Hi.. I just need to know that what I am about to embark on will not cause any emotional scarring to me 17mnth old ds. We have co-slept and night nursed since day 1.. and although we have had our rough nights (many rough nights...) I was somehow still able to pull myself together during the day. But now, i think its catching up with me....I am physically and mentally exhausted.. and I find myself loosing my temper at night especially when he is scratching my or pulling my hair to get me to turn over!
DS, is not really a HN toddler - but he is very demanding of me... so maybe he is borderline. he insists on nursing every 15 mins or so and if he in not nursing then his hand is down my shirt... (I have tired to redirect this behaviour but its not working...) and this in itself is driving me nuts. my back hurts cause he is not little anymore but he insists that I carry him everywhere. but if I put him down then 9/10 times he will cry. my goodness - at this rate i am seriously questioning having another babe :(
I love our nursing relationship (he never took a bottle and still won't drink any kind of milk other than mine...) but its time for me to draw the line on our night nursing fiasco... 12am, 2am, 4am, 5am, 6am.... its a wonder I can even type this.
I have read Dr Jay but I'm thinking cold turkey might be better. "bobo" will go night-night from 9pm (his bead time) to 6am.
Does anyone think that I should wait it out longer? He will no doubt cry and be angry during it - I will comfort him but he will probably resist it... Will this be messing with his emotional development? This is going to sound so bad... but I actually look forward to going to work because its so much easier... is this what having a babe is suppose to be about? Or did I create a HN mamma-demanding munster??