Ad astra: Congratulations I am so happy for you and your DP!! Thank you for the update and I would love to see some pics and hear your birth story
Sara: I have also heard the ultrasounds late in pregnancy can be off by as much as a pound so I wouldn't sweat it, you body was made to push little Soren out
Crystal: Everyone has already given you a lot of great advice and as a therapist I don't want to give you too much of my opinion, but I would def take your DP's actions into consideration and as many others have posted I would recommend counseling for the both of you, it sounds as though she has some serious deep seated issues surrounding you and the relationship you have with "your
" son and her ideology/beliefs are quite disturbing, and although I am not there in your relationship a lot of this points to signs of verbal abuse and a controlling relationship. If you ever need someone to talk to feel free to PM and I def agree with the suggestions of keeping items at other people's homes and keeping copies of all important documents in the event things get physically violent and you need to get out quickly. I LOVE the pics of little Cohen he is so adorable and I am so happy you checked in I was just thinking about you the other day!
Isa: I am now totally stalking you and I am on BABYWATCH!! Have you tried the famous "Labour Tea" yet?
Library: I am so happy to hear that you are not in prison for beating up the Mean Girl, but I am equally happy that you are getting out of there soon! I am thankful that you and the family were kept safe during the storms last week!
Junebug:YAY for a heartbeat!!
to anyone that I missed I am not in the right headspace today
AFM: When they say it rains it pours, or that "tragedies come not in single spies but in battalions" they were true. I know that has been a couple of weeks since I posted but I have been having a really hard time with the major change in my birth plan. To refresh everyone's memories I was diagnosed with GD (gestational diabetes), and was risked out of my homebirth by my midwifery practice. My care was turned over to the local teaching hospital where I was informed last week that basically I would have a time frame of going into labor on my own between 36 weeks (which they feel is full term...... WTF?!?!?) and 37 weeks and if I don't I will be having my repeat C-Section scheduled for 28 weeks. Needless to say we have been trying to get the hell out of their care, so we are in the process of interviewing CNMs to try and deliver at a VBAC friendly hospital/birth center here in town. On the subject of my sugars, thanks to the diet I have lost 7 pounds and my sugars are looking amazing yet my Dr is still trying to shove Metformin down my throat To add insult to injury to my already fragile state, we had a growth ultrasound yesterday so that my Dr could make sure I was 30 weeks along, and when we went in for clinic today they informed me that the baby has an enlarged heart! We have already had several growth ultrasounds and an echocardigram 4 weeks ago and everything looked great and now all of sudden we have this issue. For those who don't know my backstory, I had a daughter with a rare congenital heart defect that she passed away from so this has been a major trigger for me today. And just when I thought things couldn't get any worse we got some awful heartbreaking news from my brother in law, I am placing this in a spoiler because it may be trigger provoking and pregnant mamas may not want to read.
Trigger Warning: Stillborn Infant (Click to show)
Today after we got the information about our daughter's heart we were on our way home when my brother in law called my wife and said that he had bad news. When thought it was something small like he had lost his job or in the worse case scenario was that a family member had passed, but we never expected to hear that their baby passed away this afternoon. His girlfriend was 36 weeks pregnant, they had a Dr. appt this afternoon and they could not find the heartbeat. We are not quite sure yet what happened, but what we do know is that she will have to be induced and birth her sleeping son. We are all devastated and I had an emotional breakdown. It is so hard because our babies were only due 7 weeks apart from each other and we had made plans to come to Ohio for Thanksgiving so the babies could meet each other. We had just spoke with them last week and we talked to the baby on the phone and they had talked our daughter and both babies were moving all around. I just can't believe this is happening. I tried to hold it together long enough to give them advice and inspiration because I have been in a similar situation, but I feel so awful for them. I just wish that I could go to sleep and wake up from this nightmare.
After all of the events that have occurred in the past few weeks in addition to my overwhelming anxiety DW and I am have decided that we will not be making any large purchases for our daughter until she arrives. We already have our completed cloth diaper stash and she has lots of newborn clothes, we will be purchasing an arms reach co-sleeper or a pack in play, but we are not going to complete (or should I say start) the nursery. We will purchase the car seat because it is mandatory but it will be stored at a friend's home until the birth.
Edited by SwtRainbowBrite - 4/17/12 at 9:56pm