Maybe this should go in the more general BF forum. Mods, move if you think it should.
I am a bfing mama to a 10 month old. I BF in public and I really don't give a **** what people think about that. I'll whip it out anywhere, because honestly, I think seeing a flash of my breast is a lot better than listening to my son's hunger screams.
That said, I have this weird mental block at work. I pump, and one of our conference rooms (the only one with a lock that isn't in the client-access area) is reserved at certain times of the day for me. However, it's pretty frequent that I don't get to pump because a meeting before my time runs over, and I'm out in the cold. I've complained to HR about this, and they've tried reserving the room for 15 minutes before my pump times, but it doesn't really help.
Our company is about 80% male, and even though I consider myself a tough feminist, I admit it. I'm intimidated. I don't want to knock on the door of these meetings and interrupt them. I'm too shy to do it. I'm afraid they'll get angry, especially if they're on a client call or something. So what do I do? I sit outside the room, sometimes I get in, sometimes I don't, and when I don't, I have to try to find another place to pump my milk or just suck it up.
Today I lost it and just started crying. I spent an hour trying to find an open room somewhere. I ended up in a customer conference room, for just 15 minutes, with my back against the door (no lock) pumping as fast as possible, all the while nervous I would get interrupted or something.
No one here has told me pumping is bad or gross or anything. But it's just, I feel like I'm swimming in testosterone here and it's got me all discombobulated. I find myself acting timid about this when I am not usually a timid person.
I need some courage and encouragement. Pumping at work is protected by law, and I have a right to a private, clean space at appropriate times. Why can't I get as sassy about this right as I do about BFing in public? Help me, mamas. Tell me I can interrupt these stupid meetings...