I went in for my 10, (almost) 11 week ultrasound last Wednesday and they found nothing. Just an empty sac. Blighted ovum. I chose to have a D&C since my husband is leaving for China on Friday and I didn't want to wait around for things to happen naturally. I have a 6 year old to take care of alone and I just wanted to be on the other side of things before my husband left for his 3 week trip.
We were initially in shock, somewhat, I think. I had the procedure (which was emotionally very hard but physically pretty simple and quick) and came home. The sadness started to really set in the next day and we decided to go away to the coast for the weekend to grieve together and try to make the best of the weekend for our daughter. I've had lots of ups and downs since then - it's been about 6 days since we found out, lots of crying, anger, and anxiety. The hormones are really tough. I gave myself the weekend to drink, cry and grieve in whatever way I had to and then we came back to town to try to move forward. Today I went to the gym, took my daughter to outdoor school and saw a movie with some friends. It felt like a more normal day and I have hope that each day will get easier. I am looking forward to the day when we can start trying to get pregnant again. Right now it's very hard to let go of the pregnant future I had planned for the summer and beyond. Physically I feel okay other than some cramping.
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