kids are 10, 6 and 4. Always unschooled except for preschool for oldest. Oldest does nothing, absolutely nothing. I've been indoctrinated to believe that curriculum=bad and, from the GD forum, kids are naturally social creatures who want to do the right thing, or something crazy like that.
All I do is clean, cook, ask kids to pick up all the messes they have made, clean up all the messes all the kids have made, make more food since the kids won't eat what I made the first time, then repeat.
I pretty much hate my life, myself and my kids. I'm pretty sure my kids will not amount to anything, but I didn't sign up to be a heavy and force them to do things against their will, have been made to feel that I am bad if I do that, and they certainly do not choose to help in any way around the house, do any of the things that I ask them to do, or learn anything.
After much discussion with my oldest, I asked her about some areas she'd be interested in and gave some examples of some ways she could measure her progress/time spent. She chose these:
Multiplication tables (I pushed this)
History by reading American Girl books
Spanish - computer program
Short story writing
I went to the library, under duress of course with 4 and 6 year old, got books and videos on classifications, and a book on short stories. I found online Spanish programs (was going to order Rosetta Stone if she continued with these). Already has an Usborne Chemistry book, and an unread set of American Girl books.
Per what she chose, I made notecards for times per week (ie: 5 notecards that each said Mulitplication 12 minutes, 2 notecards that each said Chemistry 30 minutes). I made a page with pockets for M-F that the notecards could fit in and told her she could divide the cards into the days, move them around as needed, do them when she wanted to do them. this is what she agreed she wanted to do.
I would sit with her and do the multiplication tables every day M-F, setting a timer for 12 minutes. We read one classification book, with each of us taking turns reading every other page out loud. Same with the chemistry book, although we never got to one of the experiments. She did spend some time writing a story, reading the books, and doing the Spanish online.
But it lasted less than 2 weeks. It is like pulling teeth to get her to do an of it and I give up.
Tired of feeling like I'm not a RU if I push too much. Tired of feeling like I am doing my kid a disservice because she isn't learning anything. Tired of her being lazy and not doing anything but go from screen to screen to screen to screen (computer, TV, ipad and Ninetendo DS).
Clearly having a bad day here. But any suggestions on how to make some changes so I don't hate my life and want to walk out and leave it all behind (because I feel like that a lot).