Just for this thread, I created a new account. I have been an mdc member for a few years. People irl know my user name and I didn't really want them to know my thoughts about uc.
A little background ... About five years ago I birthed my twins in a hospital. 21 months later, I had a vbac at home. The decision to homebirth was mostly because my husband and I couldn't "go back" to the hospital setting. It was a difficult birth and recovery for me. In general, I never had thoughts to homebirth before having twins, however, once we were pregnant with our third, the option to homebirth was on the table. In preparation for my hbac, I had to deal with the fear of uterine rupture (I really wasn't that concerned about other issues that could come up - only rupture). I was truly very scared about rupturing, however, my fears were eased the more I read about the low-risk nature of this occurrence (reading evidence-based scientific journals).
Overall, my homebirth was very good. I had a nice team of people, however, I now find myself thinking about giving birth without anyone in the room, with the exception of my husband and possibly kids. I learned that having people in the room made me relinquish some of the responsibility of birth.
Fast forward to today. I just learned that I am pregnant again. My husband thinks we're having another assisted homebirth. I told him I need to think about what to do. I'm actually thinking about having the birth without someone there (or possibly a doula in another room). I want to be completely focused on what's going on, and not directed by someone else. I do want to have a midwife come after the birth to check the placenta, etc..
I don't know if I have any specific questions or not. I guess I'm trying to "feel" my feelings out and find my way through this journey of pregnancy and birth.