I am 22 years old and have been struggling with some sort of mental illness since I can remember (let's say, at least 12 years).
I have never in my life had stability (even as a child, I was shuffled from one home to another) and have basically been in what I call chaos mode my whole life. Like, I can't deal with my issues and calm down and work through everything because I honestly always have 5+ super stressful situations going on at once. I can't concentrate, have memory issues, sleeping patterns are off the wall, little initiative or follow through, I let everything build up until I breakdown (once every couple months?) My thoughts feel like they are going 10000 MPH and they jump so quickly it's hard to hold a conversation with anyone, let alone have them on the same wavelength long enough to follow it.
I have been in and out of counseling since I was 18 and realized I had a problem. I have trouble articulating the problems I encounter so I never really get good feedback from counselors and just stop going when I don't feel like it's going anywhere. (I also believe a lot of them feel like I'm being less than truthful because until I actually breakdown, I am emotionless). I feel like I need a way to work through these issues on my own, but I don't really know where to start. I've had all kinds of things thrown around that "could" be my problem: Asperger's, Social Anxiety, Anxiety, Depression, Antisocial Personality Disorder... The problem with ALL of them is that none of them are 100% and I overlap with a few key points from them, but in "treatment" they just want to pick one and try to fix that.
Also, on the note that I am super-stressed, I have already gotten rid of any non-essential stressors and even cut many stressing people out of my life (including most of my family), the stressing situations that are left I literally have no choice but working through.
I don't expect anyone else to have answers, but even just a push in the right direction would be greatly appreciated...