The BSL Graduate/Stalking Thread Spring/Summer 2012 - Page 11

[littlest birds]

    I still check this thread now and then and I love seeing all of your little ones growing up. 

We had started trying (again) in 2009 after a VR which was successful but we never succeeded in getting PG and now it is 3.5 years later.  We are no longer actively trying but I do cross my fingers every month anyway.  Since we already had 4 children we accepted not being blessed again instead of pursuing more aggressive help after making the choice to get a VR.  It was such a long long haul and so emotional. I loved all of the support and optimism and cranky-lady-talk on the BSL threads and I still hope for the elusive BFP for dear ones like Enigo and Milkshake... Unless I missed it and they already did !! LOL  \

Colorbywords I hope your miracle BFP stayed sticky!

[Kyamo]

Wow, so nice to see so many updates, and especially so many surprise babies!

N is 11 months old now, starting to sleep through the night sometimes, and so close to walking. I also just had my first real AF since he was born. We are not really actively TTC but I would love it if I ended up with a surprise too!

[colorbywords]

Thanks everyone! It's so great to see people checking in again

This one has been sticky! I am 16 weeks tomorrow but we won't find out what we are having until the end of the month.

[jenger]

Hi BSL!

I was a BSL a few years ago, moved onto infertility treatments, gave up, worked on moving on and 'accidentally' got pregnant - 5 weeks today.  I'm still nervous, I have to protect my heart...

I recognize more names here than the Infertility ONE graduates, so I thought I's say hi! Hello!  I am generally more of a "stalker" than a poster, so you may not remember me.  I remember a number of you!

I am thrilled that today I can post in the graduates thread, after 3 1/2 years of TTC!

[lisko15]

where is lisko?

Wow! I couldn't believe all the posts from all of you that were in hiding for so long! Congrats to everyone expecting new babies (that I haven't already congratulated...), or you know what, coming from BSL, you all deserve 2nd congratulations anyway!

Not much is new here, and I don't have much time to post (DH has baby-DS outside in the BIG snow and I need to start dinner)...

We are not planning anymore, and though an oops wouldn't be completely unwelcome (however shocking), I'm back on BCP because with our assorted group of "3" we are done. I still need to work at home, DD really struggles in school, and baby-DS thinks that he is the ONLY baby this family needs!

Here is a pic (from yesterday, complete with cupcake batter face)... and I'll try to stop back again sometime soon!

[littlest birds]

Jenger, I am so excited for you!  I remember you from a couple of TTC threads.

(Especially since I also started trying 3.5 years ago, sort of gave up, and still cross my fingers every month anyway. You give me silly hope.)

[jessica_s]

Congratulations!! That's very exciting. I will send plenty of sticky baby thoughts your way! 

Originally Posted by jenger 

Hi BSL!

I was a BSL a few years ago, moved onto infertility treatments, gave up, worked on moving on and 'accidentally' got pregnant - 5 weeks today.  I'm still nervous, I have to protect my heart...

I recognize more names here than the Infertility ONE graduates, so I thought I's say hi! Hello!  I am generally more of a "stalker" than a poster, so you may not remember me.  I remember a number of you!

I am thrilled that today I can post in the graduates thread, after 3 1/2 years of TTC!

[jenger]

Originally Posted by littlest birds 

Jenger, I am so excited for you!  I remember you from a couple of TTC threads.

(Especially since I also started trying 3.5 years ago, sort of gave up, and still cross my fingers every month anyway. You give me silly hope.)

Thanks littlest birds!  I remember you too, mostly 'cause I remember leaving the boards singing your song (Be Good Tanyas!) 

Thanks jessica_s!  I really appreciate the sticky vibes, I want 'em.  It would be so hard to loose this, after 3.5 years... 

I'm feeling symptomatic today, and had my darkest hpt line yet today - good signs!  I will get an early ultrasound next week or so, if my husband can cope with the potential risks.

[sunwillshine]

Originally Posted by jenger 

Hi BSL!

I was a BSL a few years ago, moved onto infertility treatments, gave up, worked on moving on and 'accidentally' got pregnant - 5 weeks today.  I'm still nervous, I have to protect my heart...

I recognize more names here than the Infertility ONE graduates, so I thought I's say hi! Hello!  I am generally more of a "stalker" than a poster, so you may not remember me.  I remember a number of you!

I am thrilled that today I can post in the graduates thread, after 3 1/2 years of TTC!

Hi jenger!

Not to be too confusing, but I just changed my MDC username from L Y N D Z I E S because I was getting a little eeked out about how public and searchable these forums are. :-P

Of course I remember you, and sending so many sticky vibes your way. Amazing news!!!

[jenger]

L y n d z !!! Excited to hear from you!  Thanks for the sticky vibes! I will take all I can get.  I am looking forward to not being so on-guard, so that I can relax and enjoy this! I'm all nervous now...

Originally Posted by sunwillshine 

Hi jenger!

Not to be too confusing, but I just changed my MDC username from L Y N D Z I E S because I was getting a little eeked out about how public and searchable these forums are. :-P

Of course I remember you, and sending so many sticky vibes your way. Amazing news!!!

[colorbywords]

Originally Posted by littlest birds 

Colorbywords I hope your miracle BFP stayed sticky!

I thought I had replied already but I don't see it!

We are 17 weeks today!!!! This bean is kicking up a storm to keep me sane :) We go in 2 weeks to find out the gender/healthiness! It's been kinda a blur of denial and ohmygoshwe'rehavinganotherbaby around here ;)

It's so nice to see everyone's updates!

Darn I was going to upload a picture but it says I don't have permission??

