I'm hanging around still, still pregnant. I've had my share of fuzziness around my "due date" - as in, originally my midwife thought my due date was Feb 15th (was taking birth control when I conceived and also due to extended breastfeeding had no bleeding to go by), and then via a late-pregnancy ultrasound (a week before the due date!) to rule out poor fetal growth (all was well) the ultrasound tech suggested 3/18 as a more accurate due date. Ladies, that is 4 1/2 weeks later! So, I've been expecting my baby since the last week or so of Jan. I've waited a long time. I'm also having more and more hormone action - that lovely action that makes you feel totally yucky.
I have a midwife appointment later this afternoon, and she has already told me she is willing to sweep the membranes to stir things up. But for some reason I'm not sure about it. Sure, I'm ready to meet baby! That is absolutely on my mind every minute of every day! I have 3 other children (this will be my 3rd vaginal birth, 1st baby a nasty hospital c-sec) and they are also very very ready to have mommy back and not gripping the walls and going hands-and-knees for warm-up contractions that do not produce active labor. I've had 2 legitimate early labor "starts" that have then chilled out. I think that is where my hesitation comes from - thinking that stirring the pot might just give me another day and a half where I feel really ucky but don't actually have the baby.
I'm 41+4 if you use the ultrasound date. My last two kids were born at 41+3 and 41+6. The sweep has a good chance of working, and I know my cervix is favorable. But, do I really believe the ultrasound date either? What if, like all ultrasound guesses, I'm still way off? What if I'm only something like 39 weeks, and with my history of babies being born in the mid-41st week I'd just be rushing a not-ready baby?
I know the sweep will not work if baby is not ready. I also know that for the sweep to be really effective you do one today, one tomorrow, skip a day and then do a third sweep on the 4th day. Lots of sweeps. My fave midwife, who is the "senior" midwife at this birth, lives 3 hrs from here, so it is my secondary midwife, who lives 40 minutes from here, who will be doing today's prenatal. I almost want to call my farther-away midwife and tell her to pack a weekend bag and come until baby is born. Alas, she has other clients to potentially attend and can't just pack up for a week and camp out here.
Even as I sit here I'm having more contractions. Real, good, labor-style contractions (not b/h) but not strong enough for baby, by any stretch. But, then, also, this is the 4th - I hear it's so much less defined at the start of labor. Anyway.
Thanks for letting me think out loud. Thoughts are well appreciated. Appointment in 2 1/2 hrs, so I still have some time to ponder.