Who is coming to you? My twins rambling... « Back to Group Discussions

[GoBecGo]

Ok so, i keep thinking i should write this down, so i will bore you guys with it, and maybe those of us with "feelings" about their pregnancies can share too.

About 6 months ago i began to feel twins around me.  I would doodle twins inside a belly on phone pads, i ordered a book on twins from amazon (the Noble one), we were looking at cars (we can't fit 3 seats in our current car so we'll need a new one) and thinking where the two buckets would fit.  I also noticed myself double ovulating a few times (i have fairly distinct ovulation pains).  I really felt twins were circling.

Fast forward to April, on the 3rd my friend had a baby girl, that evening i removed my IUD.  A few days later AF arrived and i had a dream of 2 little baby girls (we already have 2 girls, i'm a major feminist and a lot of folks joke a boy wouldn't dare grow inside me).  I ovulated the morning of the 20th.  I had burning cramps for about 40minutes then a twist of ovulation pain on the right (all my living babies have come from my right ovary).  It was VERY distinct, even for me.

At 9DPO i did a test.  It was a cheapo strip test, 3 for 99p sort of affair.  I don't know why i did it, it was a spur of the moment decision, i'd been feeling sick and i just wondered.  It was positive.  I have NEVER gotten a BFP before 13DPO, with any of my (6) previous pregnancies.

I tested again the next day.  Positive, stronger - OH couldn't see the first one but he could see the second.  That night i had a dream. In the dream i had had twin girls, Aphra and Stephanie.  Stephanie died.  She had trisomy 13 (in the dream, i mean, i had to look it up to find out what it was afterwards which was scary because she looked just like some of the photos Google throws up).  I was holding her, all fresh from being born, she had a misshapen face and a cleft lip/palate but she was still really beautiful.  She was like a little pink broken doll.  Her sister, Aphra, was fine.  In the dream i was holding her and all i felt was relief, relief that i wouldn't have to raise a disabled child.  I woke up at that second feeling wretched that i could feel that way about my own kid.  It was about 5am.  At 11am on that day (11DPO) i had some spotting.  Just a little, just for about an hour or two.  The sort of thing normal people would put down to implantation.  But i felt like the dream was a test, and i failed, and Stephanie left me.

My nausea left me, it turned out a bunch of folks i knew had had stomach flu and i realised it could have been that which made me feel ill.  But i can't shake the idea that it was early nausea from twins, and that one left me.

I don't know how i feel about it, i guess there's no way of knowing either way, if i have a scan early enough i will ask how many corpus lutea there are.  And if it's twins i will DEFINITELY be having the anomaly scan.

So that's my weird twins story.  I've never felt this sort of thing about previous pregnancies, i never had a clue who was coming before. Does anyone else have these strong feelings?

[Beltane]

Awww - I can't wait to find out if you're right!  :)
 

[mamamojo]

I think it's totally plausible that you're right. Even if I didn't find it plausible, I would lean toward your feelings being correct. I trust those feelings.
I've had no strong feelings yet with this pregnancy...although I did buy my van a few months ago in part because it seats eight rather than seven, and will easily fit two buckets in addition to the other car seats.
during my last pregnancy, I had many birth dreams (not normal for me). they were all different, but there were two factors common to all of them- that I was happily unattended, and the baby was born en caul. Guess how that birth turned out ;-)
I would love ti start having some strong feelings about this one...

[UCmamaToMany]

I have seen / felt some of my children before I was pregnant. My first son come to me in a vision. It was a strong one. I literally saw him standing outside near my 2 oldest girls as they played and he looked at me and all I could feel from him was the longing to be able to play with them too. It hit me so hard that as soon as the vision was over with I called my DH up and just simply told him "We're going to have a boy next, and his name will be Mason Nicholas." and then I told him what happened. 

We had been TTC for a while after detoxing from depo-provera (readers digest version of THAT). It still took a couple more months and I had given up testing because it was getting depressing. I was just charting. Then the one day my BFF was over and I realized my temp never dropped and I was a day late, we decided to head over to the Health Department for a free preg test. She came with me and when it came back positive we were both excited and I just told her - and pretty much EVERYONE that I was pregnant with Mason, a boy. She never said I was nuts but the looks she gave me said it all, LOL

Even on message boards and anyone I told I said I was having a boy and I'd tell them his name. No one believed me or they just thought I was crazy and blew me off - usually hoping my u/s would be wrong, LOL

So at around 20 weeks we had the gender scan and my BFF came along with us. The tech asked if we wanted to "know" and I told him I already knew it was a boy. He questioned me and asked how, and I said "I just KNOW". I even think HE wanted me to be wrong, so he went ahead and scanned for gender and said: "Well I hate to disappoint you . . . . so I won't! It's a BOY!"

My BFF's jaw dropped so far open it could have hit the floor, LOL She went on to say "I've NEVER seen some one so confident in what they were having before!" She was in complete disbelief. She was there for the BFP and then the insane antics of me telling her it WAS a boy. I just had my vision confirmed, that I was indeed having a boy! It was hilarious to see other's reactions, but I felt so vindicated.

