I have been diagnosed with bipolar, I have been suffering horribly for over a year now. Before then I was able to manage my depression and mania, but then things got worse when there was a big emotional whorwind in my life - it was chaos, and something in my brain snapped.
In the last year I have been on 13 different medications, hospitalized twice, and tried four different forms of therapy (EFT, Psychotherapy, Psychiatry, DBT).
My current med combo isnt working either. My psychiatrist wants me back for another med change.
I'm so done with this. Im so overwhelmed. I am a burden on my family and I hate living like this. I hate being miserable, or hiding in my bed. I hate fearing how bad things will get or trying to fight how bad they feel. I am tired of staring at my computer screen at work because I lack the motivation to do anything but. I am tired of it all.
Nothing is working.
What if nothing ever works.