It's so hard to stay caught up...sorry!
DH/SO: Mine has been pretty great up until tonight, had a bit of an argument b/c I just wanted to sit in the recliner, and he was cleaning the kitchen by himself after dinner. He said it was fine if I was in the recliner b/c I'm tired/pregnant/whatever, just that I should have told him that and not just gone to sit down and leave him w/ all the work without explaining why.
Prodromal/BHx: All the time! What defines the difference between prodromal labor and BHx? I had a couple of really good ones the other night that woke me up and kept me awake for about an hour. They were probably 30secs long and about 5-10 mins apart. I just told myself, "go back to sleep, if it's really time, you'll know." And it wasn't, lol.
Fears/Anxieties: Yes, THAT! I find that reading certain birth stories about how things didn't go well or as planned really disturb me and put fear into me. I don't have any OB backup, have been doing lay-MW only for this one, and am terrified of having to transfer to the hospital b/c I know I will be treated poorly and will end up w/ any and every bad thing possible they could do to me and the baby to punish up for daring to home birth in the first place. I was previously worried about crowning, for some reason that was scaring me. Now I'm over that and worried the baby is in a bad position...(was afraid of breech, but not worried about that anymore). It feels like the baby is SIDEWAYS sometimes. I became afraid of this after I read about that in one of my birth books, can't remember if it was Dr. Sears or Dr. Bradley. There was a drawing of a baby in the pelvis sideways and explanation of how they can't be turned and have to be a c-section. Told my MW about it, she suggested pelvic tilts to help position the baby if it feels that way. I'm going to see her on Monday, will have her palpate and tell me what she thinks. It doesn't always feel sideways, most of the time, it is head-down, but there are definite times when it feels sideways. But if it still has room to turn head down, then we should be ok...as long as it picks that position and stays that way!!!