I know this is going to upset a lot of people but I really wish the formula debate was not all black and white. I fully intended to have a natural home-birth with the skin to skin breast crawl and all, but fate was not in my favor. Due to complications I ended up with a C-section and it took forever for my milk to come in while my body fought to survive. Our baby also had to have CPR due to the anesthesia. When we got to work on breastfeeding, our baby had a lot of trouble latching on. When he did latch he would scream and wail because there was no immediate gratification. Every attempt at feeding was a miserable challenge and we always had help. Our lactation consultants and nurses we've been told were some of the best. To teach our son to latch and stay on the breast we used a supplement tube by the nipple with formula. By the time I was able to go home he had graduated to just a shield with a few drops of formula inside to get him started. A few days later he was able to go without the formula. With a little training he was able to go without the shield soon after that. What started out as a painful nightmare for both of us has turned into a wonderful nursing relationship and I am so proud of my baby for figuring it out.
I started out on this journey so anti formula/hospitals and read everything and did everything so I would be an informed advocate for our baby. This experience was so humbling that for a few days I felt like I was being punished for being so judgemental/opinionated. I don't really think it works like that but I am still greatly humbled and wish for others sake's that my fellow crunchy friends would not perpetuate this fear of all things unnatural. Sometimes we momma's need a little help.