[colorbywords]

... and I just saw my last post! HA! Sorry for the duplicate posts :)

[LessTraveledBy]

Hi everyone,

Our bouncing (!!) baby boy is almost 8 months old and the total opposite of dd in many ways. TBH, I still feel a bit I might wake up and find out it was all too good to be true. The easy pregnancy, even though I was so much older this time around, the awesome birth, the baby that is a great sleeper compared to our first... everything.

It was nice to hear about all of you. And that amount of new babies to come... wow! (Congrats, Lavatea and everyone else!!!)

I will try to write more some time. It seems as if many of you have moved to the new situation more smoothly than I have. Or, really, away from what used to be. I feel like there is still a a lot going on under the surface for me and don't really want to think of any of it. It feels like it is still such a big part of me, always will be. It just feels like I lived with the cloud of sadness for too many years and as if I have only managed to escape it for now. TBH, I am glad that ds is still so young that I am not ready to TTC any time soon, although  we would still like more children.

I was a younger than average mom when our first was born. I have "only" two kids and will turn 36 soon. The time from "young to old" went so very fast, having had so many years of infertility... Am I the only one here that will forever grieve for the family that will not be?

[LZP]

Lisko! Thanks for posting! So glad to hear from you, and wow- what does it feel like to say you're done?! (or at least in theory)  DS is adorable!

LessTraveledBy- I totally still think of the 5 children I dreamed of having, and know it's very unlikely. I try very hard to be optimistic and be happy with what we have- but it doesnt always work, especially when I'm getting AF AGAIN after I was sure our timing was right. I totally understand what you mean, and I think it's what I've been trying to put into words, that you articulated so well! You're not the only one!

CBW- fantastic news! Good job little miracle baby! So excited for you :)

sunwillshine- nice name change- good idea, I even feel like I want to go and delete all my old posts with pertinent personal information and names...  have you talked to donor boy at all yet, or are you and DW still waiting? This age is so much fun, it's hard to decide between enjoying it all alone, or being preggo and slowing down while runninng after a toddler!

jenger- I remember you too! CONGRATULATIONS!! fantastic news! stick stick stick

littlestbirds - dont give up hope, and it's NOT silly! its what some of us just feel we're 'wired' to do- be mothers - and it just doesnt come as easily. Hope is what keeps us going- esp seeing friends experiencing miracles like this last rush of surprises!

afm, another AF come and gone last week. I was totally thinking this "could be" the cycle, our timing was spot on, and i had some symptoms, but then af came (and honestly, the symptoms are about the same anyway, so who am i kidding?!). i didnt even bother testing, becuase AF was even a bit early by my crazy cycle. we're working on gentle weaning, and it's not going great. but we're also still working on the potty learning. One big thing at a time seems like a better way to go. But I do fear that BFing is keeping my hormones suppressed enough to prevent pregnancy. I feel selfish wanting to wean her so we can have another child. Especially if it doesnt even help. And she loves it so much, i cry thinking about her being sad to stop. I dont want to make her sad either.  This motherhood thing is wonderful, but my goodness- the conflicted feelings!! I feel like an emotional basket case these last few weeks. Still making efforts to be more optimistic, trying to mostly forget that we want another baby and should be "trying" a little more than we are, and SO wanting to be happy with what we have. be happy with what we have. be happy with what we have <repeat>

[kparker]

Valentine's Day. Three months old! I can't believe I have a three month old!

[jenger]

Originally Posted by LZP 

jenger- I remember you too! CONGRATULATIONS!! fantastic news! stick stick stick

Hi LZP! And I remember you!

I just came from the radiology department, with pictures and a fetal heartbeat of 104!!!  This makes me feel so much better.  Seriously, so much better... I get to let go and imagine what this could be like.

[CA Country Girl]

Hello BSL ladies.

I do not recognize very many names, but I always feel a kinship with ladies on this forum.  I am more happy to hear about pregnancies here than nearly anywhere else.  DD#2 is 7.5 months and SOO busy.  She is crawling like a maniac, and already standing up and cruising.  I was not ready for her to be this mobile and am trying to keep up.  She wants to grow up so fast to keep up with her big sister (who is 7 years old now!).  I turned 37 in December, so like LTB says, not sure another is in the cards for us.  But we had a few oops here, so who knows. She is a wonderful little girl, so I count my blessings.  She is a peanut like my first- just 15 pounds at her 6 month appointment.  I think maybe her size helps her mobility, but after two petite girls, I wonder if my breast milk is kind of low fat.  It is a beautiful life seeing the love my girls already have for each other.  This is why I wanted a second so bad.  Love to you all.

[colorbywords]

LZP, I'm so sorry you're having a hard time. I definitely had to (mostly) wean in order for my luteal phase to be long enough and for my body to sustain a pregnancy. We still nurse first thing in the morning (and its excruciating) because that is the hardest for me to give up. I'm just not ready to get up at 6am! Good luck!

[rcr]

Originally Posted by jenger 

Hi LZP! And I remember you!

I just came from the radiology department, with pictures and a fetal heartbeat of 104!!!  This makes me feel so much better.  Seriously, so much better... I get to let go and imagine what this could be like.

Jenger! Nice to see you. I haven't been here is so long, it is nice to come back and see happy news from you! Congrats!

[jenger]

Originally Posted by rcr 

Jenger! Nice to see you. I haven't been here is so long, it is nice to come back and see happy news from you! Congrats!

rcr!!!! So happy to hear from you! For a while - when MDC had become too much for me (which it was until this one-in-a-million chance happening...) I would come by just to check on you!  So, I stalked you a little bit... I wish you had your baby already...

Hi everyone else!

I am a few days over 7 weeks and finally feeling a bit sick.  Hallelujah!  I would happily throw up every day if it meant this embryo will stick... (PLease little embryo, stick!)