I got a call this morning from the supervisor of my sons preschool, were I was working part time this past year, that one of his teachers took her life on Sunday night. I am shocked and saddened and confused. She was a wonderful teacher and I really enjoyed working with her, she always seemed happy but was a pretty private person. No one at the school has any idea of what she must have been going through. She was married and had a 14 year old son. I can not understand why she did this although I do understand she must have been in terrible pain to feel this was her only option We were a small and close group of teachers and I am feeling her loss immensely.
I haven't told my DS yet as I am waiting for the supervisor to tell the parents at the school. I am dreading telling him as he really liked his teacher and the last picture I have in my head of her is her smiling on Friday afternoon and DS saying good bye to her and to have a good weekend.
This is the first person I have lost to suicide, I myself have dealt with mental health issues most of my life and have been close to suicidal when I was a teenager but the thought of the pain I would cause to others always stopped me from following through. It's just so terrible and sad and I needed to talk to someone about it. Thanks for reading.