my other children were planned and both took a long time to conceive. My son took 9 months to conceive and my daughter took 2.5 years. I am still nursing my little one and had my first period since getting pregnant with her on Feb 7. My husband and I did have one little slip up barely two weeks after my period, but since I have very irregular ovulation and always have (and have always had very long cycles - 35 days at least), we really did not think too much of it. I've had a few instances of feeling queasy if I went too long without eating so I decided to test. It was a VERY obvious positive right away. My poor DH started crying when I told him.
We have had an extremely difficult year and a half and we are stretched incredibly thin. We are honestly not sure how on earth we are going to do this. There is no way we can continue to live in our current home and I don't think I can continue to work full time with two little ones. We are already struggling financially and I have a MUCH higher wage earning potential than my hubby (who is in school full time). Sigh....there is much to be processed and decided.
I honestly don't even know what to do for prenatal care at this point. My daughter was born after a very long 33 hour labor/failed homebirth which ended in a repeat and quite traumatic c-section. Another homebirth is not really an option due to our living situation but I don't want to end up with an automatic c-sec again.
My heart did want another baby but I can't say I feel ready at this point.
I'm not telling family or friends just yet so I just needed a place to get this out....thanks for listening. I do look forward to sharing this experience with you all, and I'm sure I will feel much more positive soon.