Nese, your post was so incredibly touching! I agree, everyone here is amazingly supportive. We all need someplace to vent, someplace to cry, and someplace to celebrate. In the past 14 months I've seen a lot of women's stories. Some end in babies, some don't, but I feel like I've made some new friends.
You're taking the right approach to this cycle. All the worrying in the world didn't make my first two cycles work. When I finally let go, that's when I saw results. I did give up caffeine this cycle (I drank decaf or half caf for the first two), as well as artificial sweeteners, and I stopped drinking when I started the pill. But that was my choice, as I figured since I was paying out of pocket I was going to pull out all the stops. I didn't go crazy with supplements though, just took a few I thought would benefit my general health, and this time I just put my trust in Dr T because I knew he was great at what he did. I think protocol is an enormous part of the equation, especially for me. And sometimes your body is either going to allow it to work or not. We just kind of have to go along for the ride.
I'm also on Metformin. The weight gain is terrible, but with Metformin I find I don't gain weight as easily as I did before. This is the first cycle where I actually have not gained ANY weight (other than water weight post trigger) and I've been on lupron, bcp, and steroids! I am excited for you to hear from your doctor. Have faith. You've done what you can, you can lose the weight later when you breastfeed :P
As for me.... it's 11:21 and I haven't received a phone call. Which means I've got blasts to transfer! I wrapped up my cookies (which are perhaps the best cookies I've made... recipe here: http://www.browneyedbaker.com/2008/06/21/thick-and-chewy-chocolate-chip-cookies/ , and I plan on leaving the house at noon. I'll meet DH in the city, we'll have a quick lunch, and then off to SIRM for my transfer. I'm still watching my phone as if it will ring, and I'm still afraid to be too excited, but a teensy part of me is doing cartwheels right now.











sticky vibes! rest up and let those babies snuggle in!



Enjoy, and let your babies snuggle in!

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