Oh my, I am kind of tracking my reading, baby cooking and progress on his room and stocking up on baby needs- well here is where I am:
BABY stuff: 60%
Organizing- (painting- getting his room ready etc.) 0% beyond the fact that he HAS a room :(
Luckily- this is kind of a cop-out but I delegated the crafting to my wonderfully crafty mom- I picked out and designed a quilt and several crafted items and she is making them. not the same I know- but I am just trying to keep the dishes done around here :)
Lily- on interventions- I feel 100% the way you do. My OB is very natural birth centered and really had the stance that you only do things when medically nessicary. That is a big part of my hiring a doula- to get that confirmation that it will be the right thing to do. I also needed to hire a doula that would be even keeled and not go to war over a possible intervention because I just want to look at the overall experience and know that I trusted my team and that any interventions were nessicary and that I did the best that I could do with the situation I had- NO trauma.
Caly- sorry you are feeling emotional. I got a bit off yesterday as well. I started thinking about not just getting by regarding time and enjoyment- I fear that the next years will fly by in a haze of going to school, raising baby and husband working hard and that we will just get by- and I will look back exhausted and not remember much or feel like I enjoyed it. I do not want to 'get by.' I want to cherish and savor this time. I want to remember what I love and pass those things on to my baby. I want to remember to laugh a lot, dance and sing in the kitchen and get outdoors and enjoy nature. - I am also a bit wigged out at how much more vulnerable I feel in my relationship now- like I really really lean on husband and want him to love me the same way I love him, and that we are this real unit and family- basically having a baby solidifies the fact that you have combined your DNA to make a human- what a trip. Although this is done everyday a million times this feels profound. I feel scared that we will become mediocre and just get into a boring family pattern and that we will look at each other and forget who we are. UGH sorry to go on and sound depressing. I think I will get a diary and jot these fears down and promise myself to remember.
Anyhow- I think when it comes to emotional distress it is important to get to the root fear we have, why we have that fear and explore it. Think I will work on being mindful this week and outline what I want to remember so in the thick of things I will not loose touch.
I will get my GD results back tomorrow. It was pretty bad- I drank the beverage on ice- not sure if you are supposed to do that- It was not all that bad- then at the 45 min mark I started to feel dizzy, and started sweating. I do not consume much sugar- before I became pregnant I only drank water, coffee, unsweetend tea and wine. Now I drink blueberry/acai juice, cherry juice and orange juice always with half water, and only a half glass. So this amount of sugar was very unusual for me- ugh. I hope that does not mean I am positive I really do not want to do the second test :(
Baby has been moving like crazy- which I love love. We celebrated Fathers day with my step son- grilled steak and gardened. I gave my husband a guitar book with folk and kids songs called 'let's sing together' so we can all sing songs together with the baby. I changed my mind about going to Hawaii- like you CAcountry I have had hip pain, also sleep issues and other things- so I do not want to spend all of the money and time to go somewhere to fell crappy. I went to see Snow White and was so restless in the seat, I had to change positions every 10 min. There is no way I could do a 5 hour flight. Also- Kauai is a small island and I am not sure they have all of the technology I may need if I ant into preterm labor. So I think we will plan a nice weekend in one of the beautiful Nor Cal towns around here and take the baby with us to Hawaii in March of 2013. I feel bad cause my dh has travel bug pretty bad but I just can't keep up.
Hope you all are doing great- can't believe we will have 2 babies here soon