So, I've been lurking for the last couple of months, but I think that now at 13 weeks, it's time for me to say hi. And, well, OK, I'm looking for some reassurance...a reality check...something!
In mid-December of last year, I had a missed miscarriage (no symptoms) at 9 weeks (embryo had stopped developing between 7 and 8 weeks...on the early ultrasounds, it had been measuring about a week behind all along). Got pregnant again the second cycle we started trying and here I am at 13 weeks. So far everything is as perfect as can be. I've had three ultrasounds (a ton, I know, but in this case I'm happy for the reassurance), and everything has looked great and I'm measuring right on for my dates. My last scan was a nuchal translucency last Tuesday (at 12 weeks). The little scrapper was moving around, flipping over, using his/her legs to ricochet off the walls of my uterus-- it was really cool. Nuchal translucency was normal, and yesterday I got the combined results of my bloodwork and the nuchal scan which showed that the risk of my baby having any chromosomal abnormalities is very low (reassuring, since I'm 39). So yay... right? At the close of the appointment yesterday, I asked the doctor if he would take a listen with the Doppler. He said he was really hesitant to do so, since 13 weeks is still early and we may not be able to find the heartbeat that way. My husband, who was there too, urged me not to do it, since we had just seen that everything was fine a week ago. But of course, I begged the doc to try, so he did. After poking around for a minute or two, he found what he thought MIGHT be the baby's heartbeat, although it was much slower than it was last week (the doc guessed around 120-ish, when it was 177 at last week's scan). It sounded slower than that to my husband and me, though, and we thought it might just be my heartbeat, and the doctor agreed that it could be. Anyway, we gave up after another minute of poking around. I said I was fine that we may not have found it...and I thought I was...but now those paranoid seeds of doubt have been planted! Argh! To add insult to injury, I've been thinking for the last week that I've been feeling movement in the area of my uterus (this is my second child, so I think I know what fetal movement feels like, though it's been nearly five years since I last felt any)...and the last few days I've not been feeling as much.
When I got home, I took a close look at the details in the nuchal translucency scan writeup and noted that my placenta is apparently in a low anterior position. From my obsessive Google searching, I learned that women with anterior placentas often have trouble picking up the heartbeat with a Doppler.
I guess the point of all this rambling is that intellectually, I know everything must be fine. Then why am I obsessing so much? Oh, I so wish I hadn't pushed for the Doppler yesterday! Before we even talked about the Doppler, my doctor wrote me a prescription for another ultrasound just for my peace of mind over the next few weeks before I see him next. He said I can have it done...or not...up to me. Now I'm leaning toward getting the scan early next week. But seriously, how much reassurance do I need?? I wish I could just let it all go and RELAX.
Has anyone here had any similar experiences...with obsessing over every little detail, not hearing the heartbeat with a Doppler at 13 weeks, anterior placentas....whatever? Am I crazy??
Thank you for "listening," ladies!