It seems like since the years have passed, and especially since dh had the vasectomy and the possibility of Accident Baby over, I feel like the memory of my C-section is receding so far away. I feel like the obsession I had, going over all the possible moments of wrong decisions I might have made has finally ceased.
Could it be because I'm not expecting to have another child? No longer any possibility of that perfect homebirth, or even perfect hospital birth. No chances to redo this that I've finally started letting go?
OK, now that I'm actually thinking about this, I still see the feeling are there, lurking. Maybe that's why I don't visit this group page often. Hm, now I think, avoidance?
Whichever, the years have been kind.