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After my 4th, I mean literally just HOURS after his birth another little spirit invaded my space. It was an anxious little bugger too. My MCS (missing child syndrome = the feeling a child is missing from a family even though all are present and visible) was through the roof! It was a relentless and a persistent nagging. Ironically I also had a TON of breastfeeding issues with my 4th. This is what caused my double mastitis that led to a close call with sepsis, and me quitting BF (long story short there too). I quit BF after 5 months and was still waiting for a PPAF. I was trying to ignore this spirit and was going to focus on myself for a bit. I joined a gym and before I did I did a pregnancy test and it was negative. 3 weeks later still not having seen a PPAF my alarms went off in my head. I tested again, and sure enough that little spirit took it's first opportunity he had! It was super bizarre to me. But I knew he was coming and I tried as HARD as I could to ignore him and avoid pregnancy, but it just didn't work.

Even before they were older, and he started bugging me, I always felt like #4 & #5 were supposed to be twins. #4 was the only one I spotted and bled a little with. I don't know if I miscarried or if he was reabsorbed or what, but just the way things happened I seriously feel like they were supposed to be twins. Now, they look so close in age, height, etc we are asked constantly if they are twins.

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Pretty much before I ever get pregnant, I have some form of MSC. Sometimes I am told the gender and other times I just know we'll have another. With this one, I had a vision that I would have another boy. It was a year and a half ago, and I could tell that he was going to be patient because he knew there was going to be some time to go before he could join our family. I didn't tell anyone but my husband about this. After I had that vision we had a tarot card reading done by a friend at a Halloween party. For my reading there was no mention of babies/pregnancy . . . my husband's reading, however DID show he'd have more kids, LOL That's when I remembered my vision and I LMAO!

This past January when we were still discussing the possibility of TTC we had a tarot card reading. We never told her why or what for but all that kept coming up for me was babies and pregnancy stuff. It was kind of funny to us.

We also (for just shiggles) did a free reading from Cheri22 that supposed pregnancy psychic online. She said August in finding out or getting preg and she also said girl. But she also predicted a 10th child . . . a boy. Just because of this though, I am doubting my own vision on this baby possibly being a boy. DH seems to be getting more serious about a vasectomy so ATM a 10th child seems out of the realm of possibilities - even though DH is still intact. So now only time will tell with this one.

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With all of that said . . . I've also had dreams where I give birth like in the movie Alien . . . it came straight out of my stomach! LOL

[mamamojo]

Missing child syndrome! That's what my grandma calls it, and says she had it until the day I was born- her first grandchild.

[UCmamaToMany]

Originally Posted by mamamojo 

Missing child syndrome! That's what my grandma calls it, and says she had it until the day I was born- her first grandchild.

My mom had it until her 6th child. Our whole family felt it too. Oddly enough, my older daughters have felt & said "It feels like some one is missing." I remember feeling it too as the oldest sibling in my family. We'd all get & be in the van, & it just didn't feel like we were all there. Until my youngest sister joined us. :)

[sapientia]

I had MCS too-I really felt this baby fluttering around me for the last 4 years (really feels like a girl) but I suppose I wasn't ready or we had to get settled away from where we used to live or something...I'm pretty sure I felt it with all my 6 kids. Glad to know I'm not the only one!

[HarperRose]

MCS! Wow, am I glad to see this thread. I'm hesitant to talk about this sort of thing for fear of being viewed as a loon. LOL!!

Ok, I've felt MCS since I was about 6 years old. My mom had an abortion when I was about 3, so she and I just chalked it up to that. (We discussed it when I was a teenager.) Except, as an adult, I've felt it, too, kind of recently.

We just moved into a new house on March 1 and I was walking through the living room one day and was suddenly hit with "There's a baby." DH and I were preventing, so I didn't know exactly how this would end up, but it was so clear to me. Very strange. Well, I missed my March AF and I KNEW. My cycle is clockwork, you could set the Sun itself to it. :p I know what feelings I get, my mood changes, the whole 9 yards. I didn't have a single sign. And I am NEVER late. So I tested. 3 times. They were neg, weird blob in the pos spot, and then an extremely faint positive. The kind that you have to hold at an angle in a certain light, and pop it out of the case to get a vague idea. This wasn't new to me, though, because I don't get positives until 6 weeks. This one happening before 6 weeks was incredibly unusual. 8 days later, on March 26, I miscarried.

DH and I decided not to use protection until my April cycle started. Well, it never happened. Knowing cycles can be weird after a loss, I wasn't too bothered by it. Until I started having pregnancy symptoms, stronger than I did in March. I was also getting sick much more frequently. I suffer from Hyperemesis Gravidarum, so, for me, vomiting is usually my first sign. It's been remarkably mild so far, thankfully, but it's been increasing slowly. Anyway, I took a test that registers at 10mIU and it turned BRIGHT pink immediately. I was in shock. LOL Excited, I had both hands over my mouth, I slapped my husband on the shoulder. LOL 

We went to a free clinic for a test to prove pregnancy for insurance purposes and it, too, showed up nice and bright. In fact, the test line was brighter than the control. lol

Before the home test, though, DH and I talked about it. I felt twins. I had a very strong feeling of b/g twins and I couldn't shake it. I still can't. I felt it in March, before the loss, and I feel it now. I created a registry on babiesrus.com just to make a list of stuff I'm going to need this time and there's a mix of girly stuff and boyish stuff, and I'm looking at multiple strollers, carseats, Ergos, and the like. I'm also unconsciously saying babies instead of baby.

