I'm freaking out a bit today and just need a place to vent. We found out yesterday that DH will be deploying for a year this summer. We don't have all the details yet, so we haven't told anyone in real life. I can handle being pregnant with him gone and even the birth without him, but the thought of those first few months alone with a toddler and a new born has me worried. The likelihood of him deploying with his current job was so small, that this has really caught me off guard. Tomorrow I'll put on a brave face and start planning, but for today I'm angry and upset and just need to fall apart a little.