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Hey ladies. I used to be really involved in MDC but find that lately, I'm just struggling to find my place here now. Many of the women that I felt so close to during my peak here are on their 3rd babies by now so I don't even bother trying to reconnect. I hope that you will let me find a new home here. 


I'm 24, married to Matt, 26. We just celebrated our 5 year anniversary and have been ttc most of the time. We managed to get pregnant in the summer of 2008 but I miscarried at 12 weeks and we haven't managed to get even a little pregnant since then. We did 6 rounds of Clomid last year and I always responded really well. DH was given the all clear and since everything kept checking out for me too, I decided to have a lap done last month. It was a big financial strain to try and pay for the surgery and we will continue to pay on for many months to come since my insurance wouldn't cover it. While they were in there, they found stage 2 endo. My dr said there was only one little spot on the right but that on the left, endo was covering my ovary, even constricting it and the adhesions had it stuck to the back of my pelvic wall. He burnt off everything he could but then tried to push Lupron. We decided since I wasn't really having any big symptoms that we would try the Clomid for 3 more months, at 150mg this time and then go from there. I  just graduated nursing school a few weeks ago and we are very broke right now as I struggle to get my doula business back off the ground. I've already met my deductible for the year so we are trying to figure out what that means and whether we should take this opportunity to try and transfer to an RE, though infertility isn't covered under this plan at all and the closest RE's are 2-3 hours in either direction. 


Anyway, I hope to get to know you ladies and join in this journey with you. 

post #162 of 168

Welcome Rochelle.  There is a great group of ladies here in the infertility thread.  I hope the rest of this year becomes better for you and hopefully a BFP soon that sticks!


Edit: Sila, I am hoping to ovulate today or tomorrow.  Usually 7 days of EWCM before I O, and I have had about that.  Praying that we get a free BFP.  As my DH said, "At least I know I am shooting live ammo"

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Smiles - This will be the only time I'm happy you got AF ok? I hope the blood work reveals something!


Shesaidboom - Thinking of you! How much longer until wedding time?


Lilac - I chart stalked you and it looks like you were right and you've ovulated! Welcome to the tww.


Rochelle - I recognize you from somewhere here on MDC. I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope things post-lap are more successful for you. Congrats on your nursing graduation. I'm also on Clomid and am a fellow doula. I'm also trying to build business this summer and get some more clients! We could use the $'s. Naturally I checked out your website and "liked" you on FB. It is mind boggling to me that anyone would have to drive 2-3 hours to an RE when I literally could have my pick of 10 within 45min. So crazy. I'm sorry that's the way it is.

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Hi all. I know it's a little early, but I'm going to start the June thread since I'm getting really excited to officially be trying again (though I don't plan on stressing myself out with charting yet- I'll stick with doc's prescription of DTD all month, a whole bunch). I am expecting AF somewhere between June 2 and June 6.

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Rochelle - Welcome, I also recognize you from somewhere on here.  I hope the clomid does the trick for you this time around.


Lilac - Hope you did ovulate!


Sila - Thanks!  I am a bit nervous about what the blood work may reveal but at least then I will know.


AFM So last night I check my email and there is a message from a friend that I had not heard from since Christmas and I knew that she had been trying for #2 for a year or so and I knew that she was emailing to tell me that she was pregnant and I was right and all my "I can handle it" went right out the door.  I am so happy for her, and it wasn't a walk in the park for her but the sadness overwhelmed me and I went to bed and cried.  I realized that it had nothing to do with her, it's really all about me I'm sad not cause she's pregnant but because I am not and it is not fair. 

On another note I was at my exercise class this evening and before it started I got talking to a lady about kids and she told me that she has a 16 yr old and an 8 month old.  She was told after her first that she could never have kids again and 16 years later she did.  I had tears in my eyes when she told me and she probably thinks that I am a nut bar, but it gave me hope.

So my af is here but is pretty light I guess after not having had one for months I figured it would be nasty.  Day 3 blood work tomorrow and my HSG is next Tuesday.

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Dang it. 3 posts again. MDC, ack!

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