[UCmamaToMany]

Originally Posted by HarperRose 

MCS! Wow, am I glad to see this thread. I'm hesitant to talk about this sort of thing for fear of being viewed as a loon. LOL!!

Before the home test, though, DH and I talked about it. I felt twins. I had a very strong feeling of b/g twins and I couldn't shake it. I still can't. I felt it in March, before the loss, and I feel it now. I created a registry on babiesrus.com just to make a list of stuff I'm going to need this time and there's a mix of girly stuff and boyish stuff, and I'm looking at multiple strollers, carseats, Ergos, and the like. I'm also unconsciously saying babies instead of baby.

That is so cool! I hope you get your twins! I've ALWAYS wanted twins. :)

[HarperRose]

Originally Posted by UCmamaToMany 

That is so cool! I hope you get your twins! I've ALWAYS wanted twins. :)

I'm excited and hopeful, but also a little freaked. LOL We need a new vehicle and hubby kept saying, "Something that seats 6." I looked at him and said, "Or 7..." No comment.  Our current car seats only 5. 

I'm not one to get ultrasounds unless they're medically indicated, but this time I think I NEED to. In fact, I've UC'd and homebirthed w/ midwives, but this go round I REALLY feel the need to be in a hospital. Another thing I can't fully explain. Ok, on the surface, I get horrible HG and I'm exhausted and I want someone else to deal with it. But it's deeper than that. And it's not catastrophic feeling, it just feels like a better place for me to be this time. So I'm going with it.

[EvaLou32]

I had never heard anyone else talk about this, but I know exactly what you mean. After my 4th, I had that feeling very strongly. It was confusing because I'd have all four kids in the car and still feel like I was forgetting the baby. But I didn't want another one right away, so we waited. By the time the youngest was turning 3, I was longing for the next but DH wasn't convinced we should have any more. It has taken 9 years, but DH finally got the same feeling that we were supposed to have another one and it only took one month TTC. :-)

[organicviolin]

My father had these MCS dreams. It was always a girl named Rachel Louise. With my 2nd, he was conceived right after an early MC and I had a dream about it. This time I am certain I am having a girl. I am fascinated with girly things like dresses and hats etc. I was never like that with my first 2 boys. My intuition tends to be spot on with birth and death (I have a sense about when someone I am close with with be passing shortly as well as when friends of ours or myself are expecting. It's fascinating to me.

To me this little person growing in my belly feels like a Helena. I don't have a handle if there's more than 1 in there - I've had a fleeting thought that maybe there might be or maybe I'm just wanting there to be twins....

[phatchristy]

That's so funny...I've had the same thing!  

I dreamt my first child's birth--literally saw scenes from it--in the first week after we moved into our house.  I admit I did feel a bit more assured about having a successful homebirth because of it.  But, when I was pregnant with her I kept on having twin girl dreams....over and over.  I felt like there would be two girls, but that they wouldn't come at once so I could fulfill my desire for a natural homebirth.  So...I had my first girl.  Then, I got pregnant 8 months later while exclusively breastfeeding (my lp was so short I shouldn't have been able to get pregnant anyhow LOL).  And, of course, there was my second girl!  Then it all made sense and everything was complete!  LOL.

I predicted the first three genders correctly.  With my fourth...I went with his personality (laid back, easy going) and somehow I thought that was more of a feminine energy.  But, I was WRONG.

I had sort of speculated that someone was hanging around waiting to 'jump in' to join the family, and when we had our one mishap during that month I was thinking out loud "hey, if you want in this is your chance!".  Even though I'm older, was using some artificial lube at the time (which supposedly injures sperm) yep, that spirit took that one opportunity and ran with it.  Go figure.  

Back about 15 years ago I saw a Christian Intuitive who saw a large family in my future.  Which, at the time I thought I would be having one kid....too many things from that experience came true.  And, I suspect that 'large family' for me would mean more than four...because I am one of four, I have siblings who have four and most of my aunts and uncles have four.  So, in our family four was pretty normal!

But, either way, this babe feels like a huge blessing.  I'm hopeful that everything will turn out well for this pregnancy.  Making it into the second trimester, hearing a heartbeat are milestones I think I'll feel more relieved at when I reach them.

[phatchristy]

Originally Posted by mamamojo 

Missing child syndrome! That's what my grandma calls it, and says she had it until the day I was born- her first grandchild.

LOL...I think I had that, which was why I was somehow expecting that we might 'not' be done even though it looked like we were (we were not going to ever purposely try to have another).  I have always said that I felt that my pregnancies would mimic my mother's in a lot of ways.  And interestingly enough they have.  With the exception of my last being a boy.  My moms last (me) was an unexpected (happy accident as she called it) pregnancy with a girl!  So, I guess I'll just be waiting and seeing if that is the case here as well!