Hi everyone! I just found out I am pregnant last Saturday evening. We are so elated to be expecting, and have been trying since December. This will actually be our rainbow baby. We lost our sweet, vivacious 27month old son Evan unexpectedly this January when his heart went into sudden cardiac arrest while playing at our local park. I expect this will be a rough pregnancy for me emotionally, simply because of the fact that I am still grieving the loss of my sweet boy. I am so happy to have this new little soul to look forward to meeting in January! My due date is January 29th, but all four of my other children were born anywhere from 10 days to 3 days early, so I expect him/her to arrive a little sooner than that! Anyway, just wanted to say hello and that I look forward to getting to know you guys over the next 9 months!
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I am so sorry that happened to you and your family. What a nightmare. I know it's not even remotely comparable, but having had a miscarriage a few months back I feel like I'm having a hard time 'connecting' to this baby because my mind is so often on the other one I lost. There was a very strong energy surrounding that pregnancy, it was very spiritually intense in ways that I never experienced with my son. I was sure I was having a Scorpio daughter and I could ''feel'' her so strongly I wasted no time in investing my heart and soul into her. This go round I have a hard time 'feeling' much of anything because I feel a bit paralyzed by fear and really blocked in ways that I know I need to work past so that I can connect and love this one just as much. I have no idea if you are experiencing anything similar, I just don't have much else to offer other than I have had a tiny taste of loss and it was devastating. I can't even imagine the pain you have been through, mama. I hope this experience is a healing one and if you even need to talk, don't hesitate...
Im so very sorry, my heart breaks for you and your amazingly strong family. I started to read your whole facebook, but had to take a break. What a precious little boy.
My 5 year old daughter is battling a very aggresive form of brain cancer called GBM, while i do not know the pain of loosing a child, i do know how i am having a very bitter sweet reaction to being pregnant. If you ever need or want to talk please feel free to PM me.